we were meant to live for so much more.
but we lost ourselves.

i'm tired.
and drowsy.
and dead.
so dead.
so sick of chemistry.
so urgh.

must thank kennie, who is trying so hard to destress me now.
with all his jokes.
hha.
it's nt really funny,
but i appreciate him cheering me up very much. (:
then he say i'm stressed.
hahaa.
crazy.
now he made me laugh like mad.

hahaha.
me: i want cristiano ronaldo's poster.
kennie: huh, his posters i dun have la. u want ko's?
me: huh. u mean u got king of fighters de arh?
kennie: tt's kof. it's kennie ong's.

haha.
sheesh.
i din think of it.
but i did burst out laughing.
haha. it made me hyper. (:
ahhuh.

i forgot the pain i had when mugging on organic chem.
whees.
kennie, u rawk! haha. (:
stupid cheapo kia! (:

if portugal can do it, why can't i?

wicked.

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

erm!
think i've gotten sick of blogging too much.
blah.
so horrid.

amanda just went home like 1 hr ago.
yah, we mugged together.
good thing.
so my noon wasn't a wasted one.
not till now, at least.

saw li yan online.
rather cool to see her again.
but oh well, (:

school's reopening
and i'm not prepared for it.
i'm not prepared to face anyone or anything.
i just want this moment to stay as it is now.
i just can't handle the pressure.
(ha. it looks that i'm taking everything too lightly in the past)
i just cant handle everything.

i feel so small.
i feel so vunerable.
i feel like crying.
i feel nothing but fear.

but i noe, i'll grow outa it.
i'm jiamin.
and jiamin is supposed to be strong eh? (:

okay, back to studying.
think i'll miss coming online often when sch starts.

i'm so going to restart myself.
heh. for game is over.

okay - my success rate of not swearing is 50%.
just told my brother he's an ass in the morning.
haha.
watched the greece and france game.
greece actually won.
heh.
tot france will.

okay, i fall aslp during the match and din wake up till brother pulled me up when the match ended.
slpt all the way till now.
okay, i shall not go online for the whole day of todae.
i shall mug and catch up on my slp.
i purposely wake up at 10.30am.
zzz.
i can't believe it.
it's like 5 hrs of slp or smth.
i'm havin headaches now.

going to take benny's advice later.
going to eat my breakfast
and drink 3 cups of coffee and mug hard.

haben rrly start mugging.
hated myself for it.
but it's useless to hate myself for it. really.
so i'll start todae.
i dun believe i'll fail anything.
heh.
i'm supposed to be smart. (:

okies den.
i shall go and mug.
ain't my c.ronaldo cutee.
he has pink cheeks! so cutee! (:
*bounces around*

sheesh.
-shakes head-
i just can't studiee.
i just can't concentrate.
i just can't take in everything.
urgh.
stupid me.
bahh!


okay, shall go and mug harder after the 10pm news.

anyway, read yu im's entry.
oh, i din noe it's her ex.
i hope she's fine. =(
she doesn't sound happy.
maybe, not having loved by any guy is a blessin in disguise.
maybe i'm darned blessed.
(:

oh.
anyway.
i'm ...-sigh-
you told me that u'll keep ur promise now and forever, that nite.
and u promised to call tonite.
it's 10.30pm.
1h 30mins before tml.
i'll be waitin for your call, even though i know you wun call.
cause i believe in you.
and i refused to believe that u'll let me down.
but den i know.. i just know.
urgh.
horrible.

*pulls a long face*

flab.flubber.fat.

bahh.
i noe i ain't supposed to be here.
i supposed to be mugging like some crazy (musn't swear) person.
it's hard not to swear.
blah..
but i will try.
at least i succeed in not swearing for like the whole day todae?
ahh, maybe not.
i did said tt f word when beckham missed his ball.
oh well.
blubber!

what else?
i slpt and slacked the whole day again.
yah, not surprising.
but very interesting,
cause i'll have my exams in like 3 days?!?!
and i'm supposed to meet amanda up tml and teach her bio.
which i myself haben learn.
hahaha.
i'm a (musn't swear).

i shall start after-june-hols resolution.
and i've my aims done.
besides, i already told amanda.
and she's supposed to help me out.
hahaha. poor manda baby.

1. i'll never copy lecture notes during notes for maths. i listen.
2. i'll not touch any of the canteen food (except for the sweets and iced coffee)
3. i shall bank in 300 bucks in my bank by december.
(sounds little but if u see my rate of expenditure, u'll noe and i'll be more cheapo than ever!)
4. i shall weigh lesser than _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
hahaha.
5. i shall not have tofu like _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
6. i shall improve my stamina by a zillion times.
7. i shall be happy.
8 i shall get my work done on time and never be a last-minute worker again.
9. i shall not have butter-fingers.
10. i shall get an a for my chinese and help benny get his b3.

hahaha.
sounds stupid.
yah. i think it's stupid.
bahh! :P
anyhows.
shall go now.
ciao.

dokies.
it's 12.39pm
kinda just wake up 30 mins ago.
bahh.

watched the england vs portugal match.
nice match.
rather exciting at the end.
and v unexpected.
heh.

now i noe more soccer players!
i like owen,gerald,beckham,lampard,david james!
but i love cristiano ronaldo.
he's such so charming. hehe.
(with his mouth always open)
and he runs with the ball like a chicken.
and he got a teeth gap there, just like me!
and he always smileeee! cutish! (:
and he eats lollipop (means he like them and i love lollipops!)

okay, maybe gordon's simply suay.
portual won. hehe.
bad thing is most, cause many betted on them.
and the thing is my gilajay isn't too happy.
heh. =(
hard time for gilamin. =(

but it's okay.
i'll do anything to make gilajay happy.
as if it takes me to be a 'bahh' sheep.
and to be my 'i dun wan le song' (:

i'm damn hungry.
and yesh,
mugging full force shall start todae.
shan't give a damn about anything but mugging
and cristiano!

oh.
my brother can actually piggy-back me!
whee!
i'm a happy gurl cause this proves that:
1. i'm not tt heavy after all.
2. my brudder has grown up.

am talking to chang yi now.
aww.
i can't believe how much i missed that guy.
he's trying so hard now to teach me some maths he learnt in poly.
haha.
he's so cuteeeee *gushes*
i mean he's kinda nice la. (:
and we used to play so much and hard on each other.
always pinching, squeezing, grabbing, slapping, wacking, digging, chasing, etc (haha. imagine wad u wanna imagine)
and i think he's the 1st guy i ever slapped. for fun.
blah, i missed the fun.
and now he's grown up too.
look at him,
the only thing he used to say is 'siao liao la'
and he actually talks about maths.
haha.
cutie. (:
and yesh, he and his bumble-bee tee plus op shorts.

ahh.
i'm starting to miss everyone.

haha.
anyway, the bottomline of this entry is to
remind myself not to curse and to mug hard later.
and and and and and.. errr... avoid chicken meat?
and and.. err... exercise hard after the 1 week test.
and save lotsa money and bank it in.
and sleep early.
and mug like craziee.

hahaa. maybe it's not the bottomline for the entry. it's just too much. (but i'm just like imitating mr toh! oopsie!)

(this is all due to over-spoiling of self during the hols.)

just read a mjr junior's blog.
linked from gilajay's to zhen ru's to kang hong's.
i dunoe who is he.
but the funny thing is that he wans to enter rj.
heh.
tough luck kid. (not tt u can't do it)
but do strive for it.
mdm heng always harp on: aim-for-the-moon-and-if-u-fall,-u'll-be-still-among-the-stars crap.
haha.
he also reminds me the days when i really aimed hard for vj.
and fell hard.
haha. as if i really mugged tt hard for it.
but it was my failed dream.
my personal failure.
sad? not really.
but it doesn't mean tt i'm happy in tpjc.
i felt stupid in it.
what can it ensure me in the university?
some engineering course?
no? i dun wanna be an engineer.
haha, all in all, it's all my fault.
it's my (no. i musn't swear) fault.
it's my fault that i end up lidat.
there's no1 to blame.
but one.
jiamin.
the stupid one.
the retard.
the one who wastes her time.
the one who dun cherish everything till it's gone.

and.
i'm pretty disappointed with a GOOD fren of mine.
the person who i always treats the best.
the person who i never want to argue with (though we did umpteen times)
the person who i tot understands me the most.
the person who i tot i understood.
who ensures that i'm loved when i'm not.
my confidante.
the person who i tot loves me.

is actually the one,
who treats me like a downloading song machine.
who treats me as an alarm clock.
who treats me like free-girlfriend-searching-organization.
who changes himself completely and tell me that i've changed a lot.
who ignores me.
who hangs up on my fone calls.
who tells me that he doesn't want to talk to me on the fone and asked for sms-es instead.
who makes promises after promises and never fulfil them.
who only come to me when he needs help.
who only ask me to go for tuitions when i'm down due to my results.

tell me,
am i a failure as a fren.
or am i not.

i'm upset with everything.
life. studies. people. money.
no1 makes me happy.
only memories.
maybe i should just stay in my memories and ignore everything now.

heh.
but it's okay.
i still got my amanda with me.
i stil got the oh-so-loved twix she stuffed in my bad without my knowledge.
tell me how should i not love her?

i am not in love.
it's just a phase that i'm going through.



maybe. (:

"If u focus on pleasing everybody, then the only one u let down is your ownself"

okay.
i deleted the another blog.
haha.
i find no time to write in there.
so there.

went amanda's house again.
mummy took me home todae.
wasn't pissed actually, cause,
1. was munching twix.
2. i actually tot amanda's tv doesn't show the soccer match i wanted to catch tonite, but now i realised it's on channel 5. *pouts*
3. free ride home. why not?

bahh. i was thinking.
thinking about.. hehe.
(no!! not nua nua. haha)
haha.
actually i've been thinkin of lotsa stuff recently.
like,
wad i wanna be when i grow up,
how will my room be next time,
etc, etc.

haha.
i'm bored.
-sigh-
how am i supposed to cover everything, in like 3 days?

ahh,
must be happy.happy.happy.
i mustn't forget that i'm lin jiamin.
the wonderwoman.

ciao!

heh.
i'm feeling so bad now.
i feel like snapping at everyone.

i din sleep well i guess.
so tired.
and yesh, i mustn't swear.
mustn't.
as long as benny studies for chinese.

i'm going to be a happy one when the chinese results release, am i?
yesh, i'm selfish.
i admit.
but, so what?

well, the portugal vs england match is up tonite.
it can't be a draw.
urgh
i think england will win.
oh wells,
the only benefit i get is that i wun have to stay up till 2.45am anymore if portugal lose.
well, might as well.

i'm tired.
i want to go back and sleep.
but i can't.
i need to go manda's house again.
but i think i'll come home myself tonite,
cuz her house dun have cable and i dun wanna miss my match.

blah.
i'm hungry.
very.
but i shall go bathe den head to admiralty.
even my giljay doesn't want to see me. =(
i told you i'm ugly, benny
and it isn't low self-esteem.

blah.
i'm feeling low right now.
but it's okay.

i shall go to bed, wake up and be a happy person again.
stupid dad and mum.
they had to disgrace me.
they had to fetch me come two days in a roll from amanda's house.
they had to do this.

it's supposed to be a stay-over.
thanks to them.
THANK YOU DADDY AND MUMMY.

*rolls eyes*
i just want to fail my common test
and shove all the red marks into their face.
how do they expect me to study alone at home, with a stupid loud brother and a oh-so-distracting computer..?
and if they want to fail and stay at home,
i will.

urgh.
i'm not pissed or anything.
really.
i didn't even cry.
i just feel so bad inside.
i need to type everything out.

and now someone else have to turn me down.
thaks.
i had enough for bad news today.
give me just half more and i'll commit suicide in front of u.

jiamin is a happy gurl todae.

jiamin didn't remember the past she had.
jiamin did finish up some of her work.
jiamin felt life is meaningful.
jiamin think that life is meaningful for she had really good frens.
jiamin thinks that her frens are adorable, awesome, incredible, sugar and spice and all things nice.
jiamin thinks everyone love her.
jiamin felt loved.
jiamin didn't spent her whole day thinking about her frens,
cause she felt tt they were already right there always, in her heart.
jiamin thinks that she is the best.
jiamin thinks that love is all around.
jiamin thinks that cristiano ronaldo is v shuai and that yesh, portugal deserves to win.
jiamin oso thinks that england deserves to win cuz she stayed up till 4.30am for both matches.
jiamin thinks that david james is yummy.
jiamin thinks that at least cong de only treats her as a kazaa-operating machine todae, and not anything more.
jiamin thinks that gilajay is her brother instead of lin xi.
jiamin thinks that tpjc is nice.
jiamin thinks that nua nua doesn't smokes.
jiamin thinks that gilamon is one.
jiamin thinks that she wun be late for school.
jiamin thinks that she'll be able to pass everything for her common test.
jiamin thinks that she'll be a rich tai tai.
jiamin thinks that she'll get an a for chinese.
jiamin thinks that that free book will be hers soon.

jiamin actually thinks so much.
jiamin only hope to be a simpleton.

and the thing is, it only about the thinking.
it's might not be true.
hahaha.

oh damn, do i have to spoil it all?

hahaa.

yah, i'm disgusted.
really.
but the thing is,
yah, i wun give a damn about anything about them.
stupid crap, about twisting the truth and blah blah.

stupid wuss-es.
and yes, to every single of the idiotic gang members there,
nope, you people are not pissing me off.
definitely, not.
i refused to be.
to be angry is a choice.
to be happy is another.
try harder.

and i chose to be tired.

yah.
i'm tired of you people.
tired of everything about you.
urgh, so irritating.

-pressed the erased button on my forehead-

people aways perceive that they're right.
i think i'm right.
u think u're right.
the thing is, we are only 50% right in all cases.
so you bloody arses, please diam la.

but the thing is,
i dunoe how many people actually read my blog.
i dun care really.
may it be one. (my gilamon! hehe)
may it be a lot.
i dunoe who read my blog.
some shuai ge (my gilamon again! hehe)
or some other retarded mentally uncapable person. (u noe.)

blah.
i'm not trying to get anyone's bloody 'oh-jiamin-you-are-so-poor-thing!!!'
i'm not trying to show anyone anything.
this is how i felt.
this is what i percieve.
this is what u people bloody thought i am.
yesh, bugger it shall be.

blah.
u yao siew people are so pathetic and disgusting in all sorts of way.
i'm tired of throwing isults after insults on u.
and i'm tired of recieving them from u all.
it's been like entirely more than 2 years.
no, i not cursing ur beloved ugly dog, nor ur face, nor ur love life, nor ur gang, nor ur studies.

fuck u u bitches, dun wan u beck. (haha. eamon's song!)

shut up jiamin.
shut up.
u're not supposed to say the fuck word.
and yesh, i shall not say it anymore.
haha, fickle-minded me.

went amanda house yesterday to mug.
not really a success.
spent more time eating den mugging.
i almost vomitted,
after durians, fish ball noodles, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken... (u get it.)
mugged a bit.

heard chun hui's voice on the telly-fone.
i'm happy.

i'm happy for everyone except me.
cause i wanna get tt free book frm benny!
so i need to get a boyfren.
yah. nua nua. dun u dare to run. hahahhaa. sheesh.

i've been so unhappy thesedays.
period.
it's only once a month.
get over it. =P
i'm stupid.
yah, i'm going to delete everyting stupid in my life.

i'm going to delete you.
and you. and you. and you. and you.

i'm going to start my life anew.
i'm such a bitch.
haha.

and yah, i missed my my 1 week and 2 days.

shit, chang yi, i neeed to wack u someday.

and chun hui, study hard.
i wanna see u in the university! (:

sam sam, xin xin, rest well, sch's starting.

amanda, jie yin, li yan, jen jen: let's pass everything for the common test! (and myself too)

yu ni: come beck soon!

cong de: rest well too. and i'm not ur kazaa-lite, dear.

jerry: haha. sorry for not sending u songs recently.

gilamon: sorry about the soccer. but u ought to know there's something more than money and tt's ME!

jie: u better get smth nice frm perth for me.

and especially to benny:

H a p p y b i r t h d a y
y o u d u r i a n s e e d - b r a i n

i'm a happy gurl.
going to school liao.
ciao!

okay.
short summary.
it's 12.2am.
morning.

i'm tired.
i mean VERY tired.
slept at like 4.30am after the england's euro match.
blah, they won.
yay or what?

blah.
woke up at 8.30am.
bathed,
chionged to toa payoh to meet shiya, for free maths tuition.
den went amanda's house to continue to mug
and pa and ma just fetched me home.

okay.
i wun type anymore.
i'm really urgh.

haha.
benny asked me o save up for durian celebration when he get a gf.
sista sista.

nite! (:

awww.
i'm online yet again!
i'm just bored.
very bored indeed.
it's 1am.
and everyone's asleep.

so irritating.
got like 1.45 hrs to go before the match starts.
and i think i wun actually survive. (:

got pang seh-ed.
someone said it's a deal and we shall sleep at 3am.
someone said that we'll mug till 3am.
someone said: full steam ahead.
and just who is that someone?
-raises eyebrows-
hahahahahaha. (:

B-E-N-N-Y S-E-E-T-O-H.................... =_-

hahaha.
so funny.
how come he have CIP everyday.
blah.
i haven done a single CIP in tpjc yet!
that's badddd!! =(
booo!

and now he owe me something,
it better be nice.

-wicked laughter-
muahahahahaha. (:

oh, just read hui ru's blog entry.
somehow i felt that she's writing about me.
hahaha.
i noe it's NOT me.
but i'm just paranoid.
everything and anything bad = jiamin.
blahhhh.
bugger, i could fit well in this role.
ahhuh.

think i shall pang seh myself and sleep.
nitez peepz! (:

blah.
here am i.
so moronic.
someone teach me to get my hands off the blardy com.

yay.
i'm going back to huay kuan tml.
i'm meeting shi ya.
she's going to teach me maths.
haha.
sounds cool?
yah, there's nothing cooler. (:

oh, there's one.
think i'm going to amanda's house for mugging stay-over tml.
whees! (:

oh. jie's going to perth tml.
heh.
and she said that she wun buy me any prezzie from there.
=(
heh.

yah. i guess i sure give today's match a miss.
since cristiano ronaldo ain't playing and i need to keep up on my sleep.
yeah, i tink the nocturnal meeting will resume tml.
gawk. i hate it. =(
i hate the early morning where it is complete silence.
i hate the silence cuz it totally freaks me out.
i hate the dark.
blah!

shall go bathe and mug.
shall! shall! shall!

blah blah black sheep, have you any wool?

doooh!
black sheep.
sheeps are cute despite their colour.
but in another form, being a black sheep in the family.
oh well, i guess that sucks.
urgh.
and most sheeps are slaughtered for mutton.
blah.

-shakes head-
i never want to be a sheep.

and is the black sheep in the song called blah blah?
haha. (:
i think i'm sick.

wasted yet another day.
suckkkyyy jiamin. tsk tsk.
watched another vcd on dancing.

let me tell you the resons why i chose to watch it instead of mugging.
1. mugging is boring.
2. the movie is nice!
3. the movie features edison chen
4. the movie features edison chen and he's so gorgeous.
5. the movie features edison chen and i'm so into him.
6. the movie features edison chen and he's so cuteee.
7. the movie features edison chen and i just had to keep rewinding the part where he grined when his mouth closed.
8. the movie had andy lau and the late anita mui (she was so pretty!)
9. the movie had dancing parts which made me so motivated tt i wanna dance.
10. the movie made me forget that i need to study.

hahaha.
crap?
but v true. (:
i simply love edison chen.
yay!

ooh, i slpt after the show.
woke up and went for a run.
blah.
run like 3 rounds for 20 mins.
call me a sucker at running.
i am.
blah! this is so sad! =(
i need to improve on my stamina and speed.

i ran slow.
(remember the time i ran with benny. =_- or rather JOGGED with him)


blah.
gotta go and buy dinner with brudder.
man,
gstudy after that.

i MUST study.
(hell, how many times am i going to say that?)

okay, i kinda added more things to the post below.
if u've read it and find it boring, u can give it a miss. (:
if not, do read. (:
cause thinking of u people makes my day.
it really does. (:
that's why i love you soo ever much.

okay, i shouldn't be online for too long.
i shall not go near the computer after this.
i shall mug mug mug mug as i promised to.
i shall try and finish my chemistry.

oh, and and i've been ating a lot of cheese cakes.
i think i ate 1/2 kg of it le.
i'm getting real fat.
and i think i'm no longer a tree trunk.
for tree trunks dun have flabs and blubbers.
blah! i think i'll soon be a whalee.
sucky... =(

and it's not that i totally adore or dig in cheese cakes.
but it's the only thing at home.
cause i eat and eat and finished it.
blah! horrid horrid mouth!

and i kept drinking teh su su (milk tea)
urgh.
how can i not get fat!
but milk tea made me awake.
(other den coffee, at least it doesn't stain my pearli whites.)
i think i better turn to water soon.
blah.

whale. whale.

and yesh, i'm running later.
i need to sweat.
i need to cry. (:



this could be the end of everything

oh simple thing where have you gone
i'm getting old and i need something to rely on
so tell me when you're gonna let me in
i'm getting tired and i need somewhere to begin

well, i guess i need only a simple thing.
and i think i noe what i need.
i need my friends, my family and myself.
and nothing else.
i'm knowing i'm losing my insanity thesedays.

i'm losing touch with everything. =(
where's my bloody self-confidence?
where's the happy happy jiamin gone to?

ahh. (:
it always goes back to one simple thang.
love (: is the answer.

suddenly i missed my gang.
i missed everyone who have once entered my life.

i missed the old cong
and yesh, i did saw him working in the noodles bar at city link,
but i was too upset with him for not being there for me when i truly needed him.
i missed talking to him on the phone, telling him that 'stories' i remembered after reading social studies.
i missed asking him questions to prepare him for his test tml.
i missed going out to mug with him.
i missed the happy happy times we had.
i missed the airport trips.
i missed the word game in the airport when we're so bored we started naming every country and state we can remember.
i missed the nice-him.
i missed the starbucks' rhumba frap he always buy for me.
i missed the decent him very very very much.
and yesh, i still got the failed composition u wrote for ur english test on me.

i missed seng poh.
i missed his drawings.
i missed the act cool him.
i missed the late and long hours phone calls we had, when he needed to finished his cell's batt and he had free-incoming.
i missed borrowing his bike.
i missed tickling him and poking him much.

i missed joey.
actually, i missed seeing the whole gang walking like chao ah bengs around the school, playing bball, slacking around.

i missed chang yi.
i missed digging my nails into his arms, wacking his back like crazy.
i missed the pain he used to torture me by sqeeuzing my arm real tight.
i missed the way he said: siao liao la.
i missed the times when he will take my VJ badge i placed on my pencil case.
i missed the chasing around and running around the class with him.
i missed the way we'll go toilet together and i'll examine the red marks i made on his back by hitting him repeatedly.
i missed the way we used to do free hair-wash on him and jing zhong.
i missed the chang yi who hated me for one second and be my good fren for another.
and yesh, he's the only guy who ever dares to hit me back. haha.

i missed samantha.
i missed her laughter.
i missed sittin in front of her.
i missed her kickings on my chair.
i missed her beautiful voice.
i missed going her home to swim.
i missed playing games with her sista wile swimming.
i missed the way they reassure me i look slim when they saw me in my billabong swim suit. (haha!)
i missed her sisters.
i missed the way i'll laugh at her buying hamtaro toys for her sister.
i missed the times we played mahjong together.
i missed the funny sight when i saw her wearing her ma's swimsuit.
(blah! hehe)

i missed zhi yi.
i missed talking to her.
i missed lying on her during all lessons.
i missed the way we used to giggle.
i missed doing group work where i'll sleep and she'll work like a bull.
i missed the way i will tease her by asking what she wants to eat during recess when i noe the only thing she can eat from is the vegetarian stall cuz she's a vegetarian.

i missed xin hui.
i missed her pretty big and nice handwriting.
i missed her cryings.
i missed seeing her.
i missed hugging her.
i missed her. =(
i missed the ink stamp of mao qiu she had in her pencil case.
i missed the sad voice whenever she wants to give up physics.
i missed the hairy hairy her.
i missed combing her arm hair.
hahha! (:

i missed yu ni.
i missed her scoldings for me.
ben dan!(stupid) she will go.
i missed the way she laughs.
i missed the way she refuses me calling her 'lao po' (wife)
i missed holding her hands.
i missed the way she fills in the empty spaces i had in my chinese compo scipt.
i missed her sittin next to me and gossiping about tan poh pin.
i missed her nice chinese handwriting.
i missed the way she'll scold the school clerk for asking her to pay for smth she already paid.
i missed the way she would talk to me.
i missed the way she would talk to me and even if i dun understand i would nod my head.

i missed chun hui.
i missed her giggles.
i missed her waffle.
i missed talking to her.
i missed the part when she got angry with me and in the end, she apologised to me through a letter.
i missed the way she looks so nice in everything she wears.
i missed the look she had whenever she have a tummyache.
i missed seeing her and teck chiat.

i missed the old amanda.
i missed singing jay chou's wu ding with her.
i missed the normal her.
i missed sitting on the exercise bar and crapping, ignoring the bright sun light.
i missed our bathings in the school toilet.
i missed the tired look in her face and she'll always look at a goldfish!
blah!

i missed jessie.
i missed taking the same 6.40am mrt with her.
i missed seeing syarfi on the train with her.
i missed seeing alan on the train with her.
i missed studying with her in my house where we had nutella toasted bread for lunch.
i missed her calling me da jie (though she's two yrs older den me.)
i missed the trips she'll go to airport and sittin on the cosy sofa there, talking to that starbuck guy who she still keep in touch with.
i missed the starbucks' cakes we had together.
i missed the fun we had while studyin in the airport at starbucks.


i missed xing he.
i missed his mentoring lessons where we learnt nth from him.
i missed the days we used to pon his lessons and go to pizza hut for lunch and made him wait.
i missed the stupid things tt he taught me.
the only thang i remebered him teachin me was ow to deal with reality u dun wanna face.
he said: just go home, change into your sport gear, play ball, sweat like hell, wack urself hard, exercise till u're so god-damn tired, go home, have a nice bath, eat some sleeping tablets and go to bed

i missed climbing the fence, on the way back to school while trying to smuggle the durians and mangosteens back to the class to eat (and getting my skirt tore while climbing and yesh, getting caught and reported by some school taker.)
i missed climbing the air con railings from the bball court to the staircase for convenice purposes.
i missed switching on the toilet lights with my legs, dirtying the walls with my foot prints.
i missed running around the stupid one lane track.
i missed playing rubgy with my class.
i missed going to the boys' toilet to relieve myself with yun sheng and later accompany yun sheng to the gurls toilet for his turn to relieve himself.
i missed studying till wee hours in school with the gang on the balcony.
i missed the part when we were studying on the balcony and it started raining, it was so dark and the rain kept pouring in and we need to rush beck to the classroom to continue mugging.
i missed the times when everyone have to listen me as i crap on vs stuff.
i missed julian insulting me.
i missed going to julian house to mug for a maths the day before a maths o lvl.
i missed the way amanda and i sang so horribly that everyone have to scream at us to ask us to shut up.
i missed the times when we all cried (during the chalet)
i missed the days where we had to take out temperature every mornin for me and yunsheng will have smth to do.
i missed sitting in front of the class queue every morning.
i missed not singing and praying the daily prayer duyring the morning assembly.
i missed reading reader digest and newspare after morning assembly in the parade square.
i missed the dreadful feeling i always have whenever i am late and i have to go for detention.
i missed the feeling of being in mjr.
i missed wearing the mjr uniform (for i look nicer in it den tpjc's.)
i missed singing only the mjr song when my gang at the beach.
i missed all the comfort one could have gave me.
i missed all the love that we shared.
i missed the saving-money plan, where one of us have to bring food for the whole gang for a day.
i missed our outings.
i missed staring at the big field, sitting on jeremy's desk.
i missed everything i used to had and everything we used to share.

i actuually missed the hatred.
i missed hating sizhao and her clique to the core.
i missed hating her for abandoning me.
i missed hating her clique (which was my exclique)for not standin up for me and abandoning me.
i missed swearing and cursing her.
i missed being childish and so over-filled with anger and hatred.
i missed the loniless during the npcc days.
i missed the part where i have to go home all by myself after npcc trainings cuz i have no frens there anymore after the dispute.
i missed my juniors for teasing me.
i missed being a nco.
i missed being such a bitch.

i missed my teachers.
i missed them consoling me over everything.
i missed them asking me to forgive sizhao and make peace with her
(wich i never did.)
i missed the driving lessons mr gui gave me in the school car park.
i missed ernie's big smile.
i missed mrs tan a lot. she loved me a lot. (: i noe.
i missed yang dan li's cheery voice where she'll turn around in front of the whole class and ask everyone ever if she's pretty o not.

i missed the old me.
i missed the free pimple-free me.
i missed the happy happy me.
i missed the heck-care me.
i missed the pouring postcards they'll write back to me.
i missed the yellow, run-down, temple-like building.
i missed sitting either all the way in front beside of yun sheng or julian or geng yan or sitting wayy behind with my gang.
i missed the orange umbrella.
i missed the 'jiamin!kennie-loves-you!' stupid remarks.
i missed the times when the guys will secretly try to take my picture with their stupid camera.
i missed the times i tried to act like i know nothing about everything.
i missed the oh-so-sleepy english classes.
i missed the 'jiamin!u-really-got-6B3s' from mr gui.
i missed mr gui's lame jokes. (the stupid cold frog and the lunatic audio tape man)
i missed the feeling of my heavy billabong bag which was filled up by ten yr series.
i missed the wicked laughter when i realised we had to clear books and i had left only a few books while the others are rushing to find aunite betty for cart boxes.
i missed the irritating mama-shop uncle who will shout us even when we're standing in front of his shop for 5 mins when thinking what should we buy.
i missed the piggy-backs yunsheng and wei tai would give me.
lao mu zhu! (old fat sow!) they exclaimed.
i missed the disgusted look on sizhao face when i walk past her.
i missed the way i'll screw up my face to look pissed when i see sizhao coming (not tt she'll take a glance at me.)
i missed the way zhen wen will motion the class to shout 'REST!' to the teachers.
i missed the slang mrs chan will use.
i missed the way naufal will rub his stomach fondly and say tt he has slimmed down.
i missed the way mr gui will teach us to memorise the formulas by singing, rF= MA; V=RI.
i missed the way the whole class will giggle.
i missed swearing and cursing mdm heng whenever it's her turn to speak during assembly.
i missed singing the vs song to my gang.
i missed going to toilet in groups of 7!
i missedthe cheap canteen food.
i missed the times when i'll queue up at the chinese cooked food stall and the aunite will go : $1.60 xiao mei! (cause i always ordered the same stuff.)
i missed the milo-buying times. (we'll always buy packed milo to drink before taing our o lvl papers)
i missed the cheap good food in mjr canteen.
i missed the mee rebus, the mee siam and mee soto which we'll put extra hot blended chilli den screamed tt it's friggin hot while eating.
i missed the big commotion we'll always have during recess in the canteen where some gang will stand up and challenge someone for a fight.
i missed the stupid monitress and monitor meetings.
i missed my classroom. (where spent most of my time last yr)
i missed the glass paint i made on the windows.
i missed the song-singing of the class (we all wanted to put it up as a performance for teacher's day and in the end, we got rejected due to our poor singing. haha.)
i missed the birthday-card-passing-around-in-the-class whenever someone's is near.
i missed the important times when we'll have cakes!
i missed going to the general offic with yu ni for she needs to pay for her school fees.
i missed the toilet in mjr.
i missed the nice view from the toilets where we can see the people below and when we saw someone we know we'll shout and wave like crazy.


and yesh, i dun actually hate sizhao.
i actually have to thank her for everything.
maybe i'll be in sajc with her if we're together.
(just look at our results when we're sec 2!)
but because of her, i get to know people who really love me for the way i am. not the way they want me to be.
(:
(see? i've grown up!)

sigh. those were the days.
i missed you guys.
and really, i love you guys a lot.
i'll give up 5 years of my life to go back secondary school days.
(like who wouldn't)

the thang is, the past is the past.
i have to say we've grown so far apart.
the distance, the time.
but it's okay, we're still the 1 week and 2 days gang. (:
i still love u people as much. (really i do!)

for i'm so proud of every single one of you.
*points at the one reading this*
yesh.
you. (:

every now and then,
we'll find a special friend,
who will never let us down.

and i just want to let you know that you're special to me,
for you didn't let me down
though i'm a sucker.

-hugs so ever tightly-

come on.
come on.
i'm drowsy.
i need sleep!
zzzzz.

we were meant to live for so much more,
have we lost ourselves?

okay,
i have no idea why did i wake up so early.
it's 11am! boo!
i ought to sleep more cause i slept late!
was watching the spain n portugal match.
hehe.
was damn hyper when they won.
yay!
see?
i told everyone tt they will win!
no1 believe!
seee?
i really ought to bet on soccer matches.
blah!
(but still no i wun.)

oooh, cristiano ronaldo is so cool last nite.
blah! he's soo hunky!
-drools-
wow! (:



gotta mug my arse off todae.
i will and must.

blah.
i think i've been blogging too much.
looks below.
-shudders-

been spendin all my time on blogger.com.
maybe i should go surf the net to read some interesting stuff instead of blogger.
blah!

been a loser for the whole day today.
urgh.
i hate myself sooooooo much!
i promised myself to mug hard.
in the end, i fell asleep before i could finish one chapter.
den i woke up, tried to mug again,
i was pulled to do the dinner.
den i played the com.
den i watched 'my girl'
that thai movie.


i find the lil' boy cute and shuai!
and the lil' gurl damn pretty too.

then i wonder why am i not like them.
blah!
that's so sad.
i'm ugly, sickening, lousy moron.
blah.

was watching the show with brudder.
he's such a bugger.
he refused to move outa my seat
and we had to share one sofa to watch the show.
blah.
cute lil' pest.
you ought to see him now.
the parts around his eyes are like red with rashes
and he looks like a panda.
haha. jie and i can't help but to laugh at him.
blah.
(:

ahh.. shall go get my chem notes and sit by the tv and mug.
thou shall not blog anymore for todae.
time check: 1.41am.
one more hour to go.

whee. (:

It is the passion flowing right on through your veins
And it’s the feeling that you’re oh so glad you came
It is the moment you remember you're alive
It is the air you breathe, the element, the fire
It is that flower that you took the time to smell
It is the power that you know you got as well
It is the fear inside that you can overcome
This is the orchestra, the rhythm and the drum

Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma força que ninguem pode parar
Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

It is the soundtrack of your ever-flowing life
It is the wind beneath your feet that makes you fly
It is the beautiful game that you choose to play
When you step out into the world to start your day
You show your face and take it in and scream and pray
You're gonna win it for yourself and us today
It is the gold, the green, the yellow and the grey
The red and sweat and tears, the love you go. Hey!

Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma força que ninguem pode parar
Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

Força, força, força, força

Closer to the sky, closer, way up high,
Mais perto do céu, mais perto do céu

Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma força que ninguem pode parar
Com uma força, com uma força
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

...
este amor, este amor,
é tão grande e é tão forte
come on




i'm loving the word: come on.
i'm deserting the word: fuck.
-grinx-
ain't you all happy?
come on come on, portugal will win tonite.
i'll forsakin my beauty sleep for it tonite.
risking my face with more pimples.
but i dun care.
cristiano ronaldo is going to kick arse tonite!
(and he's made to sit the bench tonite. come on la portugal!)

come on portugal!
come on! come on!

den arh i bring a wallet wif my gang foto in it show it to my cousin daily den she say i siao... haha... sumthing i cnt stand her is she keep sayin jia is veri cute...lolx...
quoted from amanda's blog.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa.
i got my 1st supporter!
see?!?!?!
doesn't mean tt i'm ugly, i not cute.
i'm sooo adorable, ain't i?

for those who are puking right now:
what's ur problem? =_-

haha.
i have no idea why all the words are slanted.
blah!
it's not supposed to be.
i'm lousy at html.
maybe i'm a loser at everything and there's no why to it.

and yesh, i'll give running a miss today again.
for i'm one big-time loser.

blah.
i'm shagged.
zzz.

just bathed.
was at the airport's viewing mall with amanda.
hahaha,
okie, shan't elaborate.
i tried crying.
failed to do so.
so irritating. =(
poor amanda.
lucky she got me eh?
hahahaha. (:
yesh, i love her. (:

okay, shall crap on the earlier.
went for interact meeting.
was rather pissed cuz i had to spent 2.80 o my mrt trips to city hall and back home,
cuz jie took my ez-link and bro insisted tt his is not at home.
den i realised i kinda over-dressed,
cuz we agreed on wearing shorts but my short's button is nowhere to be found
and my slippers are taken by jie,
so i wore a skirt and shoes.
shitty. =_-
we were 1 hr late cuz we went walking around,
finding burger king. =_-
call me stupid.

den when we went there,
the meeting is kinda like over.
hhah. so crap.
i merely spoke thrice i think.
den went walking around den home.
went kfc for dinner with brudder and amanda.
saw ko zaw and soon huat.
haha.
said bye to them, went home got brudder's ez-link,
went airport with amanda.
den voila, home sweet home.

well,

who do you think of when love is mentioned?
who do you think of when you're trying so hard to focus on ur work and but all u can think is that person?
who do you think of when your friends asked you who do u like?
who do you think of when u are asked to think of someone?
who do you think of when you needed someone to confide in?
who do you think of when u finished a romance novel?

then, she or he's the one. (:

i just want to cry.
=(

ta bu ai wo. =(

doinks doinks.
so crap.
din actually expect benny to remember my blog.
but oh well, benny sure had a nice time during the class chalet.
thanks to us,
he got his dear, a laughing buddha, denise as good frens.
haha, i think i can open a friendship-making shop,
and introduce everyone to each other so tt i can make money from it
and people will oso noe more frens,
it's such a win-win situation, ain't it?
hahaha.i'm craziiee.
eh, benny, u haben thank us for that. =_-

and sam sam got a blog!!! (:
so cool.
i went there and tagged. (:

slpt yesterday. (:
woke up pretty late todae.
haha. i'm a loghead! (:
maybe a tree trunk. =(
nono, i'm charcoal.
(look at my skin colour now..)

blah.
i'm bullshitting now.
i haven had breakfast
i'm so hungry.. =(
i dun wanna have jacobs' biscuits as breakfast!
-shakes head-
hahahahaha. :P

okie, i ought to chiong finish jie yin's notes
am meeting amanda and jie yin later at 4.30 at city hall.

okie, i'm not meeting only them,
but some other vj and rj people from interact club i dunoe.
sian.
we're the lousiest school.
tpjc. =_-
blah.
and the thing is both three of us suck in engrish.
blah.
i think the meeting will suck later.
hahahaha. three of us will just keep our mouth SHUT.
okie, i'll prolly sit in the mrt on my way there,
praying tt the people there is shuai and pretty.
hahahaha. (:
hur hur, will blog later to tell u all.
hahaha

well, i'm so insane.
i think i need to mug.
yesh, i will.

geez. (:
ought to be mugging like a fucker now.
ought to be copying jie yin;s notes.
ought to sms beeny beck now.
but oh well,
sometimes, bloggin seems more important den anythin else.
haha.

okie, the chalet.
blah.
kinda nice and suxy =_-

the 1st day was great.
checked in rather late,
made mdm twu wait for us,
den i went her house to get can opener.
haha.
den slacked around the whole noon,
cooking fries and munching chciekn wings.
den letitia came den we chatted,
den we waited for benny till 7 lidat
den we started the fire.
den he came.
oh goodie.
den bbq our food.
i din bbq,
was entertaining and entertained by the food and benny.
was spenting my time in the kitchen with him, micro-waving the cooked food wich became cold.
den he satrtd telling me tt the house looks unclean.
tt fucka. =_-

ha. he was damn shagged, after his kayaking expedition.
den the malay aunite was nice as in she made a bigger and stronger fire for our bbq.
haha.
cuz we provided her rags and more food. and our orange syrup.
and yesh, she got a very shuai son, who smokes. =_-

den we slacked in house,
den amy, rachel and yi wei came over.
den we sang bsong for jie yin, with a cake and her present,
she cried. haha.
silly gurl.

we cleared the cake by sharing it with the malay aunite,
den we cleared our stuff, and den we went walking around the beach.
haha.
benny was like a walking zombie.
den jia ying and amanda went to sit at the break water,
while we sat at the bench.
the ground was ful of ants.
itchy. =_-
den i massaged for benny den he massaged for him.
den amanda and jia ying screamed for me by my name!
ahhhh! they ain't supposed to do that. =_-
dewe walked beck den all had a bath
den benny slpt like a pig.
den we played monopoly.
haha.

jia ying regretted selling me the green card.
haha, i won the game!
hahah
got the most money, most property and most houses.
hahaha, i was jian! hehehehehe! =P

den we all went to sleep at 4++am.
den i woke up finding tt amanda was gone
den found her in another room.
den i had diarrhoea.
went to the toilet 5 times.
argh i hate it.

den everyone was still sleeping.
so sian.
den when everyone woke up,
amanda made milo and i made the pancake dough,
and cooked it
den watch tv.
den we went for a morning walk.
den went beck took frisbe and played ultimate frisbe.
so fun!!
den letitia, benny and me stayed behind and played soccer with the kids.
i'm a lousy soccer player.
i only scored a tyco one. =_-
but we won the game.
6-0.

den went beck and drank more water,
den went running with benny.
[to him, it's jogging. my legs are short. =(]
siao loh.
we covered the whole pasir ris park/beach.
urgh.
i wanted to stop.
zzzz. irritating.
den ran like a fucker.
so exhausted, i kept kpkbing and moaning to him throughout the run.
den we played the playground.
i patted a dog.
so adorable! (:
den he did pull-ups while is at there and watch.
i did try, but i can't even do one.
but i did 2 assisted ones. =(
demoralising.

den met amanda and gang.
sat on the break water.
den sing songs.
den we begged benny to stay for another nite.
in the end, he did la.
den they told him tt he's my god-brother.
haha.

i started the fire again for their bbq.
it was damn nice .
had a hard time hiding benny for mdm twu. =_-
den he had diarrhoea oso.
ahhaah.
den he started telling me on his rosary.
blah blah blah.

den they started playin dai dee with him.
den i left the house cuz amanda n jie yin was stucked in mdm twu's house.
they tot benny will tag along but jia ying did instead.
cuz stupid benny was so into dai dee.
and i can't be bothered with him.
den we went over.
den we wetn beck to chalet together.
and beck to mdm twu's hse again cuz we forget to take the cookin oil.
but we met her half way.
ahha.
den went beck and fried chicken wings.

i was pretty depressed that time.
due to the lack of sleep and i was pretty irritated by people.
so my face was like long and black.
den when benny toked to me i ignored him and told him tt i dun wanna tok to him.
den no1 dared to tok to me.

called cong.
he forgot to call me again.
fuck.
i was almost breaking down when i talked to him.
was struggling.
den he told me tt he doesn't wan to tok to me on the fone.
irritated, i put down the fone, believing tt no1 wants to tok to me.
cong smsed me,
i read his sms but din reply.
den went beck to cook.
den he sms again.
i off my fone.
(see? i'm insane!)

den cook, sing and eat.
den amanda was like crying on my legs.
hahaha. (i guess my clique pplez are rlly tired.)
silly gurl.
den i hugged her.
we cleared the kitchen mess.
den we went to bathe.
den watched the euro match.
did my pushups and sit ups.
den went to swimming pool to slp.

everyone slpt.
except me,
so i went beck,
den benny walking to the pool,
walked with him beck to the chalet to take my logn sleeve tee.
den he slpt with the rest.
i can't get to slp,
so i walked beck to the chalet alone,
and told them not to lock the front door.
den walked beck again.
covered amanda with my long sleeve tee, den i slpt.
was freezing, den found amanda hugging the tee instead of using it as an insulation. =_-
den i slpt a while, den woke up.
atring at the sky cuz everyone's slpin and i'm busy scratching away due to the mosquitoes' bites.
jia ying woke up and fell aslp.
den jie yin and amanda woke up den we tok till 6.40am.
haha.
was bitchin all the way.

den amanda n jie yin made milo for all of us.
den jia ying continue slping.
so did benny till his ma came.
den i woke jiaying up and sent her up the bus at 9.50am.
den i went into a deep slp.
din wake up till we were forced to check out.
was damn tired.
the bed was real nice and comforty!

went mdm twu's house.
she was damn disappointed.
everyone said they wanna go her house
den she prepared food
den everyone left without going her house.
except the three of us.
den we forced ourseves to finish the food.
it's hard.
i shitted.
hahaha.
den eat more..
den stuff stuff stuff food into my mouth.
den we managed to finish all the fruits and 1/2 basket of bread.
blah.

den slp at her sofa.
haha.
damn tired.
den woke up rushed beck to the chalet and took feeder bus beck.
den went home and slpt for like 5 hours,
apologised to benny for being such a bitch.
cuz we begged him to stay and yet treat him so badly. haha.
ate dinner and voila blogged till now.
well, i gtg and mug jie yin's notes.
haha.
ciao! (:

time check: 8.48am.
blah. we slpt at about 6am.
so i got 2.48 hrs of sleep.

sounds bad?
wait till i tell u more.
the rest of the gurls are like still sleeping.
pigs! hahaha.
and i just finshed up shiyu's toilet rolls.
stupid tummyaches.
must be the late night supper. =_-
i just took fotos of them.
sleeping like pigs.
mwahahaha, (:

wad else?
now everyone needs to shit,
but we got no toilet rolls!
shiyu's still sleeping.
blah.

i can't open my eyes.
mugger woman todae.
full power! (:

-yawns-
it's 2.13am.
i'm stuck at shiyu's house.

haha.
they're toking about legs and fats now.
women! =_-

haha.
just came beck for the food party.
gobbled food like crazy.
ate 15 chicken wings! (:
and bread with curry sauce on it..
time check: 2.56am.
i'm damn shagged.

trust me, it's easy to be high when u get stuffed with nothing but food. (:
i'm wearing shiyu's pyjamas.
haha.
lotsa sheeps on it. (:
haha.

supposed to be sleeping or mugging now.
but.. =_-, apparently i'm not.
they're watching lil xing hua yuan now. =_-
i'm not interested in it.
bleah!

what else?
jie n di went for harry potter todae.
ha! den i met the others at ntuc den bought junkies.
den went shiyu's house where we just lazed around.
after curry chicken-ing, me n yin jie went for play the com.
i studied a bit on summation.
while the rest went to bake cookies.
haha.
not that i dun wanna bake, too much people baking smth can get messy.
(:
den just ate and ate n ate practically the whole day away.

well, they just off the lights.
haha. i can't type in the dark.

tata. (:

ha, everything comes out so unexpected.
england and portugal lost.
hell.

everything i tot will win, lost.
everything is opposite.
even wad i perceive is not what it is.

ahh, heck.
my batt is running low.
i'm supposed to be mugging right after this.
but my head is getting heavier.
i need to sleep.

hell no.
must study.
promise myself le.
it's a monday.
ahhh.

amanda's coming home soon.
yay?
i'm about to lose my sanity again.
she's so funny and nv fails to piss me off.
hahha.
tt's y i love her.

what else?
got xing he's mail.
haha.
those were the days.
blah.
but it's okay,
neither one of us is going to die. (or are we?)

now i noe why adrian is nicer den before.
stupid sanjay.
i dunoe wadeva shit he told him.
can't be bothered
*rolls eyes*
no sincerity.
hahahaha.

but then, sanjay will be going for atc again during the days when i go chalet.
shit, jerome jerome.
i wonder is he going for the chalet.
i hope he is.
haha. den we can gossip all night with benny and my gang people.
plus, i got a company when the rest intends to scare me.
cuz jerome is scared of ghosts tooo!!!!!!
yay! (:

i hope i'll study good todae. (:

i'm so darn shagged.

okie,
i'm exceptionally surprised today. (:

1. we fucking won!
2. the guys fucking won!
3. we really got second in the 24men boat.
4. we really achieve our aim ( getting the last second in the 12 men boat)
5. adrian maged me online and asked me bout the competition.
6. i think tt adrian's alright now.
7. i feel for the dragonboat team.
8. i actually regretted not being in sea sports.
9. i actually regretted not beiong in sea sports and not get to go malaysia.
10. i ate swenson's sticky chewy choc ice cream todae.
11. i ate crabs. (:
12. xing he replied my mail today.
13. we almost fought with the nyj gurls

haha.
i still can't believe we got second.
i was so scared tt we will get 3rd.
blah, i got degraded by li wen yet again todae.
but it's alrite.
(thanks to the low EQ i got, so i remained my insanity.)

i suck at rowing 12 men.
the morale was damn low.
i wanted to cry when i saw shi yu and ying chun crying.
it sucks to see your team mate crying,
cuz it's like, it seems even real that u noe ur boat will lose.
but den we really lose.
got second last.

wasn't tt bad.
as much as we aim for.
we got it. (:
shi yu kept crying the whole day.
i just dunoe how to cheer someone help.
so i just left her alone.
bleah, call me a lousy fren.

okie, the guys look as if they wanted to break down too.
when they lost the 24 men.
but when we won the 24men, they won the 12men boat too.
we were damn happy.

shall tok more on our 24 men.
the morale is big.
i was feeling a bit insulted by li wen,
who offered her seat to me,
cuz
1. she says she dun wanna hit ying chun
(implying tt ting chun nv stretch)
2. she says tt she felt v uncomfortable cuz she can't see my paddle
(implying tt i nv stretch oso)

haha,so fucked up.
we ain't perfect, neither is she.
but well, thanks to her, i got stronger.
i made sure i did my best while rowing.
blah, though i still suck, haha.
i like her for her curt remarks.
hahaha. (:
seriously, people lidat are like dying out.
people now just keep everything to themselves.
haha. (:
li wen's cool.
woots! (:

den the race started.
we were reaching the end point.
far behind acjc.
i saw the end point,
i was so fucking happy.
i kept screaming.
screaming screaming,
screamed like a lunatic.
and the nyjc boat was gettin nearer and nearer to us.
den we started hittin each other's paddles.
den we find oursleves hitting the nyjc people.
den found oursleves struggling to keep going.
den BEEP! we got second.
think they purposely clash into us de.
but we won. lalalala. (:
nyjc people are suckers. boo! losers.
den we started swearing and cursing each other,

and one nyjc is so BLIND that she PURPOSELY knock into fiona.
come on la.
so spastic.
lose den lose la.
admit defeat.
idiots. morons. no wonder u in nyjc. =_-

okie, den the guys race is the last.
i almost want to cry when i saw them laggin behind.
i din want them to lose.
den they chiong real hard in the end,
they fucking got 1st,
we screamed like fuckers (again)

den went to bathe and went parkway parade with the rest.
(almost all went for leadership training camp in m'sia after the race)
sigh! we went eating and eating and walking and luffing and giggling in all the food shops we can find.
even bread talk and four leaves.
blah.

den went home with clara on bus 12.
crapped all the way beck.
den reached home bathed.
talk cock with aunite and ma,
poked my pimples,
went online.
and surprisingly, the 1st to msg me wasn't sanjay.
it is adrian.
i dun tin he even remembered who am i if i dun have my name on msn. haha.
crap talk a lil on dragonboating and he got bored of me.
funny, he took all different subjects frm me,
except we take 3As.
haha.
(we are such stupid people)

den smsed benny.
ate my supper.
(hot brewed lotus soup and skinny crabs)
washedthe dishes.
and voila, type blog.
and voila here.
haha.

and and,
good nite.
i must go get water. (:
ciao!

12:19:00 AM

stupid jie.
everytime snatch the computer from me.
let me use a while oso wun die wad. =_-
argh.

now everyone wants to irritate me.
i'm so mentally and physically unstable now.
i'm so tired.
woke up at 6am, ran 1.6 and study (or at least tried) for the whole day.

got my jersey and my db tee.
okie, it's not really up to my standard.
but it's cool enuf le.
(prolly cuz it's my money)
i prefer the seniors's tee.
really.
but it's okie. (:
our's are rrly plain.

okie, here comes jie.
bye.
argh!

mary had a little lamb,
its fleece is white as snow.

but the thing is i'm a charcoal. (:

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket,
never let it fade away.
catch a falling star and put it in your pocket,
save it for a rainy day.
for love may come and tap you on the shoulders,
some starless night.

For love may come and tap you on the shoulder some starless night
Just in case you feel you want to hold her
You'll have a pocketful of starlight

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day

For when your troubles start multiplyin' and they just might
It's easy to forget them without tryin'
With just a pocketful of starlight

woots. i like this song. (:
it keeps spinning in my head.
oooh, i'm feeling lousier each day. =(
blah!

i rlly envy nicole for her fabulous time management.
i envy jie for her intelligence.
i envy pretty faces everywhere.
envy pretty figures, all around the world.
envy millionaires...

haha.
den todae is oso god-damn shit la.
i think i've wasted yet another day..
morningwent for netball training.
ran and jumped like a fucker.

i think i got butter fingers.
i carn grip the ball right.
i better practise. :P
i will get better.
come on. (:

but wow, i felt good,
it's the last training for netball for this hols!
hahahahahahahaha.
finished db training oso.
awaiting for sunday to come.
the bloody competition.
i wanna win.
i'm that desperate. :P

oh, then got PW meeting.
haha. den went tampines mall with jacsee and lu jun.
den hang around like crazy. =_-
den went home and koon.

Zzzz.
woke up and tada!
i'm here.
haha.
damn shit.
i'm having a nice talk with cong.

but shitty la,
the campbell's book is more important now..
haha,
so ciao!

i still miss amanda.
and yesh, xing he.

blah.
i'm full of salt!
kinda dried already.
haben bathed since training.

ha, yesh.
went training this morning.
battled with myself at 6,
i can't get off bed. =(
but i did.
reached in time.
okie, i wasted yet another 1.80 on water.
mineral water.
i hate it when my house doesn't have empty 1.5 litre bottles.
den i think i wasted like 1.5 hrs sittin there and watching them row.
*(^#!*&^#&*!^*#&*!& (why waste my time..?)

den my turn to row le.
the 24 men boat.
sat with fiona.
behind was zhen yi.
he kept hittin into me.
i understand cuz he doesn't row left. =_-

den did 3 sets, den debrief.
after debrief, shi yu and ying chun cried.
ahh, i dun rrly noe why ying chun cried,
but i understnad why shi yu did.
god, when she cried, it made me depressed.
cuz apparently, we're facing the same fate (well, kinda)
i was made the caller for the 12 men boat.
as in i need call for the hard 10 and hard 20.
blah blah.
i tin we'll suck in it.
plus, i tin we'll be the last in the competition.
but sigh, shi yu, u must believe in us and urself.
i will believe in you and the rest.
don let anyone on the boat down
God noes, we might win. :P

den ella got a boat for us to train for 12 men.
(i tin if shi yu din cry, we got no training for our 12 men loh)
i hate being cast as the 'lousy' rowers in gurls. =_-
den went home after they dismissed.
din bathe till now.
tt's why i stink like river.

den went for lunch.
went eastpoint and got peel fresh's peach juice.
den walked around.
reached home and tada! here am i.

well, i better go bathe den mug.
i promise amanda and myself and james ong. (:
todae is the day... (:
jia you jiamin. haha.

well, xing he's leaving for good todae.
i think he's in the airport now.
sighh. =(
i hope him well.

amanda,
i missed her already!
though we don get to meet everyday,
but something is v wrong w.o her.
oh, my hp is not filled with her sms-es todae, for one.
ha,
ciao people. (:

this is the story of a gurl,
who cried a river and drown the whole world.

blah.
just saw xing he's email.
*poof*
one more good fren is leaving me for good.
he ain't coming beck anymoreee.

i missed todae's training.
was feeling groggy and sluggish this morining,
cuz i slpt at 4am and woke up at 7.
i went home and slpt until now.
ha. (:
time check: 9.20pm.

okie, monday is a terror.
haha,
went for training (both 2).
for the 4hr interval, we went to mac to talk cock.
haha. and eat.
den went beck for training part two for the day.
den chiong to home and to sch,
begged dad to fetch me to sch,
for si ya told me tt the gate closes at 7.30.
oh dang,
i reached at 7.24pm.
it's already locked.
=_-

saw a group of peepz inside, figurin how to get outa school.
i threw my bag in and they caught it for me.
den i climbed in, via school main gate.
okie, this gate is damn easy to climb, compared to manjusri's.
haha.

den the pple were like WOW!
u climbed like a pro, one told me.
they say they have been standing in front of the gate and figuring out to get outa sch for 1 hr.
haha. silly people.
den i told them to follow me like how i climbed lor,
den i go le.
den ate my dinner.
i was burned.
haha. as in burnt out and sunburnt.
was as red as a lobster they say.
but i insisted on being a steamed crab. :P
den planned for talentime.
den went for night walk.
the dungeon is damn creepy, cuz it's soo dark and freaky.
i wasn't lookin at any of the human-ghosts.
was lookin at the floor and busying gossiping with amanda.
we're the 1st pair to go.
haha. (:
was funny when people tryin to act like ghost, ain't scary enuf.
den head to bed, slpt with gurls, amanda and pple at 2.
we mugged till 2. haha.
din rrly mugged, was v sleepy le.
after training. :P

den next day, i din do PT cuz i went for bio tutorial.
it was darn boring.
i din listen cuz i'm struggling to keep myself awake.
haha, den stayed beck for an hr to crap talk with mr toh.
he said: he tot i was some new malay student in s04.
haha. dang.
i'm getting tanner and tanner.
darker and darker each day.
(shit! i forgot to tell xing he tt i'm gettin darker. haha)
den went for wet games,
was rather boring. :P
zzz.

den went to bathe and dinner and have a boring talk for the roteracts.
and den we had free time for the IU nite.
den i presented the IU presentation la.
okie, i screwed up. =_-
but it wasn't tt bad.
den ate and crap talk with the gurls.
den bathed and played the com till 4am.
haha, den i and amanda played the com.
ahaha actuli i was the one playing but she entertained me
den we watched the vs video clip like a zillion times.
hahaha.
i made sure everyone in the room watched it.
ahh den woke up at 7, ate and went home.

blah blah blah.
okie, jie wants to use the com le.
ciao! (:

ha, this is wad i typed to xinghe.
he's gone and wun be coming back for good.
blah! i missed his flight. =(

awww.
fear not my lil' piggie. (:
i read your mail late.
apparently it was raining very heavy tis noon.
blah.
thanks for the mail.
it made me realise that guys get emotional too.
blah!
what crap.

thanks for everything oso. (:
will miss your once-in-awhile smses.
will miss not-seeing-you-anywhere (maybe someday at the foto-copying shop in (what's the shoppin centre in marine parade called?) oh! roxy square.

but again, dread not,
the technology is gettin advanced, (yay?)
so we still got msn messengers (unless u don use it anymore) and we have hotmail! haha.
i hope u get into UK.
US is like kinda unsafe to me. :P
and yah, take good care. (:

i'll prolly see ya in a few year's time,
or rather, u'll prolly see me in a few years' time,
for i'll be a rather famous hollywood actoress. (right.)
haha, or maybe i'll strike 1st in lottery and gain large amts of money,
i'll go to anywhere the country u're in for a shopping spree.
in either way, i'll make sure u remember my big big big name,
for i'm the cute cute cute one. (:

ahh. i'm crap talking.
but u love it, don't you?

thanks for everything big guy. (:
(if i nv thanked you before, it ain;t to late eh? u're still kicking and alive.)

for teaching me physics and a maths.
(though i must say, i still duneo wad u're trying to tell us.haha.)
can still remembered u teaching the trigo cruves, and telling us about why an empty pladtic bag but air-filled can flow in water. is it or is it not?)

for being such a patient teacher.
cuz my gang and i were like stupid. (ahh, compared to u)
and we're often (well, okay, i admit everytime) late.
it was once, i remember,
u rushed all the way down frm vj to mjr to tutor us,
and yet we rushed all the way down frm mjr to near vj (siglap's pizza hut) for a fabulous lunch.
and u ended up eating a packed lunch,
while we ate pizzas and all nice stuff,
and u waited for us pretty long.
(that must have pissed u off rather badly)

for being such a caring and thougful mentor,
God noes why are you so damn cool to pop out this march,
when we're supposed to collect our o lvl results,
you're there to support and to noe our results (after ur sooo tortureous effort).
i thank you for being there.

for being a successful mentor,
at least u made me get 15 pointers (though it's bad)
but it's much better den i expected.
and plus, i dun think i can make it w.o ur help.

for being such a motivator,
at least u made me slogged like an ass. (:
so tt i got 15.

for being so nice,
fret not, ur vj badge is still safe with me. (:

for teaching me how to shoot,
shoot a bball i mean. (:
haha, can remembered u saying: it is not the real world
when ur ball missed the goal.
(the the the matrix 3 was a big hit tt time)

for teaching me how to escape from reality,
you said: go home, go get ur bball, and wahck urself hard with all tt bball playing, have a nice bath, and eat sleeping pills and go to sleep.
way cool, dude. (:

well, there's so much for me to type on.
but den i wun,
it's things u noe u need to keep inside you,
things that u shared withothers and not worth mentioning anymore,
the memories tt u noe u'll nv forget till it's with u, in the grave.

ahhh, i hope u loved readint his,
as much as i enjoyed going back to the past.
i'm sorry that i carn and i failed to see you off.
but as much as u noe,
jiamin loves you as much as a junior can love a senior,
for jiamin noes that she owes you too much.

and jiamin will not force this real cool senior to say tt he loves her as a junior,
cuz she noes tt he already love her as one.
wahhaha. :P

ahh, mama's kpkbing le. better go. (:ciao.
take care.

and another one:

oh bummer.
it's tomorrow's flight.
i know i wun be able to see you off though.
and and the thing is.........

people wil not forget you,
for ur big big big big name is on the top o lvl pupil in 2002.
haha. (:
just plain hard to forget such a big-brained guy and the last pupil who is in mjr track as a cca. :P

oh, i'll take precautions,
in oder not to let u forget me,
u must not forget my name.
thus, i'll repeat my name: JIAMIN!
hahah.
crap.
yes crap,
but u'll remember that, don't u?>
haha.

bon voyage. (:
eh, if u ever forget me, u're so dead. hahaha

Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love eachother
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
Wat we no longer long

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

ahhh. (:
i'm loving this song.
it keeps playing in my head.
anna and the king. (:
oooh.. new season buffy looks nice. (:
with the supper shuai guy, Rj. hhaa.
kinda reminds me the rj kayaker. :P
blaH!
tomorrow still freaks me out.
ahh, i'm so going to bring my beloved 'muscle ache' relief kit to camp.
so tt jie yin n i can share. (:
blah blah.
must go watch harry potter and do bio tutorial.
i'm wasted another day again todae.
blah, i'm such an arsehole.

How can I not love you
When you are gone

urgh.
i'm so burning inside.

that silly gurl.. =_-
sometimes, i really cant be bothered with frenships.
it's frustrating.
you can't expect everything GOOD from me.
i'm not a bloody saint.
so irritating.
i apologised.
what else do you want.
it's NOT entirely my friggin fault.
for i'm not paid to reply smses asap,
and plus, i'm not perfect.
i can't feel the hp vibrations for goodness' sake.
why cant you try to bloody friggin uncerstand. =_-
ahh, whatever la.

blah.
early in the morning.
haha, lucky me,
these things come and go.

geez. watched the witches yesterday.
haha, the mousie is darn cute! (:
den went hougang for porridge dinner.
home den sleep le. =_-

woke up at 7. (:
was writing bio notes till now.
will go off after this to write again.
yesh, i must chiong,
because i'm fucking going to run oua time if i don't.

i don;t believe in what benny said.
he said i'll nv get to finish all my topics of my subjects by hols.
ha, i'm so going to prove him wrong.

aya, i felt so freaked out now.
ahh. i fear tomorrow.
it's monday. the 2nd week of the hols.
let me tell you my schduele.

monday, i'll go for db training.
it's 10-12 and 4-6.
two trainings in a day, will kill me. =(
den must chiong home to get my camp stuff den reach sch by 7pm.
den stay till wed, tues got bio tutorial,
wednesday, i break camp earlier den chiong home den to kallang for training.
den it's two trainings per day oso.
ahhh. i'm so freaking scared.
i think i'll die frm exhaustion
(like my farecard.. =_-)

ahh, i wanna watch harry potter.
blah.
i'm off to mug.
tata!

oh i missed my sec sch days.
the days with zhao. (swimming and staying at her house play com.)
the days with amanda. (sittin on the pull up benches)
the days with my gang (mugging til wee hours on the balcony lvl 4)
the days with chang yi (he'll grab my arm and squeeze hard. pain! and i'll dig my nails into his arms till it bleeds and whack him hard on his ack)
the days with cong. (ahh.. muggin at the association, walking here n there)
the days with seng poh (mac studying with cong, borrowed bike frm him and walked with his bike to east coast)

these are the days.

i love you people. (:

oooh.
i felt so running-outa-time.

blah blah blah.
i felt like going beck to bed,
crawling up my blankets and go to sleep.
(no! it's so friggin humid now. so i dun need the blankies)
haha, i'm that tired.

hmmm, woke up at 7 plus today.
realised i'm 1 hr early,
so i headed beck to sleep.
then i woke up with a shock,
i overslept! haha.
but it wasn't tt bad lah,
i even bathed,
and i was the 1st to reach there.
(well maybe not, cuz jie yin is in school le.)

den i missed jie yin's call,
so i sms her beck asking wassup.
(den i forgot tt she'll reply, plus i din feel the vibration. awful thick fat thigh i got there)
so i din realised tt she sms me beck.
ha, so sorry dear. (:

den everyone was there le,
except jie yin.
so we waited for her.
den jen jen saw jie yin's sms,
saying tt she's already inside.

okie dokie,
den i realised tt she replid me.
haha, so she was only asking where am i.
so i din reply, thinkin tt we'll see her in sch later.
den went to audi for maths.
blah, my heart fell when it was tt bird-nest-hair cher, mr chow, teaching.
instead of ms ong, so distressing. ahh. he made me not know yet another chapter again. urgh!
(or did my heart fell when i realised nua nua wasn't in school for the lecture todae? blah hahaha. crappy.)

den after maths lec,
went for projectwork meeting.
HA! that's when we started cursing kh.
for being so idiotic, retarded and most importantly, irresponsibile.
we wanted to wait for him,
(luckily we din cuz when we're almost done with everything den he came)
so we did the survey statistics and blah blah.
i finished by my pw stuff (date-dued threee 3 weeks ago).
lalala, so happy. (:
den kh came with twixs (yay!) for me and more choc and potato chips for the rest.
i just finsihed the twixs! so wheee! (:

oh, kh was mean.
he left his notes in the locker,
and we wanted it plus he wasnt in sch.
jun (aka apple) called him, and he gave her his locker no and his password for the lock.
den jun went, she came beck looking v pissed indeed.
ha, guess wad?
kh's locker is locked with those lock wich needed keys to open.
den, jun called him,
he just merely said: i noe, i haben change the lock to the lcok wich needs code yet.
HA! den why go ask her take frm his locker and why bother to give her his no?
retarded right? :P
but den i can't curse him, cuz i took his twix.
i'm supposed to shut my ass up. (:

den while pw meeting,
amanda n xiao ying got 2 plain waffles for me.
i ate and had a tummyache.
ha, den went toilet and shit.
stupid tummy. -growls-
den i ran outa the oilet after i'm done.
the toilet is so empty.
i'm scared! =(
manda had to tell me about ghosts in sch. =(
eeeyer. =( dun like!!
it never fails to freak me out. :P

haha, den went tampines mall with amanda.
got jie yin's prezzie.
ah fuck. i forgot to bring my jeans for alteration.
i wanted to bring it to alter since january.
haha. i'm sucka. :P

den while walkin to mrt station, saw mrs lim and her daughter.
manda called her and we chatted a while.
ahha, she say i dark le.
den she ask us to jia you and prac more maths.
will, madam!
she's still awfully cute. (:
so is her daughter, who was busy munchin mars.

den went home and snooze for 2 hours.
haha, well, i'm so dead if i dun go and mug now.
tata peepz!

hope you love my new beckground! haha.
it's awwfully adorable eh?
(like me! blah! :P)

now i feel like watchin the day after tml and harry potter.
god, i'm too broke to do that.
sorry amanda. :P

urgh.
i'm fucking shagged.
fucked out and up.
haha. (:

todae.. (:
hmmm.. went school, and din see nua nua for the v 1st time..
(aww. so sad. LOLx)
den went for gp.
oh, had a union tutorial with xue ping's and a03.
ha, the teacher is really boring,
and i din bring everything for gp,
cuz i tot he'll be going thru the fac test,
but he din.
oh wells, (:
i also left a seat next to me and put my bag.
cuz i din wanna sit all rite to the side.

den after like so long a time,
it's finally over!
oh, we were talking about power rangers during tutorial. ha!
den met si ya and han wen for the presentation for interact nite.
fucking hell again, i chose the wrong paper,
and i get to be speaker number one for tt presentation.
(yawns)
fuck rite?
den chiong up the lecture theature
and found out tt the tutor is tan poey kee instead of ong bee suan.
haha, he did crack me up a lil.
with his hokkien and ah beng ways of teaching.

den after maths tutorial, went to tampines central,
to eat qiu lian ban mian,
and i regrettted.
kallang leisure park's rawks like fuck.
haha,
it's so damn nice compared to the one i had in the noon.
eeyer!

den went beck school, slack a bit
and went for netball training.
ran rounds, did lotsa ball training todae.
(now i'm having legs'muscle aches. pain )

den went home with amanda,
we bathed and went out to meet xin n sam sam at bedok.
ha boy, they changed a lot.
xin looked so mature
sam sam looked skinnier. (:
cool, they say i din chanegd except i'm gettin darker each day.
haha.
sucky.
i dun wanna have dark skin.
i wan glossy bronze ones! =(
-pouts-

den met the rest at doby ghuat.
i shouted for chang yi.
haha.
(was wearing my sch U, cuz manda wants me to pei her wear.)
haha, a bit throw tpjc de face. :P
den went fish n co!
yummy, had lotsa mussels, fish meat, prawns, etc etc.
ooh, it's xin's treat, it costs 167.50 bucks.
damn, she's my idol.
she's so god-damn rich!
she just spent 60 bucks in the noon dying and cuttin her hair.
maybe i shall go n seduce her instead of nua nua.
easier leh! (haha.what cock?)

went plaza sing after tt,
den went snoopy's place, intendin to get jie yin her prezzie.
hahahaha, i got nth, cuz we have other things in plan. :P
(u just wait for tt, i bet u'll love it. jie yin, and u'll noe how much we love u. haha)
den, when amanda goes into metro's fittin room to try on smth,
my tummy starts growling.
den i go pei chang yi.
(funny, he's not into bras.haha)
den we walked around, den 1/2 way, i chiong to the toilet.
haha.
damn long queue, i was like want to die liao!
den i bear with the agony.
den wah,
so happy when i found out tt the toilet bowl is clean and it has toliet rolls in it.

den wanted to go home le, den my tummy screamed again,
den i chiong to the toilet again.. =_-
another longer fucking queue, i almost wanna ask the pple to let me in 1st.
i'm so in pain! =(
den i ren ren ren ren ren!
den went! wahhh.
so shuang! (:
blissed man.

den sat mrt.
ha, chang yi pang seh us,
he squeezed into the train in city hall. =_-
den voila, he went home w.o us.
stupid boy.
den on my way beck, my tummy start to hurt again.
den upon reaching bedok i canot take it liao,
i alighted and chiong to the toilet.

den went to the bus stop to take 9.
(din wanna walk home)
den the bus din come, but the pain in my tummy did.
den i rushed beck to the mrt station for toilet.
it's closed!
den i sat mrt home.
i was feeling prety alright den,
while walking home, my tummy squealed and i ran all the way home.
i ran! and ran ran ran ran and ran!
den chiong home, toilet! =_-
was sweating like a fucker when i was sittin on my toilet bowl.
haha.

den bathe, mama came home,
poked my pimples.
and i just realised tt it's reaching one.
i need to sleep.
i need to wake up earli tml.

chiong my projectwork task
(which all the rest finished 3 fucking weeks ago)
ahh,
someone shoot me.

bed bed, here am i.
shall go apply some medicated oil on my tummy 1st.

i hate my tummy.
it hates me.
it is only happy when i shit everyday.
urgh.
i dun wan to. =_-

damn.
my legs are so cramped.
ha, the thing is, i got trainings almost everyday.
different trainings summore.
i'm dying.

prepare casket for me.
and flowers.
(choy! touch wood!)

amanda was like telling me tt there's ghost in the theature we wer in during gp n maths tutorial.
and she was rather shocked to see me leaving a seat beside me.
i screamed and screamed and screamed.
i hate thse kinda stuff. =(
i rrly do.
i'm scared... =(

blah blah blah.

i'm feeling terrible.
i wished everything will come my way.
(well, hu doesn't?)

okay, once again, someone proved that i'm a lousy rower.
l-o-u-s-y.
yeash, lousy.
desmond said i wasn't used to the new stroke.
it is bad, it is bad. =_-
actually, there's not much difference between both, to me.
-scratches head-
i dunoe.
i just plainly suck.
oh well, it's okay,
i'm immune to it. (:

blah blah blah.
on todae.
hurraqy, jie made the internet explorer for me.
okie, i'm the only idiot now,
cuz i dunoe how the fuck this internet explorer works.
ha, i just dun wannoe noe.
i dun wanna be addicted to the com.

ha! i just spent blardy hours on posting the images,
cuz many can't be posted.
damn stupid rite? hehe.
tt's me.
lalalalala. (:

well, todae todae,
went school for bloody maths lecture.
haha, sian la,
wasn't rrly payin much attention to da lecturer,
cuz i'm tired. (:
really tired.
(can't get to slp last nite.)

den went library,
haha, i'm very happy,
i borrowed campbell's bio txtbk yet again!
great achievement!!!
i love tt bloody book but becuz it's bloody, it's expensive!
jiamin can't afford it. =(
i'm a cheapo kia! (:

den den den, it started to rain,
so we can't run,
(dun intend to anyway, was damn tired le)
den stayed in library.
ahha,
we were toking so loud. (:
going ga-ga over pretty faces and beautiful hair. (:
den wow-ing over nice-looking cakes. haha. (:

den den den,
when the rain stopped, i headed home,
hoping to get some sleep,
but after doing like 2 questions of trigo,
it's time to go for training.
went to eat 1st,
den i got tummyache right after tt.
(great, isn't it?)
ha, den reached there exactly at 1.30
damn, a few pple are there.
all guys and ai min.
she was with her dearie,
so i sat alone on the stone edge and look at hcjc and rj pple kayak. (:

oh, guess wad i saw?
a cute RJ guy of course.
haha.
den he paddled away, and never to be seen again. =(
blah!

i noe i must be looking so idiotic
cuz i'm sittin under the big hot sun,
but i'm really bored.
just sat there and stoned.
den everyone came,
ha, i still sat there, waitin for someone to approach me.
but sadly, no1 did,
except for my tummy which growled.
it hurts!
dso i went over, got tissues frm shu hui and went toilet.
haha, i love the invention of toilet bowl.
i reall do.
i can't squat for goodness' sake.
my legs will go jelly and shaky
and i can't do the thing i want to do.
haha. i suck. (:

den training starts.
oh well, freaky,
shan't say anything. *zips mouth*
it was hiong.
okie, for the 1st thing, i was indirectly torturing myself.
ha, the buckle of the bloody life vest was banging into my thigh.
it's so darn pain but i carn stop during the training.
oh fuck!
now i got two blue-blacks side by side.
ha, it looks as if the old blue-black is growing.
and yah, it hurts.
fucking hell. =_-

den mr yeo decided tolet us row without the vest.
yay! (:
and he ended my suffering.
den the thing is i forgot to bring my sponge!
ha, the seat is sure slippery.
i kept falling down.
and once, i can't even go back to my original position.
suckkkky! =(
ha, training was damn hiong.
yahhh HIONG!
so many hard pulls.
i can't even breathe properly,
imagine me shouting.
haha, oh boy, i'm lousy. :P
but i tried shouting
after zhi qi questioned me in front of the rest why i din shout.
not to prove tt i noe how to shout,
but just to boost up the morale. (:

den after so many pain and sweat and great loss of energy,
ha, we happily headed to the bathroom thinking tt we can bathe!
oh fuck, guess wad?
it was so crowded with kids.
primary sch kids.
argghhh
(this is the only time i'll hate kids cuz they fight with me over wad i want!)
haha. :P
evil me,
so i took the bus to kallang.
(intended to like walk beck, but the bus came so... hehe,shiyu. (:)

den sat the mrt, with everyone looking,
cuz i stink and shirt is transparent,
with my yellow sports bra glowing under the shirt.
hey, it isn't my fault tt i wanna wear tt shirt.
it happens tt i can't find my pe tee.
and i can't blame me for my yellow sport bra,
cuz i only have coloured ones.
haha. (:
what crap (ahh! never mind!:P)

went home, bathe!
ate and did trigo.
ah fuck, i haben finish doing my tutorials.
tml's ong bee suan.
better not mess around.
she might send a whole army of ants to gobble me up.
like how to?
(who noes?)

haha,
well, benny reminds me how sad i have to be next week.
the oh-so-supid-and-sucky tight schduele i have.
ahh fuck.
why do u have to do this to me???????

oh man, i'm falling in love with the fuck word again.

and yes, i'm thinking about money right now.
xin hui and peepz wanna go fish n co for dinner on fri.
ahha, sounds great?
not when u're blardy broke.
okie, xin says she'll foot 1/2 my bill for me.
but dear, i'm totally broke.
i can't even afford 1/2 the bill.
i'm so depressed.
over everything.
moeny. trainings. time. studies. relationships.

ha, i'm a sucker at everything.
oh well, bugger off.

i feel it in my fingers,
i feel it in my toes.
christmas is all around me,
so let the feeling grow.


woke up at 10am. (:
geez. had nice sleep.
i'm so full of energy now.
-bounces around-

oh, woke up and watched 'love actually' for the second time.
ha, i'm falling in love with the show.
oh, i like tha casts in both 'how to lose a gy in 10 days' and love actually.
kate hudson is soooooo beautiful like like the juliet in 'love actually'.

kate:


haha. sorry cuz keira knightley's image just can't be posted here.

thomas sangster


and and.... the the... hugh grant and thomas sangaster! hehe.


ooh, i found yet another cutish guy yesterday.
while reading times. (:
haha, yagira yuuya is so cute leh!
i wanna watch his show!
nobody knows.
hurmpf. it's not playing in the movies in singapore.
damn. =_-



okay this the pic of my ed. (:


haha, brudder kpkb-ing.
shall go on the air con and continue maths.
trigo here i come. (:

okie.
sometimes, i rrly hate blogger.
why does't it automatically stores the unsaved posts.

my mama. =_-
she switches the main switch y'dae while i was typing my blog 1/2 way.
it's almost nearly finished.
den polp!
the com's off.
despite me restarting and restarting the com for like a zillin times,
the internet explorer refused to work for me.
bloody hell.
so i din blog y'dae.
(actulli i did, but it is GONE)

but i did cried. haha.
so pissed about everything.
so stressed up.
haha, so pissed with mama off-ing the com for me.
okay, luff at me for all u want.
i know i sound so childish and stuff.
hell.


yesterday:
went for maths lecture in school.
met up the guys at the bus stop at 7.45am.
as usual, i'm the latest one.
ahha, i always tot i'll be earli, cuz i live the nearest,
but it always turn out to be a but i don rrly care,
i'm just like 3 or 2 minutes late.
geez. =P sorry guys.

den amanda brought durian puff for me!
yummy!
my long-awaited cold durian puff!
plus, i was darn hungry.
i gobbled it all down,
i din rrly tasted it, cuz i'm busy filling up my tummy.
aha, wasted. :P
(shall go tell benny about this, he'll going UrGhhGHgHgH!!)
haha. (:
went lunch with amanda,
ate the so delicious egg tofu. (:
yummy!
den bought lunch for my family.

den i sat at the couch, on the tv,
and finished watching 'how to lose a guy in 10 days' (yet again.)

and 'love actually'
i totally dig the shows.
yummy! so oh-lovey dovey, heart-warming, sappy.
drama,drama,drama. :D
while watching, it started to pour like no1's business.
damn shiok.

hmm, i love it when it rains all day
big big big pouring rain,
with loud loud deafening thunders,
and lotsa long, striking, bright flashes of lightning.
it's amazing how the weather changes from sunny to rainy.
ha, i just simply love the rainy season, don't you?
(note: it's the durain season too!)
the feeling of falling aslp in bed while it's raining and wet,
and u're warm in ur comfortie bed, cuddling up, hugging ur teddies and bolster plus the pillow in ur head,
is such a bliss.

oh, but it's bad for jie yin's snoppy and da gou ma ma.
haha.
they can't go for sun tanning! blah! =P
and adn yah for the umbrella-less people out there,
stuck at the bus stops and shelters due to the big rain.
oh well, at least they know how lucky or suay they are todae.
haha.
(what am i talking about??)

den after watching the two nice shows,
i went to bed, and only woke up at 8pm.
den it's dinner!
jie cooked fried bee hoon for dinner.
wich is yummy too. (:
brudder got reprimanded by dad for spilling the ribena he made for me all over the table.
ha, he damn suay.

den tried maths.
din noe how to do all.
but at least i tried.
james: must at least try to writ smth for each question, and see where you've gone wrong.
ahh, he's such a motivator to me. (:
he's one rocky (yah, check those muscles out)teacher. (:

oh, that spells an end for yesterday!

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