-sigh-
i'm really mentally shagged.
really.
finally fell aslp at 2 last nite.
cudn't rrly get outa bed todae.

zzzzz.
school's alright todae.
cause nv rrly see nua nua.
hee. =D
(saw him w.o gang around. so no big woo-ha) :P

what else?
hmmm....
mr toh says there's no fine line draw between me and him as cher n student sia
lol.
he's v nice though.
always suaning me and letting me suan. :P

i'm very tired.

gotta implement some rules for myself.
=(
must follow them.
well, i going to run. =)

happy birthday lil' bro! =)

two words:


pimple war.

ahh.
yesterday just shit.
stupid manda volunteered me to type the netball namelist for mrs lim.
like thank you loh.
i had to wait for the com.
(intend to slp at 10 tt nite)
was rrly shagged le.
den jie shut off the com at 10.
so i rushed to the com, hoping to finish the list by 10.30.
den 10.15, jie came and said she wanted to use for her interview.
den she kpkpkpkpkpkpkpkpkpkp.
i was like v pissed when i walked off loh.

it's like, u got ur work to do.
i got mine.
since u walked off the com, it's my turn to complete mine loh.
=_____________-
you rushing ur interview job, i oso rushing wad.
i oso nid to wake up earli for sch.
(even earlier den u need to lo)
den i'm also human loh.
why carn u think of me.
why u so selfish one.
den when i finally get the com, i expect jie to slp loh.
den she's happily talking on the fone.
argh...
if u intend to sleep late den let me do my work 1st wad. =_-
hurmpf. =(
i dunoe la. i got so upset over this yesterday that i cried.
dun ask me why.
i also dunoe.


i'm just human.guess i'm just too tired.
i can't handle everything.


but believe, i still love my jie. =)


on today,
school's great cuz it ends fast todae.
wasted 1.80 on the canteen food.
apparently, the bread store auntie dun even know wad she's selling loh.
the bread store cappa sucks. bitter. urgh. =P

didn't really see nua zai todae la.
which was good,
cuz my gang intend to point at him when they see him and scream NUA NUA!
(apparently they want to let him know that he's nua nua loh)

well, what else?
oh, i finally know how to do transformation le.
yay! shall go do my work.

it's nice to have a nap everyday after school.

oh. i feel bad for tua-ing ms goh. =(


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

haha.
must talk about nua nua's adventure today.
and ah gong and hong hong.

si ge's journey is done and over.
todae is pei shan's last day.
-sniff-

we saw si ge and nua nua talking outside LT1
(was headin to LT for bio lect)
den jen jen and gang saw..
they went 'jiamiN! nuA nua and si ge noe each other!'
i mean i dun mind if they keep their voiced low.
but they kept repeating the same ting with the volume getting higher n higher.
lol.
den think nua nua suspect smth. si ge too.
lol.
den during break, we saw nua nua yet again.
jen jen was sittin behind me, nudged me.
den say?'nua nua come le nua nua come le'
den i siam la. she say so loud.
den try pretend nth happen.
den ah ma screm so loud: NUA NUA v NIAO! the chili n mayo add so much'
=_________-lol. damn damn damn.

just update tml! =)
lol.

we're so crap.

now.. not only i can't face ah lek (cuz i got 4/15 for chem. lowest loh)
i carn even face nua nua. =_-

darn it.

ahhh!

dead beat.

shall sleep den study

since i failed another test.

chemistry.

how can tt be?

it's supposed to be favourite subject next to biology.

i'm sad yet i can still slack.

but not now le.

stupid wake-up call.


i'm so a s h a m e d.

-shall try not signing in msn for 1 day. =)
from now onwards.
if anything, tag my board! =)

cheers!

Dear life,










you S U C K

damn damn damn damn.

failed my maths test yet again.
just that this is on transformation.

nth in my life gets better eh?

i hate PW.
it makes me waste lotsa ink.
-pooh!-

ahh! me gettin fat!
everyday is twix, twix and twix.

twix make me happy.
(when frens dun)

twix make me feel loved.
(when family dun)

twix make me broke [$1.21 for one packet loh]
(when frens make me bankrupt)

twix make me satisfied
(when i am not contented with wad i have)

twix make me fat.
(heck. i'm fat enuf)

twix makes me awake.
(when i'm kept in the dark.)

so...

twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.
twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.
twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.
twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.
twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.
twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.twix.

ya rule my world.

hell.

-yum yum yum yum-

must study.
cannot play play liao.

i kinda dread heading back to school tomorrow.
so suxy. =(

i'm tired too.
need sleep.
sometimes, it's good to be dead.
but then. still, i'm glad to be alive. =D

suddenly, i got nth to blog.
i feel so.....





e m p t y

well, just woke up.
no time liao.
must chiong.
1stly, need food. =D
so....

shall head to the kitchen n look for my dumpling!
wheee. =D

-shd i go hk todae? =(

i missed cong.
-sniff-

i missed having a confidante.
i missed having a best friend.
i missed everything we shared.

oooh.. i like adrian's nick for todae.
it goes like:
when u smile, you seriously look like an angel.
that's WHEN you smile.

sooo... chhheeezzzzee!!!

dedicated to my jay jay.

well well,
-shagged-
just came home from the airport with jessie.
-grinz-

i missed talkin to tt gurl.
as in, we used to go through a lot of stuffs during sec 4 days.
well, -grinz-

went the cold storage to get my twix.
-am a happy gurl after eating twix-
wheeeeeeee! =D

wad else?
i'm gettin all fat and pimplely.
gawk.

must head to bed.
nites peeepz! =D

ahhh!
-looks disturbed-

din know that i carn be trusted.
din know that my bez frens keep stuffs frm me.
-sniff-

i'm so hurt!
-sniff-

shall keep things to myself frm this day onwards.
talk about me being petty. (lol)

ahhhh... practically wasted the whole day slacking and eating today.
sometimes, must self-admit tt i'm lousy.
but then, argghhh....
i'm so broke.

must start collecting money from pple hu owe me.
plus, i'm pretty much in a dilemma on.
(though i know my stand)
how how how how how?!?!?

must commit myself to full-time mugging after dinner later.
now pei shan talking to me about her alex and my nua zai.
apparrently, nua nua was her OGL.
lol. so farni.

what else?
ooooh... downloaded lotsa songs.
ooh. li yan made her own blog todae.
i'm proud of her! =)
so ever proud. =)

what else what else?
-sigh-
i.............
i.....
i....

felt so deprived of something......

which is............









t i m e

hey hey hey hey hey! =D
this week is finally over.

i need a breather.


breathe.breathe.breathe.

plans on waking up at 5am were cancelled.
thouhg benny did attempt to wake me up.
but my body defeated my mind.

well, me and jie yin talking about hong hong and nua nua
seriously, i dunoe why i'm linked to him.
cause they kept telling me that nua nua 's my good fren.
oh well, dun mind. he's fine with me.
i mean at least he looks okie and is a pretty smart ass.
ahh.. heck. who am i to judge?
oh.. additional info:he drinks bandung. -giggles-

jie yin reminded me about the linkage.
it started when he gives presentation on biology lah.
den the way he stands, and leans all over the place, was pretty amusing.
lol. like, no bones lidat loh.
talk oso must lean against the stand.
den i said something like, he v cute arh (the way he stands) nua nua lidat.
den they started pairing me up with him.
lol.

jie yin 's good fren is hong hong.
some track and field guy.
he got acne on his cheeks so it's v red on both sides.
it happened during the roadrun.
we were sittin along the roadside, looking at the guys running to the finish line.
den hong hong was running.
jie yin: look at that guy! so poor thing! run so much until the whole face turn red!
the thing is that she said v loudly.
all we said was: it's lidat not becuz of the running.
cause we're luffin so ever loudly.
bleahs.

next, amanda and her 'ah gong'
that art student who frequent the art room.
lol.
the incident is that we were in the lecture theatre.
during chem, a gurl dropped her whole unzipped pencil case on the floor.
ah gong, seeint it, went over to pick the stuff up for her.
from then on, amanda become his fan.
while he became her idol.

li yan.
lol.
hers was a tragic one.
and still is.
she was paired with ah ming ge. aka tt idiotic irritating botak guy.
hmm... hers was cuz everyone in the clique have a good fren, so she nids one too.
and ah ming ge always calls her and treat her drinks ribena,
so we suspect... hehe. :P

pei shan.hers is wu liao.
it's also becuz everyone has a good fren, so we created one for her.
since she refuses to reveal a guy. =_-
we name her good fren: si ge.
cuz she's is shan as in threee. so her fren will be si (four)
call us lame.

well, i know it's lame.
but wad do u expect us to do in a boring college.
we have to amuse ourselves sometimes.
with frequent remindings of nua nua being seen, and hong hong.
with following ah gong and waiting for him to come out of the art room, and everyone will luff.

call me lame.
call me stupid.

but allow me to call you:


yao siew.

tired!!!
school's fine todae.
except everyone was 'hot' todae.
well well, heck heck.

PW was trash todae.
we did everything the 'chop chop' way. =D
watched the tennis peepz play.
tpjc vs mjc.
nua nua played leh. lol.
he looked pretty 'red' in the face when i saw him during netball.
bleah.

netball is pretty hard on us today.
pretty shagged after all the torturing they gave us.
tml's frisbe.
ahh. fun but tiring.

somebody,



save me.



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just went on friendster.
saw zhi wei's page (the mjr guy who dies after committed suicide)
i felt anguished. =/

somehow, i think that i'm not living life to the fullest.

quoted frm mr gui (in frenster):
i dun understand many things.sometimes, i wonder, if i could have been better. i lost many things, but i lost two persons whom i missed a lot. hope they are fine, somewhere where out there. sometines i chant for them. hope they received the merits.

quoted frm tt guy's gf to gui:
yO.. thanks for your praise.. er.. mR gui ar.. he's my form teacher wor.. he's a very nice teacher.. *thUmbs up* someone that really cares for his students.. so I'm really glad to have you as a teacher.. er.. thanks for all ur care and concern for this period of time.. and thanks for all your message.. your encouragements... n hOr.. I never think that you are "fan".. so don't worry.. But i think that your hp bill last month should be quite high ba.. haha.. er.. yea.. we'll all miss him.. he'll always be our heart.. Even if next time we graduated le.. just hope that you'll remember I'm once your pupil.. that will be enough.. N zhiwei too.. i'm sure that's what he feels.. he would just want you to remember that he's once your pupil.. though he had made u angry before.. but he also feel that you're a really nice teacher.. haha.. yeah! that's words from the bottom of my heart.. true wor.. so just wanna tell you.. be cheerful.. *sMile aLways* and continue lead ur happy life.. haha.. n hor.. when you getting married ar? old le la.. later nobody want then u know.. hee~ tat's all.. in short.. Mr Gui's the best teacher i have met in my life.. haha.. kk.. bYe byE~~~

quoted frm gui to that guy's gf:
is a nice girl...she likes to POP out infront of me in canteen, and then hor, tell me how she is doing. thanks, MH, for being yourself, and definitely i have been thinking of you all these days. solie for smsing you too frequently.though your reply is juz a word or so of "fine, thankyou", i am happy liao. your cheerfulness has gone with him. i think. i cried,prayed... for having such good pupils , like u and ZhiwEi. MH , i knoe you would strong. i juz wanna to tell you, you have been very nice girl, probably top pupil, 6As! take care alawys,really love you as a nice pupil. ... :)

quoted frm the ger blaming herself:

A ger tat is bad-tempered, likes to throw tantrums, very petty, get angry n sad easily. But i know it's wrong le, but everything is tooooo late le. Nth can be done anymore. I'm a bad fren to haf, a bad gf n everything tat is bad. I defintely NOT a person someone can confide in, Otherwise it wouldn't had happened rite? A ger tat dun trust pple anymore becos someone had broke a promise.. a promise tat changes her life completely.. yet it may not be because inside her heart, she still believes tat he is right beside her. Just wanna tell him.. you took my heart away when u left..So nobody gonna replace u in my heart. And I promise that I will never let you go again. =) er.. i've met my [[pIg pRince]] le.. though u left mi behind.. yet I still wanna meet u again.. And I believe that one day, we gonna meet again.. and when we meet, I gonna hug u tightly and i will never let u go again. I promise. So just wanna sae.. do treasure everyone around u.. esp those u love most.. nv neglect their feelings.. dun be so selfish.. dun be angry over small issues.. nv be sad or they're be sad too.. or else you'll regret it one day.... just like mi.

the testimonial the guy wrote for her:
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he calls her:pig officer
she calls him:pig prince.well, it's pretty saddening.
now. though it happened long ago.

well, i dun noe how am i to copw when i were her.
i dunnoe why he got the courage to die but not face reality.
i dunoe.
i dunoe.
but i believe, there'll be one day i'll understand how they feel.
i dun wan to. -shakes head-

well, must mug.

me against myself.
and me against time.
-runs-

boo yer! =)

wassup with today?
-having a slight headache now-
argh. =)
it sucks cause i haf to mug on maths lata. =(
bother bother bother.

wassup?
oh. damn shagged today.
went school 1/2 dead.
after all tt stuff -lectures and tutorials, went for pe lah
last lesson.
we were expected to run 6 rounds.
i almst vomittted during the 1st round.
but i kinda-like exert it back in my body.
wahh the taste v horrible. like v spicy lidat.
den 2nd round, i felt like puking again. =_-
so for the 3rd round, i stopped and went for toilet.
tried to puke out everything.
but nth came out.
wash my mouth and drank a lot.
den continue to ran for 1 more round.
the blardy sun is sooooo big out there that it's unbearable.
argh.

what else?
been sweating the whole day todae.
okie, went gossiping after sch.
bought myself waffle and milo shake with pearls with weiliang.
while jen and manda had their mango/lemon yoghurt shake.
well, den went home and slpt for two whole hrs.
i'm damn shagged. damn. =_-

hmmm.....
had 2 tests todae.
one is surprise.(chem) one is we-all-knew-it kind.(maths)
lol. comfirm fail maths. chem arh. i duneo leh.
din finish. tin will fail oso.

i still v buay song kana booked leh. damn.
=_-
one yr can only book 2 times if i dun wan to go for cip leh.
so irritating can.
argh..

wad else?
jie yin kept tokin abt snoopy.
so i kept harping on nua-nua.
sometimes, it's like i think he knows that we call him nua nua.
but heck la. but if he does think tt i rrly hav a crush on him..
den so be it lah. =/
somtimes, life's lidat.
don bother to explain so much de lah.
it only creates more troubles to life...

had a dream.
and it consist of nua nua.
lol. soo farni.
he and his red-bag-best-fren. lol.
it went like this: it was jen's voting day.
(apparently, it's through electronic voting )
but i dreamed of jen having those big big black trash bag to throw her votes in.
den we saw nua nua and his goot fren, eating steamboat (lol)
den jen was like, telling me tt she wan him to vote for her as well.
den i went over and tell him...
(i forgot the later part) Lol.
but it's so crappy lah...

sheesh. i'm addicted to saying 'yao siew' and 'nua nua'
i hate the weather.
it's making me sick.

somebody,

take me away.
take me far away from here.




i will run with you.

9:49:00 PM

well well, talk about yesterday.
been a bad gurl la.
went airport to mug.
drank rhumba frap. (soooo ex!)
oooh.. den kana chased by the starbucks peepz there.
but i din leave.
they said: no studying.
so i kept all my stuff and took my notes out to read.
lol.
intend to say tt i'm reading the next time they chase me away.
in the end, two ang mohs sat with me.
apparently, they were comparing and telling each other about their illness.
i was overhearing their conversation.
lol. they're cute. =)
two middle-aged man.
okie, one farted when he sat down. lol
(pooh!)
saw syarif and his gf when taking the trin.
okie, they went airport too.


hmmm... todae.
bad day.
amanda was crap earli in the morning.
dunoe why,
got a lot of 'JIAMIN! YOU CUT UR HAIR!!!!' callings.
hur hur. cool. lol.
my hair rrly suck la.
even nua nua doesn't look like me now. LOL.
(den jie yin will say: doesn nua nua noe your existence in the v 1st place.)
(i dun rrly care lah. but i like his nua-ness') lol
argh. it suck la. the hair.
the jie jie bluff me.

okie, here comes the stupidest and uncool part of todae.
i was booked by tt PIKACHU for nt tucking in my blouse.
HOW UNCOOL.
i was like, hi! waving to him, hoping tt he wun book me.
who noes tt idiot observe me like siao.
i bet if i dun cut my hair he wun book me.
(he simply dun recognise me leh tt idiot)
okie, this suck cuz i kept thinking about through my whole day in sch.
i just felt so bad.
my first time kay.
jie yin lah! accompany her to the photocopy shop den see tt pikachu one.
-sigh-
heck. (how i wish i can heck)
bother bother bother....

wad else?
oooh. just came beck frm jen jen's hse.
went there for suntanning.
she's feeling damn upset about her council grp now.
i can't help her much.
just felt a bit sad for u and regretful for myself and sorry.
-sigh-
life's lidat.
u dunoe wad u missed until u lose it.
oh wells, at least i missed my hair.


oh damn.
shall go mug maths now.
since tml got test.

bother bother bother.

you disappeared.
love disappeared.
now, where am i go ?

i thought of giving up myself.
but give up....


give what up?

damn.

why do i sound so much like a stalker.





letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo
letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo.letitgo

woooh!!
my adrenaline's pumping.
don ask me why.
-tapes mouth over n over again-

ahhh!
so worried yet so happy.
lol.
-whacks myself.-
i'm so dead.

bother bother bother.
ought to be chionging my work now.
yup.
but i shall type on y'dae.

went to meet chun hui,xin hui and sam sam outside tao nan pri.
(nua nua's primary school!) -giggles-
on our way, we passsed by vj.
massive grp of vs kids running out the college.
(their sports' day held in vj)
so cute loh..
think their bus came, den they run. lol.
so cute leh.
lol. so funny that i stood up frm my seat n look.
lol. =D

den met them le.
walked to east coast.
gossiping and kpkb-ing about others meanwhile.
reached pit 28.
saw the other starting the fire for the bbq.
din rrly go and help.

( firstly, i dun wanna help.
secondly, they dun need my help
thirdly, i dun wanna see them nor they wanna see me )

they started the fire while my gang sat and talk n talk.
den keenie and gang came.
we started gossiping. lol.
so fun. den ate wadeva they cooked for us.
hell, it's the 1st bbq i ever felt my tummy filled.
cuz i din bbq the food.
the 'gang' did.
me, i did my job as a eater.
wheee.

den sat down on the sand, listen to waves, looked at the stars.
with amanda.
den with my discman, we sang and sang n sang.
so shiok.
the stars are so pretty! =D

well, den i left loh.
damn shagged y'dae.
slpt for 11 hrs.
damn.

quoted frm jeremy:
this is life.

you're very rude.
you need to improve on your english.

lolx. stupid.
tt's what the asshole told me.
just went to look for tt renos. (heck abt de spelling of his name)
den he KPKB me on withdrawin the council.
ask me improve on my english.
wtf loh.
the rudest thing said was: that's why i'm here talking to you.

i noe i sound selfish in there but fuck.
at least i'm honest.
seriously, i got nth to tell him so wadeva comes into my mind, goes outa my mouth.
so i starting 'huh'-ing him.
fucking hell, wassup with huh?
wad can u do if i dun use the pardon word.
fuck.

aya, i managed to withdraw frm council le.
den tt fahan, will get to see my ugly foto.
argh! just imgaine him luffin and showing everyone my foto.
argh.
lol

i mean yah, tt renos is right.
right on scolding us and telling us wad's right or wrong.
but look, he's also selfish himself wad.
fucking hell.
aya, heck.
i'm outta council.


actually, the thing is, i dunoe if i regretted withdrawing from it o nt.
think about the fun during election.
think about the cca pts.
think about the benefits.
lol.

damned.
i'm so damned.
i dun even noe wad i want.
i regretted, yet i dun.
argh.
wad's going on.

someone help me!

fuck.






HUH?

grrrrrr.... even more.

blardy hell.
straight after this, i'm going to bed.
and have a nice n short nap.
some people just have to irritate me when i'm restless.

let's talk about tan ah lek.
stupid chem tutor.
no wonder tpjc is gettin' lousier and lousier each yr.
such a bloody slacker.
might as well quit his job and save tpjc some reputation.
bloody hell.
always act so nice in front of me. like fren fren.
wondered how many times he have backstabbed me.
fucking idiot.
ask him when he free so tt we can ask him qns.
wad he said was: i dunoe my schduele, u'll see me ard lah.
bloody ass.

waited for him for like 1 hr and 1/2.
den told by mdm twu that he gone home.
and he knows that we r waiting for him loh.
great right.

wad's more.
when we told him we need help from him.
he went off and tell mdm twu: me and amanda evrytime dun listen in class.
talk talk talk and luff luff.
den after lesson, we go and find him.

tell me what shit is that?
(though it's true we were caught luffing v loudly during chem prac)
it's like totally irrelevant loh.
we wanted to ask him about the 1st 3 mths tutorials loh.
wad's his fucking problem?

he's always teachin tt nicole.
fine fine fine fine.
i dun mean that he will ever help me in my work but den,
even if he wants to, i dun want his help.
arggghhhhhh........

i'll make sure i score better in chem den nicole.
damn it.

fucking hell.
i dun even think i need a chem tutor now.
FUCK.

yao siew kia. =_-

was told off by mdm twu about it anyway.
i mean, mdm twu's real nice.
i think i've disappointed her.
being her civics rep and yet complained by tutor.
plus, i know she dotes on me.
-sigh-
fine den.


bloody ah lek.

you just made me even motivated to study.

ggrrr...
stupid silly gurl is driving me crazy.
but den.. i carn rrly be bothered lah.
cuz i nid to chiong my atomic structure tutorial.
amanda's bugging me for that. lol

anyway, she've gone overboard loh.
i mean wassup with making peace and saying hello.
wad's her problem.
(still, it's none of her business)

wassup with 'infested', 'extreme makeover'
i told amanda abt it during chem lab.
lol.
amanda said that she's still so immature and childish.
this time, finally, i agreed with amanda. lol.

will be seeing her on friday.
hope that she look, at least mature.


if anyone ever messed up my or any gud fren's life,
i'll make sure i screw them back triple the price.
ass.

haha.
maybe it's worth it.
maybe it's not.
but hell, i did it.
and it's okie. so.. haha. =D

todae's a bit shitty.
was late for school.
i took the bus for only one stop den i walked all the way to school.
sweat like hell.
so argh!
was already pissed with mama n papa for lying to me. =_-
it's like blardy shit cuz there's a fire engine parking in the middle of the road,
obstructing the whole road. ARGH.
wasn't booked late though.

went for chem lab.
lol. kana scolded by ah lek.
cuz me n ahma were talkin very loud.
in the end, we carn finish our work.
lol. den he kept kpkbing. =_-
the rest of the lessons are fine.
den went for netball.
damn cool.
lol. was very tired though. zzz
den looked at the tpjc softballers against vj softballers.
tpjc lost like siao. lol.
heckkk.

den played volleyball after netball.
zzzzz.
my right sole is hurting.
the skin is peeling.
my big shoes' fault.
argh.
stupid physics - friction.
ARGGGHHH!!

i must do atomic structure liao.
-sigh-
tata. =D

silly me.
did my last silly stuff just now.
let's see if it's worth it.
-wink-

sheesh.
i thought different about you ever since a year ago.
i thought you are better.
i thought...

well, all i thought(s).
well, the words you used are still as shitty.
maybe u haven't change.
well, continue being the suxy one if you like to.
but mind you, mind you language dear.
at least, look before you type.
don go around insulting my frens.
dont.

will be seeing you on friday.
-sigh-
please, don't let me hate you all over again.

yay.
just got home.
am sticky. i mean very sticky.
with sweat and wax.

wax - jerome's loreal wax.
will try to rub it off later. argh. i din noe u need special shampoo for wax-ed hair. =_-

sweat - came in 1st for the stupid 4 x 400m trial.
lol. i don even wanna join loh. =_-
stupid class peep sabo.
den at 1st, all the runners agreed on just jogging.
as in joggin in the straight line.
lol.
apparently, i was in lane five.
(so i am the furtherest person and i'm the 1st one to run the relay)
so i was like jogging lo.. lol..lettin the ger in lane 4 catch up with me.
blardy hell,
the teachers were like screaming : WHY YOU ARE JOGGING!!! THIS IS A COMPETITION!!!!
den the gurl in the lane 3 started running..
so i ran oso loh.
i tot i came in 1st lah.. heck den amanda ran, den qian yi and madalene.
den we won! (yay!)
nice and happy. =D

todae lessons were boring.
amanda's mood is like shit todae.
for she screamed at me and jia yin for playing with one another.
we just used our PE tee and whack each other. lol.
(i was pretty irritated cuz we're just playing loh. i mean wad's her problem? it's MY GAME wad. =_-)
den she walked off the canteen on her own. =_-
den she screamed in class just becuz she dunoe how to do maths
(if i noe, i'd have taught her but apparently, i oso nv do)

well, weird weird.
but at the end of the day, she calmed down n acted per normal.
funny gurl.
growing up phase. lol =D
we were talking abt everything during gp lessons.
so funny. lol.

hmmm....
i can't see wad kenny wrote for my testi.
lol. can't wait too.

well, i'm starting to fear guys. lol.
dunoe why. they just give me the creeps.

and stupid jerome went: no wonder u no bf
i was like: hello loh, is i dun wan anyone.
he: don lie loh. aya, sanjay la sanjay.
me: ..................................
jerome jerome.
poor guy. gf went aussy le.
bleah.

i'm v broke.
spent 27.65 bucks on bio.
den must go get the gp book for 19.90.
den owe amanda 38 bucks for chalet n bbq.
great.

i only left like 30 cents now loh.
how nice.

-grumble grumble grumble-
i shall go bathe and start mugging.

heard what tt econs cher, james told jia ying.
i'm pretty motivated by tt guy.
i think he's a great cher.
nice guy.
shall study. =D
and study and study.
shall make sure tt i win tt .................

argh.
she called me 'overweight' when i'm just 2 kg heavier den she is.

well, i think she's cool in her own way.
cool la. but a bit insensitive eh?
well, i shall study instead to think about her.
wad else??
ooh.. got my ipw group todae.
must say i'm disappointed in some ways.
but den, it's cool too.

dunoe if i m still in the election.
it's a bit regretful quittin council.
(be practical, think abt the cca pts!)
but well, it'll take up much time.
oh well, let fate do its work.


well well,

nerd i shall be.

lalalalalalala.

just found a lost primary schoolmate.
wong fei hong. john wong. (:
cool.
lol.

what else?
school's stress.
ended school at 2,45 yet went home at 6.
was doing apgp.
did 5 ap questions.
almost killed myself.
yahh. =_-

poor grandmama.
she's sick.
ayo, she vomitted during dinner.
this' bad.
she's old and feeble.
i hope she gets well soon. =D

ohya, i must have suck.
why is every guy dao-ing me.
stupid adrian. sms him, he wun reply.
now it's hock. blardy hell.
grrrrrrr...
anyway, i understand somehting.
i must refrain from guys.
yeap yeap.

guys.. yucks!

lalalalalala.

sanjay just sent me adrian foto.
so crap. he looks.... erm.. erm... lousier den before.

den i started thining about darius, hock, etc etc.
there's one thing for sure,

i used to find vsnp guys v cute.
well, erm.. erm.. until now.

hahaha. =D
wad else?
went for dinner with family.
nice prawns. =D

went drama class too.
oh.. was pretty damned at first.
was walkin to mrt..
den i rubbed my eyes and find my vision getting blurrer.
thinking, i lost my left contact len, i went home to wear specs. thinkin tt dad will bring me to drama.
den.. he was slping (great)
so i went there by myself (leaving my contact container at home)
den i felt smth in my eyes.
i rubbbed and rubbed n rubbed den the left contact len rolled outa my eye.
(how nice)
argh! the good thing is i found my conatct len.
but the thing is where am i supposed to put it?
i emptied all my stuff in the smallest bag of mine. (heng i brought it out)
den threw tt contact len inside,
haha. so funny.
den was luffed in drama when i'm supposed to read a not-so-funny passage.
how nice. =_-
den went home, found my contact len in the bag have hardened and shrink!
lol. so funny.
den everything went well after that.

well,

how can i live without twix?

argh.
it's weird.
i can't stop arguing with cong thesedays.
wassup with the insults and the desperate-ness for gurls.
it's damn irritating.
it's just gggrrrrrrrrr! when i gets upset with him.

well, i love my family now.
lol.
cuz my grandmama gives me 2 bucks when i was abt to go out.
(i just returned her cuz i have no use for it)
den my brother got me a yakult.
so cute eh?

man, summation is tough.
i don like..
but i just finished chemical bonding!
so proud of myself! =D
i like chemistry a lot except fo the calculation part.
may i get to know my VA and moles well. =D

death is the end of life, not relationships. =D

just looked through zhen yi's profile in frenster.
it makes me ponder on dragonboat.
i wondered if i regretted quitting it.
it's weird.



its advantages of quitting:
1. more time to sleep.
2. no more grumbles on the cca itself.
3. no more leg cramps.
4. no more anthony.
5. no more heavy bags containing sandals, soaps and extra clothings.
6. no more pain in the eyes due to sea water going into ur eyes.
7. no more long wait for bus at leisure park
8. no more sun lotions
9. no more 38 push-ups each training.



its disadvantages:
1. no more seeing weiliang/hock chuan at kallang.
2. no more nice ban mian
3. lesser close friends.
4. less interaction between fellow dragonboaters.
5. disappointment in me by seniors, esp ella.
6. i dunoe how to get my 20 bucks dragonboat tee.
7. lessing the chance on seeing my gymnast - he might take up canoeing over there.
8. less chances to jian fei-ing (no more running, push-ups)
9. lesser frens la. (basically)

man.
now i wanna withdraw from council.
so that i can join netball and health n fitness club.
i wanna start my interact club activities leh! =D

shall go back to mug on chemical bonding
i like that topic! =D
whee!

damn damn damn damn damn! =/

sheesh.
ought to be mugging hard now.
(since i promise myself to)
i will.
i still feel weird on not seeing the title thingy in my blog post.
oh well. (:

just went eastpoint to buy my stuff.
spent like 40 bucks today le loh.
bought a comb for my wabbits. it costs 13.
woah! the guy in pet safri is like so funnny.
cuz my bro and i went there,
and my bro told me it is nt opened yet.
when we're leaving.. the guy run n say, it's open, it's open..
and open the doors and open the lights.
den he went to the storeroom as we find the gerbil foodstuff.
den we're thinking of buying a comb.
(there's two, so i'm thinkin of getting the cheaper one)
den he came and ask: u wan to buy rabbit comb arh?
den i say: ahhuh,
he went like, i'll recommend u this (picking up the more expensive one), it's better! trust me!
den i was like considering den he walked off loh.
went to pay (bought the more expenxive one).
as he was the cashier, he was holding onto his arm which has about 6-8 cuts on it.
he was bleeding la.
den he used the tissue to put on tt wounds and he went :ahhhh!!
i asked him what happened..
you knoe what he told me?

he said: this is my habit.

stunned i was.
the only word i replied was : crazy.

when we left, my brother was like telling me tt he cut himself with the penknife in the storeroom.-sigh-

i felt sorry for him,
i actually thought of buying some cotton wools and medicine for his wound.
but i think it's crazy if i was to do that.

he must have gone through smth bad. =(
he can be a fine young man but he's doing himself injustice.
maybe he's immune to the pain.
but thinking of cutting myself, makes me freak out.
i mean, yah. i dunoe what to say. neither can i explain.
oh well, God Bless him.

bought my files.
and went to cheers with brother.
and i saw the j2 councillors.
pretend that i am not from tpjc before i stared at the chocolates.
and wonder how come they dun sell twix in big packets.
so irritating.
i love tt chocolate man.

went home, realising that i have no breakfast and lunch.
argh.
made pieces of french toast and coffee.
shared the bread with grandmama and brother.
stupid brother nv eat loh.
the bread is still lying there.
=_-

man, i still dun understand why someone can actualli hurt themselves.
-just read 'tuesdays with morrie' and i realise life's isn't tt bad


I've been looking at people
And how they change with the times
And lately all I've been seeing are people
Throwing love away and losing their minds

Or maybe it's me that's gone crazy
'Cause I can't understand why
All these people keep hurting each other
When good love is so hard to come by

So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for

I've been listening to people
And they say love is the key
And it's not my way to let them lead me astray
It's only that I want to believe

But I see love-hungry people
Trying their best to survive
While in their hands is a dying romance
And they're not even trying to keep it alive

So what's the glory in living
Doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore
And if love never lasts forever
Tell me what's forever for

sheesh. i dunoe what sanjay did to my blog.
i carn find the title thingy to type my title.
-yawns-

i'm regretting not fully using my time todae.
supposed to finish my work.
but i only did one maths worksheet.
how nice? =_-

washed pretty much stuff.
my shoes. my jie's shoes. my bag. shirt. pencil case. hp pouch.
am tired right now.
-yawns-

just finished being angry with cong.
it's just pisses me off when he care about chio bus more den me.
as in being insensitive la.
not that i need his care o wad. =_-
it's like got gurl dun wan fren lidat loh.
he actualli wanted me to introduce a gerl whom i dislike to him
(even after i told him what she did to me)
how nice.
=_-
talk about being a good fren.
-sigh-

thesedays are shit.
yesterday was the last day to blood donation drive.
din go cause of my poor health.
amanda started crying upon seeing gordon being poked in the veins.
(she haben even been poked yet)
it's amusing yet worrying.
it's like..... amanda arh! oso dunoe how to say her lah. =_-

i finally changed my nick on msn.
(cuz of tt insensitive one)

wad else?
went frisbe-playing with the health n fitness pple.fun!

booyea.. i guess its okae (:

sigh.
i missed seeing gymnast.
-sigh-

i hate my brother. argh.
that moron.

school's like shit nowadays.
i dunoe how to do my work.
no1 wants to help.
i nearly cried when i dunoe how to do my maths in sch.
i felt so helpless.
it's like, being kind is only one way.
it's always giving but not receiving.
people always percept who's treating others better than themselves nice.
it's like so wrong at times.
i dunoe why i just feel this way.

i felt so neglected by everyone else.
even the goot frens ard me.
i asked manda how to do the chem qns.
she taught me once, then twice den thrice.
i was like. huh?
den. she give me those kinda 'jiamin-u're-stupid-look'
damn.
i know she's not in the mood todae but.....
i rather she tell me to fuck off den unwilling help me.
it's like, sigh.
i dunoe how to explain.
that is why i rather not ask pple anything.
sigh..

why am i so stupid.
argh.
i hate myself.

sheesh.
tiring day.
wasn't feel very good y'dae.
cause people kept remindin me the fact that i'm nt in the good condition to donate blood.
like yah.
wassup with 'nbm.i go myself.'
'she's rrly brave. she scared of the needle yet she's going for it'

i mean.
ARGH.
or grrrr (learnt of my bimbo fren)
why are they so insensitive?
it's not that i don wanna donate.
why do they have to make it sound like i don wan to donate.
they are like telling me how scared they are for they wan to donate.
argh.
make me sound that i'm another selfish coward brat.

argh.
i hate mole concept and volumetric analysis.
may i finish tt tutorial by todae.

i miss cong de.
-sniffs-

pooh!
wasted my whole day on downloading songs and burning one cd.
but den, it's me.
silly me. (:

i felt happy todae.
it's nice to be alone.
staying at home, thinking about nothing.
with no1 buggin you.
with no1 to be irritated with.
and everyone's just a click or a phonecall away. (:

life can be very simple actually.
it's just the thinkin which makes it better or even worse.
at least i din rrly cursed the bus driver hu din wan to let me off at my stop.
i just thought that it might do me good as in i got to walk. (:
it's irritatin but it's just too bad.
yesterday wasn't my day.

wad's with todae?
ate KFC which i'm nt supposed to be eating.
silly brudder insisted on eating buddy meal with me.
wich is farni cuz it's a buddy meal.
my brother = my buddy?
lol. cute thing to think about. (:
well, in a dilemma.

someone save me.


take me away.
take me far away from here.
i'll run with you.

was very happy yesterday.
spent a bomb on my books.
went bras basah.
nth much y'dae but have a very long heart-to-heart talk with manda.
i'm contented.

well, i hope i can donate blood on thurs.
cuz my sore throat is coming beck (when it nv heal fully)
and i got yellowish phelgm.
had a blocked nose.
losing much blood too.
argh.
ma asks me not to.
she says i can go next time if i want to cuz i'm not very suitable for this right now.
but it'll be very..what cause i asked everyoe to donate yet i din.
it'll look weird.
well, i hope everything bad goes away by wednesday so i can donate my blood in school on wednesday.

well, i like today.
it's the only saturday i've spent at home the whole day. (hope to)
well, need to start muggin after lunch though.
saturday is studying day.
i'm starting to love mugging.

boy, i must be crazy

.: JiA :. + [从] = RaWkz If uR noT thE oNe... says:
i love u

FUCK . j a e n e t i q s . wow. im pissed. cool. ; 5 planets in 1 straight line 2dae, rush to the nearest telescope nw! says:
i LOVE U I LOVE U !


ha. this is the assurances i need from my best friends.
now i felt........


l o v e d.

blah blah blah.
went school.
nice lectures and tutorials.
i'm startin to love tpjc.
went shopping.
whee.
i'm damn broke.

i'm so troubled with everything.
council. friends. money. studies.
i dunoe how to handle.
i duoe what to do.
arh... =(