there's a beautiful song playing on the tv now.
some korean/japanese song. (:
mtv rulez. (:

talking to lover n benny now.
and, yeah i felt so much today.
at least i'm pretty awake inside today.
though morning was crap.
it's freaking cold and i felt so ever tired.

mdm twu was damn nice though.
she let us sleep. (:
so i slept. and amanda was like luffing at me,
telling me that i dun really shut my eyes when i'm asleep.
she could see my eyeballs moving up and down. =_-
then chiong to canteen to fill my tummy. (:
had chicken rice, which i regretted having lah, anyway.
i actually want prawn mee! heh. (:

the lessons went well as normal.
ohya, i had tummyache + gastric during the skill A spa trial.
urghhh. had to go to the toilet myself. alone. :(

and maths was slacky.
i need to find benny sooon.
i need tt book. and i think i need his help.
(though he also.. CMI. hahaahaha. :P)

had chicken chop + fish fillet for lunch.
yum yum. (:
aaah.
i didn't sit with the people today.
i sat with denise till she went off.
and i settled on nua nua's seat today. (:
yay!
and i didnt budge till we are supposed to go home. (:

i thought today was rather productive till.......
i went over to disturb bingyao.
and we tried doing organic chem together.
his ten year series.
he was like, since u studied liao, u should noe. come! this question u do.
i was like, fine fine. (:
and i got everything.
and i mean every question in there, wrong.
so upsetting.
he was like, aya, next year, u wan to be in wad class? 05S-what?
urgh. =(
i swore i'll passs chem this time.
just you wait. heh!

i dunoe. chemistry.
total foreigner.
maybe i just dun have the calibre of a jc student.
i'm stupid.
i'm as stupid as jiamin.
boo hoo.

and i'm damn tired.

anyways, we sent amanda to her mum just now.
cause she was damn sick.
feeling giddy and stuff.
took 17.
and though it wasn't a long trip.
i like it. (:
the speed of the bus is rather nice.
not as slow as 9 or 12. (:

and i felt so much today.
i thought about life and people around me again.
ha. i noe. i think i'm really bored.

i realised that people are selfish.
and today's incident was pretty urgh-ing.
yah. today. =(
and i can't help but feel a little sad.
even friends...
and yeah, even me.
i'm selfish.
shan't elaborate.

plus, life. life. life.
is just a cycle.

and guys guys,
even benny whose future is to be a priest,
is desperate.
now now, don't tell you u're not.
despo despo.
that's why i hate guys.
they suck.
i rather stick to my gurlies. (:
bian liao. bian liao.

sigh.
i need to unload.
destress.
everything is f-ing irritating.
hahaha.

i think i'm going to die soon if i dun go to bed.
good night. (:

and i take back the two words from yesterday.
thee shall not swear. (:

i'm hanging on every word you're saying,
even if you don't wanna speak tonight,
that's alright, alright with me.
cause i want nothing more than sit outside heaven's door
and listen to you breathing.
is where i wanna be. (:

lover is like asking me, how come i take so long to blog.
i think it's because, i think.
hahaah. i think alot, before i pen/type everything now.
and i actually felt better after blogging everything. (:
yay for blogger.

blabbering trash to benny now.
aaaaah.
nice sista! (:

and i hope it won't rain tml morning.
or else, i'll be a VERY VERY VERY unhappy girl.
please, please, dun rain. (:

irritated and upset.
heh.
walked to 201 with amanda, jen jen and jerome for dinner.
was singing with jerome all the way. (:
i'm damn tired.
and bless benny cause he help me buy tt bk i want. (:
yay! sista u rock. (yet again.)
and i only got two words for today,

FUCK YOU.

aah.
tired.
need sleep.
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. (:

but i shall blog 1st.
considering that i still remember how to type. (:

went school, feeling like shit
but definitely happier than yesterday.
school ended fast again, today.
played badminton with liyan for pe.
quite fun lah.
considering that we are forced to scream 'yay!' and jump around when the shuttle drops. haha.

went tm then.
walked aroung.
tried v hard to get the bk i wanted.
went two places u noe?
but still failed.
boo hoo.

took 31 with amanda to marine parade.
met jansie's bf and fuei fong!
haha. jansie's bf looked pretty decent. (:
so happy to see fuei! yay. (:
jansie owed me crab for dinner. double yay! (:

reached late.
surprised samanatha.
bought cake for her.
sang so ever softly.
she cried.
felt rather.... upset when she cried.
was like huggin her.
awww, i wished i nv let go.

walked her to the bus stop cause she needed to go home.
then the rest of us went to east coast.
was like damn happy,
i missed everything about the beach.

i swore i could smell the sea. (:
the difference between normal air and air at beach. (:
woah.

the sea looks pretty.
the moon is hao lianing its roundness.
it's glowing.
in bright orange and yellow.
damn pretty. the sea of course, reflects the moon's radiance. (:
pity those who didn't get to see it. :P

played with the lantern. (:
went around finding twigs for them.
amanda was sooo cute.
it ws night. and she apparently know that she has night blindness,
but she went around finding for sticks.
and guess what?
i found her walking along the thick nylon rope along the beach to and fro.
whenever she walked right up to the extreme end of the rope, she will u turn and walked back.
to and fro.
fro and to.

and i was like laughing at that sight.
mean. but she can be really cute sometimes eh?

and i think i love my peepz a lot too.
was rather worried when i can't find amanda..
was upset when sam sam cried.
they all made me feel like crying.
but i can't cry for heaven's sake.
so i didn't. (:

walked for an hour or so i think.
then reached the food centre.
was like dying from hunger.
yet i can't choose wad to eat.
ended up with fried hokkien mee ,
which was nice of course. (:

then pa n ma fetched me home.
wondered if i'm staying back in sch tml.
shouldn't be, if i'm meeting benny sista for maths tuition.
haha.
he's sick.
and i bet he's trying so hard to get me sick with him.

yay. and if he's sick tml,
he wun force me to go running with him.
YAY. (:

i'm tired.
very tired.
good nite.

come what mayyyy...
come what mayyy...
i will love you, until my dying dayyyyyyyyyyyy...

haha. that's what i sang with jerome.
reckon that my voice sucks.
but it's okay. hahaha. (:
shall make him sing with me anyway.
singing duets are fun.
singing with guys are damn funny. haha.
cause amanda listens to chinese songs,
i listen to english ones.
so canot make it lah. :P

and today sucks quite a bit.
was damn tired.
and jennifer was acting weird the whole day.
i dunoe what happened that made her so upset.
and she acted like nothing has happened.

so i spent the whole day wondering what's up with her.
and i noe i didn't make up to her by cheerin her up and stuff
cause it's just not me to do these kinda things.


i dunoe.
weird.
i dun like weird feelings.

and.............. i had a bad start today anyway.
pa didn't make me breakfast. ha
had toe at smth so i had a bread with jam.
i dun like la. but bo bian. =_-

then during gp i was having goosebumps.
cause i kana gastric.
luckily mr lim left early so we chiong to eat noodles.
during eating, i rushed to the toilet. urgh.
then went back to eat. also tummyache.
after eating, toilet again.
how sorry can a morning be right?

the lessons ended perfectly. (:
went library,
did the same thing.
actually slacked today away again
shall mug later. hahaha

bing yao.
u r seriously, crap lah. =_-

and anyway,
i hate liars.
try lying to me.
(don't think i dun know. i just PRETEND not to know. asshole.)

benny sista went: yes yes you're a charming girl -when u re not swearing:p- and that it's not hard to guess what's my problem (my sista got substance one leh!)

haha. good. (:
at least he made me happy. (:

though cong de tua-ed me.
today is still a happy day. (:
went out nevertheless.
wanted to go buy the maths c self-help tys.
but the only ones left there, looked like they're in a rather sorry state.
so i think i'll buy it in sch tml then (:
after walking rounds round and round the mall,
i ended up buying only a bottle of 10ml eyedrop. for 3.30. haha.
then i made kingsley to go bk and study with me.

went home to get my stuff. headed to bk.
he was there already. (:
i asked him chemistry, he dunoe loh.
then beside was a MJ guy.
so i turned to the MJ guy and asked him if he noes how to do. hahahaha.
kingsley and his fren are so pai seh. xD
and that guy was rather friendly with us then. (:
he noe choon teck! hahahaa. :P

then grace came. (:
didn't study for today.
busy playing.
and there were ms singapore contest!
ahhha. the chio bu(s) are all wearing bikinis and stuff.
tsk tsk.
woahh!

went home then. (:
very crap.
anyway, too tired to continue further.
i got a lot to talk to my jen jen online.
ciao! (:

[x] whats your name? lin jiamin
[x] how old? 16. going on 17.
[x] siblings? 2. younger brudder. elder sista
[x] birthday: 19 oct (hint hint)
[x] natiOnality: singaporean
[x] Birthplace: dun really care. =_- can;t be bothered really.

[x] Current
[[currently in]]: tpjc
[x] Eye Color: black/deep brown/whatever
[x] Hair Color: brown in the sun. black then.
[x] Righty or Lefty: can do with both. but right is much faster and neater. (:
[x] Zodiac Sign: libra - i balance! (:
[x] Innie or Outtie: outtie. i like people.

[[-----------------DESCRIBE------------------]]
[x] The shoes you wore today: going out with my teva slippers later. (: black soft comforty base. blue white strips. priceless cuz my physics cher paid 1/2 for me. and chang yi paid the other half. was bought last yr during chalet. at beach road. (:
[x] your eyes: they are ugly and short-sighted. always dry. and they're mine. (:
[x] Your fears: supernatural things. things that are not visible to the eyes.

[[-----------------WHAT IS------------------]]
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: i dunoe lah,. also not my problem.
[x] Your thoughts when you first wake up: what's the time
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: the size.
[x] Your best physical feature: dun have. dun care.
[x] Your bedtime: when i want to sleep, i sleep. vice versa. (:
[x] Your most missed memory: the sentosa days.

[[-----------------YOU PREFER------------------]]
[x] Pepsi or coke: neither. not interested in soft drinks.
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonald's (:
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: rhumnba frap = heaven. (:

[[-----------------DO YOU------------------]]
[x] Smoke: of course not. it stinks. urgh.
[x] Cuss: what kind of question is this? bian tai!
[x] Take a shower everyday: haha. that is if i remember to bathe (: which i normally do
[x] Have a crush(es): erm.. who doesn't?
[x] who are they: cristiano ronaldo. (:
[x] Do you think you've been in love?: nope.
[x] Want to go to college: am in one right now. and mine sucks a bigg time
[x] Want to get married: duh. haha.
[x] Believe in yourself: yah. always. jiamin is always right. never wrong.
[x] Get motion sickness: yah. mood swings and stuff. hormonal imbalance. who doesn't?
[x] Think you're attractive: not at all. i think i suck. and i like being sucky.
[x] Think you're a health freak: not really. but i avoid oily food and hold my breath whenever there is cigarette smoke. (:
[x] Get along with your parents: of course. they love me. and i love them. (:
[x] like thunderstorms: only when i'm at home. asleep. (: cause they kill. bad bad lightning
[x] Play an instrument: yah. i suck at er hu. (goodness) haha. i played the harmonica and the recorder. (:

[[------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------]]
[x] Go to the mall: yahh. will be going later too.
[x] Eaten sushi: yup. last night. (: crabstick one.
[x] Kissed Someone: yah. mum i think.
[x] Been dumped: haha. no. no1 to dump me anyway.
[x] Gone skating: no? never even tried before.
[x] Made homemade cookies: haha. no time lahz.
[x] Been in love: no. no. no. no.
[x] Dyed your hair: no. i like my hair the way it is. (:
[x] Stolen anything: yeah. what a sin. that was ages ago. don't remind me. i';m a nice person now.

[[-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------]]
[x] Flown on a plane: yeah. i like it on the plane. (: it's been soo longg.
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no. i'm a responsible civics rep. haha. crap.
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: no. but i always sms them to tell them i love them. (:
[x] Cried during a Movie?: haha. nope. hard to anyway.
[x] ever thought that an animated character was hot?: yah. samurai X still rock.
[x] Cut your hair: haha. no. i go to the hairdresser.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: haha. no la. all my chers all lao cock cock one. xP
[x] Played a game that required removal of clothing?: haha. no. but i watched. (:
[x] Been caught "doing something": haha. like doing what..?
[x] Gotten beaten up ?: haha. hardly. only i beat people. except chang yi. but knows how to retaliate. haha

[[-----------------------OPPOSITE SEX--------------------------]]
[x] notice first? face lah. duh.
[x] have a BF/GF? nah.
[x] what are u into?? boys. (:
[x] any specific kind of guy/gurl you into? the one who loves me and the one whom i love in return. haha. =_-
[x] feelin for anyone? yes. no. maybe. i dunoe. can you repeat the question?
[x] been rejected? haha. dun think so.
[x] ever rejected sumone? sigh. yeah. guys freak me out sometimes.
[x] broken someones heart? think so.
[x] ever been heart broken? haha. not really. but then again, maybe yes.
[x] if so how many times? haha. dun wanna count. (:
[x] been kissed recently?? haha. yah. by brother i think. pervert! haha.
[x] Best eye color: haha. who cares when i like him?
[x] Best hair color: who cares when i like him?
[x] Best height: and again, who cares when i like him. haha.

[[-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------]]
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: haha. never. i love my organs!
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: myself. (: make 1 then. but got amanda, jen jen, my gang, my best fren, my bestest fren, my good frens...make it 100000000 then. (:
[x] Number of CDs that I own: haha. u seriously want me to count?
[x] Number of piercings: one on each ear (pain lah. wa lau)
[x] Number of tattoos: nah. it's ugly. to me at least. ha
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: haha. u say leh.?
[x] Number of scars on my body: zzz. haha. dun wanna waste my time counting lah.
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: a zillion. but, no point. it's over.

[[----------------FAVORITES------------------]]
[x] Shampoo: haha. organics? pantene? lalala?
[x] Fav Color(s): all colours. (: they are pretty! (:
[x] Day/Night: day. i like the sun. i'm afriad of the dark. haha.
[x] Summer/Winter: summer. i love the sun. (:
[x] Lace or Satin: satin. silky... (:
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: pikachu and gang. they are sooooooo adorable. haha.
[x] Fave Food: seafood! (: crab crab crab crab. prawn prawn prawn prawn.
[x] Fave Movies: err? i like my sassy girl nad tt thai movie, my girl. damn cute. (:
[x] Fave sport: badminton!! tennis! frisbe! haha. ball games. (:

[[------------------RIGHT NOW------------------]]
[x] Drinking: nothing. thirsty though.
[x] Thinking about: whether to go airport alone o not.
[x] Listening to: brother talking on the phone

[[---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------]]
[x] Cried: nope. haha. hardly cry.
[x] Worn jeans: haha. nah. hate wearin jeans. ma fan. haha
[x] Met someone new online: nope. haha.
[x] Done laundry: of course not. i hate household chores.
[x] Drove a car: if only i could.
[x] Talked on the phone: yah. cong called and said he dun wanna meet today.

[[-------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------ ]]
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: i got a lot ofg girl frens and boy frens. but i dun have a boyfriend. too busy for one anyway. (:
[x] Do you like anyone?: i like everyone. =_-
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: letitia! haha. i miss her. :(
[x] Who have you known the longest of your closest friends?: no one really. but amanda can take up the job. (:
[x] Are you close to any family member?: mum, dad, brudder maybe.
[x] Who do you hang around the most?: eer? i balance time equally. but with jen jen and amanda thesedays la. haha. they rawk. (: i love them
[x] When have you cried the most: when i sprained my ankle during the 1st 3 month's SPE. i can't stop crying. haha.
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: being loved.
[x] Worst Feeling?: knowing death. and suffering for physical pain. haha.

[[--------------------OTHERS--------------------]]
[x] ever fallen for a friend? yah. why not. haha. not now though.
[x] ever dated someone out of your school? erm. maybe. haah.
[x] whats your fav. music video? haha. dun have preference lah. i like watching mtvs. and i think that's the only channel i watch. haha.
[x] you are___? superwoman! (:
[x] you know anyone that is feeling you right now?? =_- dun ask me.

[[----------------RANDOMNESS-------------------]]
[x] i love to____with people? hang around
[x] what are the last 4 digits of yur phone #? 3571
[x] what was the last thing you ate? peanut pancake. peanut sucks. pancake rulez.
[x] the last person u talked on the phone with? cong. he pang seh-ed me. AGAIN.
[x] favorite drink? fruit juice. (: of whatever kind
[x] the last movie that you saw? haha. can't remember. ages ago. zzz.
[x] hugs or kisses? hugs. (: kisses are yucky. eekz
[x] what book are u readin? biological science edition 3 by Soper. from the tpjc library. haha.
[x] the loudest person you know: my irritatin pesky brother. hahaha.

ohya. maybe i should study.
ciao. (:

power puff girls! (: 

jie! it's time to pack your stuff. =_- 

contents of what is in a typical tpjc trash bin. 

muggin time! (: 

after effects of mugging biology. 

just smile for me and let the day begin.
you are the sunlight,
that lights my heart within.
i'm sure you're an angel in disguise.
come take my hand and together we'll rise.
lalalala.
i'm diggin in tis song currently.
and yesh, that breathing song too.

ahh.
mugging is actually fun.
not tt i'm really into it.
but it's more like understanding life.
the things around, all happen for a reason.

seriously, it's really time to appreciate what we have.
and not what we don't have.
like, having a complete heart.
to love and to keep alive. (:

i hope everything's going well.
i'm so going to change for some reasons. (;
and... somethings just don't need to be explain.

study hard/smart, people. (:
bet jay is running the 6km for me now.
jia you (:

and for once, i'm so glad to be alive.

haha.
god, i only ask that i can ton night till 5am.
i stilll want my sleep. :(

teaching louisa maths now.
haha. square roots.
thought it was easy.
haha. i think i learnt my matsh well. (:
and i even noe how to explain!
whee.
i'm happy. (:

i'm happy today.
very.

sometimes, people can be so artifical.
so pretentious.
even people you see everyday.
people you love.
and even people you know.
or rather, you thought you know.
and sometimes, you even lie to yourself.
rather sad, isn't it?
then again, this is life.
people..... are indeed, weird. (:

i felt sorry for louisa.
and maybe i little guilty too.

she went: u know what? i ask so many pple. they not put away or they'll say wait and never come back. yet they say if i got any problems, can just ask them.

reflect.
think.
are you one of them?

alright.
today is almost ending.
haha.
rather glad cause i've slacked a wayy too much today.
urghing but then again, nice. (:

anyway, i made my own cristiano ronaldo wallpaper today.
which i'm really proud of. haha. (:
think i m a genius. (:

and i think i'll go continue amanda's notes later.
haha.
best friend is right, i'll take forever to complete it due to the short span of concentration i have.
but again, whatever right?
i got the time. (:
intending to ton tonight.
wondered if i can make it o not.

shall go make a cup of nice coffee, bathe den continue. (:
and oh, i forgot to write about that day.
was so bored that i decided to dig out everything i have.
and i dug out the old letters i have.

some made me smile.
while some made me regret what i have done in the past.

it's a joy to know that not all is lost. (:
at least i still have one or two zhao's letters.
i wonder what happened to mine and hers (those which i angrily passed all of them back to.)
regretted packing n returning, weeping. and returned to her.
i read about the contents.
teenage crushes.
ways to catch the attention of a guy.

and our 9 pages long letters.
me. hui ru. zhao. and lotsa vanessa's letters.
haha. (:
how did i let it happen to us.
friends forever, we once said.
but then, it turned out opposite.
heh, funny, isn't it?

and cedric's letter.
haha. i was like!!!! oh yeah. we wrote to each other before. haha.

louisa's.
hers was really cute. (: explaining to me that she's upset with her family.
blah blah blah.. woes of being cedric's sister. haha.

amanda's.
haha. hers were all filled with arrows.
haha. if u get what i mean. hahaha. :P

cong's.
his reminded me of firefly and exams. haha. (:
i got the one, he wrote for me, during exams.
cause he finished his paper and was so bored. haha.
regretted returnin him some of the letters too.
sigh. retarded me.
if i'm not wrong, we are going to airport to mug together tml.

i thought about a lot of stuff today.
and i realised, where's my sista when i need him? =_-
i got so much to tell him, stupid hippo. ahh.
and he's busy moving house.
coming even nearer to me. ahh! :P
and so he can teach me maths (: yay.
guess wad sista? i still got the benny dun leave! letter in my computer.
so dam cute can. (:
he is the only guy who really treats me as a boy, i tell you.
haha. i think no girls want to run with him.
so everytime i see him, i've my shorts and tee on.
and he'll make me run and run and run.
so far we covered the whole pasir ris park/beach and 4km around e tracks of bedok stadium.
what's more right?
he forced me to do pull-ups.
PULL-UPS, u noe?
he wans to get me killed.
he thinks he's preparing me for NS. hahah.
and yesh sista, poking me is no use. :P
flabby BIG piece of purple thing!
and u haben teach me functions yet lah, boy. =_-
*hint: my burfday is nearing.*
hahaha

got so much to say.
so much inside.
things are stacking neating up in my head.
being neat is good.
but having so much burden sucks.
my brain is bursting.

i just wan to run away from reality for once.
really.

when will i learn to love?

you gave me life,
now show me how to live.

sigh.
okay.
everything is so messed up.
at least my world is cocked.
but then it's okay. (:
everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay. it's not the end. (:

darn hungry again.
but never mind.
i'm kinda on a constant hunger.
bugger.

didn't blog yesterday.
so i shall cover it now. haha.
(as if anyone is interested to know. but again, it's my choice whether i wan to type it down o not.)

yesterday was hell.
until my exams ended. (:
had serious gastric aches in the early morning.
(not when i had my breakfast right.)
and then i had tummyaches.
so i went toilet twice in a row.
wonderful, isn't it?

for some reason, i ended up in a rather sorry state in the seat of D20.
it was horribly cold. though i had my jeacket on.
my writing hand went numb. haha.
crap can.
and the tummyachin pangs kept coming.
my nose was jammed.
had to breathe through my mouth.
and the irritating cher didn't allow me to go toilet.
urghhhh. =(
i wanted to not do the paper actually.

then suddenly, it was all over.
and i rushed outa the hall.
and went for pw.

headed to the library.
pretty slacky. (:
but that's because it's a friday. (:
and as always, library hours are the best. (:
and wilmond and i were acting some dramatic love story.
we were like grabbing one another's hand,
and i was like, wilmond, dun leave me.
i'll give u my milo. haha.
and he'll say: sorry, but i fell in love with another girl.
me: nooooooo! who is it! tell me.
him: it's jiamin from 04s04.
me: why not me? am i not better than her?
him: no. i like her. she's damn bitchy. the bitchest in the world liao.
me: but i can try to be more bitchy than she is.

crap. =_-haha. but funny.

yesterday ended. (:

today have yet started.
so i shall blog again later.

ohya.
it's a must to include li yan's name here,
so this is for her:

liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan.liyan (:

sigh.
i'm really exhausted.
the energy level is decreasing at an increasing rate.
(haha. sounds like what mrs lim used to teach us for a maths.)

urgh.
my batt level is down.
but i shall blog before i go to sleep. =D

anyways, life is tough.
at least for today.
i only fell asleep at around at 4 plus.
hahaha. idiotic.
but the thing was, pa n bro didn't bothered to wake me up.
i think ma did.

so i woke up at like, 6.45am.
late.
can't bathe, and pa fetched me to school. (:
i'm happy cause i got breakfast and free ride from dad. (:
wasn't that tired at first.

well, at least, not until chem lecture.
my brain was totally turned off.
and i learnt nothing.
geez. =_- terrible.
my mind was so confused.
and is still confused.
but again, it doesn't matter much eh? (:
at least i hope so.

my stupid tummy is buggin me now.
it's rumbling and growling like crazy.
shall shut it up after this blog by sleeping.
my brain is soo dead.

didn't do much muggin in school today.
went singing and de-stressing with amanda and jen jen outside the library.
haha. and amanda and i did duets.
cool. the teacher have to walk pass and luff at us.
hahahaha. i think we suck.
or rather my voice suck.
sorry la. it's inborn. =_-
can't help it. =(

and today's rather nice.
at least i did my maths tutorials right up to where mrs sze stopped. :D
and mr lim let us off one period earlier so that we have more time to study for chi.
that's crap can.
i noe he wants to slack!
and we wun studee anyway. :P

then went library.
had prawn mee.
i just like prawn mee. (:
yummy.
studied a little.
slacked a lot with jerome around.
hahaa. he's terrible, i tell you.

they were like teaching me vulgar language. zzz
hahaha. so darn cute lah.
aaaaah. chilled pretty lot today.
and i'm burnt out.

tml's chi promos.
wish me luck then. :D

good night.

i think there's something bugging me.
someone tell me what it is.
please.
i felt so weird.

and best friend,
remember the promise u made.
the flight seats. (;
you rawk. :D

okays.
call me mad.
i can't believe i'm still online now.

i'm terribly hungry and tired.
and sick.
horrid. horrid.

kinda like waiting for my best friend to be back
while being auntie agony for daniel.
some love problem. haha.
poor him, always stuck in this vicious cycle.

i dun know.
but love.... is a weird thing, ain't it?
it can build you up and it can tear you down.
i dunoe.
i've seen it.
i've heard it.
but ........ you know. =_-

hahaha.
and we all agreed on one thing:

jiamin is a good girlfriend material.

hahahahahahhaaha. what cock.

just read yu teng's msn nick.
it goes like: teng ah teng, you don't need anyone to give you any chance,
you need to earn it yourself, so work hard.

oh well, just thought that it can be applied to me.
maybe all i need to do, is just to work hard.
hard. hard. hard. hard. hard.
but then again, urgh.
i can't.
how can i mug when i can't even break my 5 mind concentration span record?
hell.

anyway, wilmond is right.
it's all in the mind.
jiamin's pea brain.
wonderful, ain't it?
hahahaha. trash, i tell you.

urgh.
shan't crap write more.
today was urgh-ing in the early morning.
or at least i tried to be happy. haha.
i struggled to smile when i step outa the bus so that they wun see my black face.
haha.
everytime when i walked towards them, they will laugh at me.
yesterday, then i realise why.
cause i wasn't the last one to reach.
christie's face was like... long and black. hahah.
think i looked like that to them. =_-
noooo0o0o00000oooo!

anyway, was really sleepy in the morning.
had a bad morning, just because dad didn't make me my daily-needed oats.
was seriously that hungry.
so was pretty unhappy. hahaha.
i know it's stupid but then again. urgh.
don't bother arguing with me.

anyway, chem practical was the 1st lesson for the today.
and damn, it's a double period.
and the damnest thing is that, it's a tutorial period! urgh.
so we went to LT 5.
and he did skill A.
ah lek can be really nice and funny sometimes.
at least he tried hard to be funny.
but it's irritatin to know that he doesn't like me much.
me and my stupid mouth.
bleah.

then i realised, i wasn't the only one who was hungry.
hahaa. amanda was even hungry-ier than me.
her tummy was growling louder than mine.
LOUD. i can tell you. :P
hahaha. such a funny sight to see her blushing. =X

anyway, best friend had to ask me whether i had my dinner.
i'm feeling so friggin hungry now.
and i'm tired cause i think i can fly.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.

today was great.
that pey yuan dao-ed me.
how nice.
dun wanna friend him liao.
dun even want to see him. heh. =(
it's not that i want to know him in the very first place anyway.
hell.

other than that,
today's rather nice. (:
maths lecture was a bore.
seriously, i almost went ZzZ-ing.
but li yan entertained me by doing some easy calculation.
we calculated the total cost of my pencil box.
it costs like 50 bucks in total. hahaha.
and we calculated hers. 40 bucks estimation. (:

went for another break.
drank iced-coffeee. so tired can.
and mdm twu didn't come.
yay. i know i shouldn't be happy,
cause she being on leave, means that she is sick or have a problem.
which is personally bad for her.
but then..... i can't help it.
yeah, i'm cocked.
sorry.

and pw is such a drag.
young didn't help much.
it's so messed up now.
and i actually have to stay back for pw tomorrow.
bother bother.

anyway, my best friend really rocks.
he's super nice. yay.
he purposely looked for me to hand me his MD. (:
see? my best friend.
MINE.
hahaha. okay. enough.

studied pretty little today.
so regretful.
but again, what's the point?
stupid me.
urgh.

and yes, remind me to make benny happy tml morning.
shall sms him that feeling loved thingy.
i'm such a nice brudder, ain't i? (:

ah. i shall complete my bio tut by tomorrow.
shall.
and learn my chinese.
i dun think i wan to fail chinese for the v 1st time.

i love library muggin sessions.
that's the only thing i looked forward to every school day.
but again, that doesn't mean that i dun look forward to weekends.
i love saturdays and sundays. (:
yeah, i do.

and i love you too. (:
yeah you.
yes you.
and yeah, i missed everyone who missed me.
especially SAM SAM! (:

just when i thought my heart was dead,
you made me fall in love all over again.

oooh! (:
it's a happy happy happy day!
everything's going very well.
yay!

saw my b282 today.
alrighty!
and yeaps, jaren, you got the bloody name right!
what the hell. hahahahahaa. (:
shuai right! (:

anwyay, today is really really nice.
except for the friendship part.
dunoe what's the problem with amanda today.
she dunoe buay song who.
dunoe who owe her 5 cents or smth.
sia la. =_-
she upset then not my fault what.
why always make jennifer and me sad also.
that's why we never go and find her when she left.
guess we are sick of the missing game she always try on us,
which never fails to waste our time, money on trying to contacting her.
and the anxiety.

urgh.
i know i'm a pathetic good friend.
but i can't help it.
i have problems and troubles myself.
i don't really need more burden, selfishly speaking.
sigh.

i dunoe lah. =_-
but i'm a lousy friend.
sorry amanda.
bet she's upset when we never go after her.
cause i promised myself that i'll start work from today.
i shan't waste more time.
jennifer says she's disappointed with me for this.
BUT WHAT CAN I DO RIGHT.
it's not as if i owe anyone anything,
i don't expect and want people to go and console me when i'm down.
that's why i dun go around consoling.
and that's me. heh.

and and... today's a good day lah. (:
nothing much either.
got my good friend, best friend and forever friend. haha.
damn crap lah.
anyway, i'm damn tired now.
no time to blog.

and i'm sick.
urgh.
i got blocked nose. (horrid right)
and very dry eyes which needs eyedrops every now and then.
and and and..... sore throaT!
urgh.
effects of staying back in school everyday till 9,
and drinking hot milo and biscuits everyday in school.
sigh.

shall go bathe.
yay. :D
*prays that sam's grandma will be alright and that jerome will find his file back.*

aaah.
god-damn-tired.

shall talk about the bad things 1st.
okay, benny had a bad morning.
(but it's okay, i cheered him up quite a bit, didn't i? :D)
and and the worst thing of all is that jerome can't find his file.
still. urgh.
i tried helping him look again in the lost and found counter in the office.
it didn't help. =_-
stupid frigging thief. file and notes you also want. =_-
and horrid thing was bio SPA today.
okay. seriously, it wasn't THAT bad.
but then i missed out on a lot of stuff.

i swore that my hands were shaking so damn terribly when the teacher stared at me,
while i was cutting that thing.
urgh. =_- irritating. really.
and i didn't do the observation and calculations till it was the last 10 mins.
i didn't realised that the last page had questions.
urghified can.

went for maths lecture then,
was stucked outside audi for 1 min or so,
just because the people inside refused to help to open the door.
and we sat just behind nua nua.
didn't really bothered about him then.
busy with the phone. :P
crapped all day during lectures. i like :D

ohya, we sia suey-ed ourslves during bio lecture today.
casuse we were like asking for an early break cause we have SPA the next lesson.
haha. and amanda told the cher that we need time to prepare in the toilet.
the cher went: not as if u need to put on make-up for the teacher to inspect what!
haha. (:
that silly girl.

after school, we went to the library.
the freak library's air con was down.
urgh.
jaren was there. sleeping like a PIG.
but then again, he's NOT a pig just because he's my good friend. (:
amanda went to cope a fan from the librarian. haha.
madness.

and we went to canteen to eat.
helped bing yao bought stuff.
he rich kia loh.
wa lau. LV wallet. sia lah. =_-

went back to library.
crapped talked.
bitch-talked about tt spasticated mron. URGH.
she really turns me off.
hell.

stupid jaren. on the fan.
and i was soo cold. =_-
sad to say, i was beside him. brrrr..
slacked quite a bit today. bad bad bad.
jerome came along.

we went to eat biscuits.
haha. were having fun. (:
my best friend, yau wee was so happy! hahahaha. (:
jenjen was pissed though.
with her council work.
tsk tsk.

jerome suddenly walked out for food too.
dunoe him la.
suddenly, everyone is like, so weird to me.
helped him make his milo. (:
went back to do my stuff.

then jerome lost his concentration just because of his gay 'fren'.
and he cam over to kpkb.
the guys were disgusting.
talking about those-you-know-what stuff.
tried my best to ignore, by revising functions and listening to 'breathing' song. (:

still can't do functions.
benny. do our job lah. =_-

then the bus 9 gang went home again.
whee.
talked to my best friend. :D
crapped talked lah.
and yesh, i whacked him really hard on his back today.
after i asked him if i can hit him,
he said yes, so i really did. (:
and he was like, grabbing his back and moaning.
while i grumbled on my red palm. hahaha. (:
nice best friend!

went home.
1st time regretting that my house is too near tpjc.
i wanan gossip also!
but as soon as i reached home,
mama n papa brought me for dinner at aljunied
yay. prawn mee! :D

went home and tada! blogged.
oh yea, mui hia and denise!
take care darliings!
i wanna see u two in school tml.
both healthy and happy! (:

jiamin says: good nite babies!
(:

thou shall mug and mug and mug and mug. (:

*holds up my favourite cup*

my head is spinning.
my brain is lacking oxygen.
my heart can't take it anymore.
my soul is bare.

and i'm feeling, once again, so much.
i'm really apologetic for being such a terrible friend.

wait. don't tell me that i'm not a bad friend.
i know i am. and i'm guilty of it.

i'm sorry for everything. and anything.
i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me.
i'm sorry for pang sehing you every now and then.
i'm sorry for not caring for you when u are feeling terribl inside.
i'm sorry for not being sensitive to your feelings.
i'm sorry for being so self-centred.
i''m sorry for my ego.
i'm sorry that i can't control my emotions.
i'm sorry that i'm just a shitface.
i'm sorry that i suck very much as a friend.

but then, do note that i love you all very much.
it's just that, i don't really know how to show it.
i don't.
know.

urgh.
and i don't know why i'm typing this.
it's just a destressin session here.
i feel like crying. and whining like a sick dog.
but my tears just wun flow.
aint much of my fault.

life.
has its ups and down.
totally agree.
i love my life and i wun exchange it for anything.
but then....... there's so many things to be unsatisifed with.
guess i'm part of club 99. *shakes head*
i dun wan to. but i can't help it.

i'm so screwed and messed up inside.
and yet no1 bloody knows.
i guess it's just another jiamin problem.
so i supposed, no1 will care.
and then again, i still got jen jen and amanda thesedays.
i'm truly loved. (:

i wonder why people only realise the value of their stuff when they are on the verge of losing it.
i guess it's just human nature to do so.
but the thing is, when things are lost, they are never coming back.
i must say that i never been through all those dramatic stuff yet.
and i'm not prepared to do so.
but these kinda things is inevitable.
hell.

on love.
deprived of love?
i don't think so.
everyone is loved and is loving another person.
so why is everyone complaining of their lack of love.
i dunoe about that.

on faith.
i think...
i think need topray hard for everyone thesedays.
and for myself.
i'm losing faith in everything.
sucker.

on mind.
rest well.
sleep well.
dun think so much.
exercise.
play tennis.
what a nice way to escape from real life.

on jiamin's brain.
cells are frying.
i desperately need slp.
that explains this crap blog entry.
whatever.

shan't even say good night since i feel terrible.
heh!

*slaps myself*
how can i not write about donkey! (:
he is a bad bad bad bad one.
always suan me.
but it's okay. (:
we are good frens, aren't we? (:

and oh, shall write up on today.
kana tua-ed by jerome for like 2 whole hours before he actually appeared.
he woke up late. expected.
luckily, i didn't wait him for call to wake me up too. (:

went to school and found that the side gate wasn't open.
urgh. so i walked all the way to the main gate to enter.
and then i went to shortest route i can think of to get to the office.
damn it. it's locked.
everything is locked.
except tt far far stairs.
never mind that, so i walked on.

and guess what?
the office is locked too!
urgh. so much for coming to sch to find his file.
irritating.

went to library to mug.
realised that there's not too much peepz there.
kheng hong came.
he didn't sit with me cause i said my fren is coming later.
oh wells, studied quite happily.
jia yin and nicole (really surprising) popped out.
and they sat with me.
ahhuh.
did my chem tutorial on aldehyes and ketones, while grooving to the music.
and waiting for tt the other cockster.

he turned up at 12 when he said he will reach at 10.
ah. splendid.
and he wasn't allowed in the library cause he was wearing his bermudas and sandals.
so i went off, thinking tt he wans to mug in some other areas in school.
so i told the gurls that if they want to eat, sms me. i'll go with them.

but he wanted air conditioned place.
so i suggested going to bedok library since i wanted to go visit amanda. (:
so we went there. (:
went to check out the library.
heng sia. got seats.
and guess what?
i saw jia ying!
goodness me.
why everytime i go outside study, will see her one.
hahaha.
the horrid her said: wa! no more benny liao ah. now jerome. (or smth lidat.)
haha. dots sia.

we placed our bags there and jia ying helped us to look after.
and we went for lunch! haha.
had fried carrot cake and hokkien prawn mee!
his treat! (: yum yum

continue to do my chem tut.
with jerome whining about functions.
i didn't help him cause i suck at maths. :P
and we were like messing around in the library lah.
aya, he was like lufffin at every single thingy there.

and i realised he only got limited words to say.
1. cock la you!
2. halogenoalkane (imitating the chem lecturer)
3. trigonal pyrimidal (imitatin ah lek)
4. are you normal? (imitating ah lek)

hahaha. canot stand him lah.
silly kid.

then when the library was to close,
the librarian came over and told us that we r not spposed to study in here.
1 seconds after she left, jerome asked me: u noe what she toking about o not?
i said very loudly and proudly, that i don't. haha. (:

we went the mac there to continue to mug.
and he luffed at me for my stupidity.
my chem lousy what. =_-
and jia ying, lover and ying ying went off.
and we moved seats, cuz the mac aunite came over and told us that we r using too large a space to study.
=_-
so we shared one table. =_-

then we saw yau wee!
hahaha. he actually went to see amanda too. (:
cool.
we packed up at 7
then visited amanda to bid goodbye.
haha.
jerome would like a charmander design on his birthday cake next year. (:

walked back. on the way, he bought me ice creams!
those self-made ones which i really like! whee
but the horrible thing is they added a lot of chopped nuts in it.
i dun like nuts.
so all the way back, i was spitting nuts on the floor.
bedok interchange sure got a lot one. (:

and jay said he saw us in the interchange.
he siamed. =_-
i dun understand.
since he noes both of us, he shud come and say hi wad.
hahaha (:

and we took 9.
we listend to the lifehouse's breathing song.
i love it so much that jerome helped me put it on replay mode. (:
and he listened till he fell aslp. haha.
what idiot.
i accompanied him all theway back to tpjc lo. =_-
urgh. and waited with him for the bus.
saw shiya!
i missed that gurl! (: she was shocked to see me too.
and she didn't recognise me at 1st. =(

and when his bus came, i walked across the road via the overhead bridge
and went home.
then ate dinner.
got pig's stomach soup.
damn yummy can! (:

went to eastpoint with brother then.
bought his socks and birthday prezzies i need to buy for this month.
(:

ahhuh.
and i'm so stinky now.
i think i need a bath.
(:
nites people.

and i pray that jen jen will be fine
and so will i.
kana some stupid sore throat.
and cold (from stupid jerome) =_-

i'm darn tired.
i can just drop dead sleeping now.
but i shall wait for jerome's sms.
kingsley is asking me whether i'm going back to sch to mug tml.
and my decision lies in jerome lah.

that guy made me waste so much of my time.
haha. tsk tsk jerome!
he lost his blardy file.
so he made us hunt high and low for it.
throughout the search, he was like whining, whining and whining.
haha. gayish you know?
went for waffles then.
i took his pearls from his mango ice-blend.
me like pearls! chewy and yummy.
ahhuh. (:

again, we fooled around like mad.
he kept singing and singing.
haha. =_-

anyway, benny is the nice answer for everything that jia ying asks thesedays.
haha. (:
for example. jia ying asked: eh. why u take milo packet without cup one.
i told her why. but she didn't understand.
lazy to repeat, i said: aya. i giving it to benny lah okay?
hahaha. see?
and that ends everything (:
good sista! (:

and and... we, the bus 9 gang stayed in library till 9pm again. (except jen jen)
hahaha.
okay. i shall reintro the gang members:
1. me!
2. amanda!
3. jen jen!
4. kingsley!
5. yau wee (forgot how to spell his name lah)
6. the school attendant!

and we need 2 more members to fill up the 9 people gang. hahaha.
yau wee can actually crap with us. hahaha. so funny. (:
and he loves cristiano ronaldo too.
thus he's my forever friend. yay! (:

anyway, i tasted the oil they painted on the fence in school today.
it looks like strawberry jam but tastes like shit.

aahh. did little but better than nothing.
finshed everything on maclaurin's!
pretty impressed with myself. ahhuh. (:

and i think i shall go off to bed.
darn tired.
shall only wake when jerome gives me my morning call.
then i shall head to school, find his file for him and muf with him, yau weee and kingsley.

q.e.d (quite easy done.)

oh. vanessa asked me if i like nua nua.
hahaha. and now, he is addressed as mr tofu. yay.
but nua nua sounds a lot more cuter. (:
anyway, nua nua is cute but bee-8-2-8 rocks like heaven (:

tried to find him today by chionging to the j2s after the morning assembly.
he can't be seen! urgh.
saw bing yao instead.
hahaha. the stupid him came and crapped with me. haha. so cute can.
and i succeeded and grabbing his fone and read his love's sms.
awwwwww. :P then he so pai seh.
hahahaha. (:

played tennis for SPE anyway!
i'm so glad that it's friday everytime. (except for next week)
i love tennis.
and mrs koh says i'm very good for a beginner at tennis.
yay. (:
i learnt my forehand and backhand well.
but when i played the match, me and mr chew VS mrs koh and amanda.
i sucked. =_-
i looked like i'm playing badminton. =_-

and my balls kepy flying
shall practise it after the promos. (:
and win alan! hahahaaha.
maybe one day i can be his coach ah! :P

sigh.
i tiin i need to sleep.
headache. yet again. =(

ahh.
yakult ish yummy. (:

think there's really something called retribution on this earth.
and i think she deserves the physical pain,
after all that emotion turmoils thingy she caused.
but i shall not laughed at her stupidity.
cause i dun wanna sin because of her.
so i shall be nice and hope that she grows out of the silly phrase. (:
and really, i think the pain she went through was pretty tormenting anyway.

today is a very very very nice day.
except that i felt so ever sleepy during school hours.
haha.
but after that, i'm a different me. whee.
did pw. went uncle louis for lunch.
ate prawn mee and waffle! (:

headed back to library.
messed around with jerome while jen jen was talking to her sec sch fren.
jerome and i create quite a havoc down there.
we were poking and drawing one another.
he sang really horribly while we were sharing the same music source.
and we did arm wrestling! hahaha.
i won him one loh. but he won the other matches.
but i still think that he cheated! bahh! i can't lose, can i? (:
he was like telling me that my face cannot make it,
and then when he need help, he'll just tuck my tee and say, u so chio. help me can.
hahahaah. bth. =_-
den drank milo and took biscuits.

we helped mrs chan, mrs koh and the other male cher to make milo too!
hahaha. they happy can.
we gave the sch attendant milo too.
she was so happy, u noe?
haha. she say if we were her daughters, den good liao.
and she told us that she can't accompany us to take bus 9
cause she have to go to the CC. (:

see? though we r not very popular among the student population,
we are, among the staff. :P

did little. but had a very nice day.
and we made a new friend! yao wee or smth.
haha. i remember him as chee guan's and cedric's fren.
haha. he's cute
and i address him as my good fren, best fren, forever fren. (:
hahaha. i think we r mad.

nice kingsley waited for me till 9 anyway. (:
he oso my good fren, best fren, forever fren in simei. (:

anyway, i'm so dead beat.
shall write in tomorrow. (;
it's a friday! tennis day! whee!
i love tennis.

aaaah.
i love today (except for the chem SPA part.

anyway, i had a dream last night.
very very very very super super duper weird.
but nice. (:
didn't tell anyone about it.
and i won't further elaborate it.
i felt so weird after it.
tell me that it's not happening to me.

anyway, talked to vanessa after a serioud tummyache in the morning.
haha. oh my, she's so cute thesedays! hahaah. (:
screwed my practical. felt itchy all over.
stupid HCL. it was like dripping all over the place.
my seat. my desk.
and it makes me itch.
URGH! today's prac is simple yet i screwed it.
*thou-shan't-swear*

ate oats which jen jen brought to school.
jen went home liao. and we went for the S cube seminar.
kinda funny and nice.
that mark smith guy really look like steven gerald (aka.gorgeous from far.)
and he has a cute accent. plus plus, he's filthy rich.
ooo lala. (:

went OCS with melissa tay replacing mdm twu.
damn nice la. i'm so impressed.
and even our tour guide (G Y BOO was sewn on his uniform), aged 22. (:
anyway, his name is boo ghim yew.
cool right. surname is BOO! hahahaa. (:
anyway his chinese name is more decent: wu jing yao.
and he is shuai! heheheheheheeh. (:
but he got a bad right index finger.
(as in, it's like chopped off by 4cm kinda. didn't really see properly.)
but then it doesn't matter.
he still rocks. (:
we call him, xiao hao mao! cuz he has a red beret! (:

and we got another tour guide.
we called him, xiao qing mao!
cause he has a green beret, duh!
he's sylvester! haha. aged 21. (:
nice guy too. (:

anyway, i don't remember much about the trip.
except that ms tay was really cute and asked me to stop touching guys and proceed on with the journey.
i wasn't touching guys!
i was like, tapping alan's hand to give him my sweet wrapper. (:
anyway, take care la tennis partner. u got me, remember? (:
and that the trip is filled with NS men!

oh god, i like NS men!
like who doesn't?
sooooo shuai!
GOD!
*i shall not act like a despo.*

anyway, the bus trip alone, took up 2 hours to and fro.
it's in upper jurong and and... hahaha. there's traffic jam.
so we took the longer route, by passing woodlands.
and i slpt on the bus and missed the American School!
URGH! spastic!

anyway, reached school, headed to the library.
realised that there's only KH, amanda and me, muggin in there
cause the air con is down. ahha. i dun mind.
i like it like that. (:

went down. bathe. blog.

anyway, jian yong asked me to blog about him
so as a nice sisterly figure to him, i shall.
anyway, must thank him for the cd he burned for me.
jian yong! u rawks! (: whee.

and i was thinking,
if i can't fulfil my ambition,
i'll enroll in the army. hahaha. :P
dad says it's okay when i want to.
see?

i got a nice daddy!
JEALOUS? =P

oh.
saw hock online.
really nice to talk to him again. (:
very very very glad.
yay. he's treating me to the movies after promos! (:
(he owed me that since... last year.)
yay. finally.
but the ugly me now, mei you lian see him. =(

and i'm hungry.
and dizzy.
need sleep but can't.
chemistry spa tml. must mug before sleep.
horrible. =_-

anyway. wasted the whole day again.
and know wad?
i passed bio for the 1st time! wheee.
13/25. hahahahahahhaahhahaha. for mitosis n meiosis.
must thank amanda, jen jen and gabby. (:

anyway, i saw my Bee-8-2-8 today!
WAH! i was like YAY! :D so long nv see him liao.
but when we walk past him, jen jen nv see.
so we walked back.
and we did anyway.
so talked to bing yao. haha. :)
and stared at bee-8-2-8!!! hahah.
jen jen and amanda oso agreed that he's super super shuai!
jen jen say woah! she want nose bleed le!

went library then.
air con down.
stayed on anyway.
was blushing like mad. hahahahhahahaha. :P

i love my bee-8-2-8!
yummy! (:
he rawks!

i want to cry. :(

it doesn't matter what they say,
in the jealous game people play.

okays.
i think i need to turn in before 12.
or else, i'll end up like today.
sleepy during all lessons.
coffee won't help much.

oh. i still got civics lessons to slack tomorrow.
so i suppose it'll be alright (:

my brain is so dead.
my body too.
limp.

anyway, my ears got infected.
it's all red, itchy and pain.
urgh. it's only ear-sticks, ear-sticks and ear-stickes now.
i got orange ones! (:
and all my 'gim gim' (aka. cristinao's look-alike) ear-rings are gone.
*pouts*

got so much to blog in here.
but somehow, i can't type it all down.
and i just got pissed by jie like 30 mins ago.
urgh. siblings can make you go crazy, you know?

stupid pimples are buggin me again.
irritating. =_-

still, i felt so confused and URGHED.
somehow, i felt that i shouldn't be such a devoted free-thinker.
will think about this after promos.
there's so many things i wan to go after promos. (:
i just can't wait.

i wanna go k-box! haha.
i wanna sun tan. i wanna sleep all day.
i wanna just crap talk all day instead of doing differentiation.
on top of all.
i want you. (:

i believe, i believe in love.
i believe not.

there are a zillion reasons out there,
which made me believe that love hardly exist.
oh wells,
it doesn't matter.

ironically, i love my jennifer and amanda.
they're everything and anything to me. (:
it's only two days.
and i'm missin them badly already.
oh my, i think i can be bisexual or something :P
whatever right.

i think jennifer is addicted to posting,
just like i'm addicted to the snake game. ;)

and she was upset when i didn't replied her question.
her question was what degree is our friendship.
and i shall answer now, dearie, i dun know if u'll get to read this,
but we're at the 360 degrees mark. haha (instead of amanda's 90 degree)
because our frenship will just go round round round and round,
ever lasting. (: never ending. flexible.
it's an unbreakable chain. (:
(u're stuck with me forever, you poor baby)

tml's school.
doom's day.
the day i dreaded the most.

and what else?
i haben bathed for today.
hahaha. so i shall bathe after this.
and i'm really bored.

hmmm... er....arr....ahh...
dunoe what to put in here.
i guess i shall just to bathe.
yay! (:

blogging shall cease tomorrow. (:
-the tony awards on air on AXN now-

three words: bored. bored. bored.

extremely bored.
nothing much to do.
can't get myself to work.
shitty face.
someone, tell me what's the friggin problem of mine.

oh right, i must kick the habit of playing snake too.
aaaahhh...............
i dun know what to write in here.

and they say good things come in package.
how right, aunt bought me those peanut pancakes which i totally dig in this morning.
(anyway, i just like the pancakes, no the peanut fillings.)
she bought me a whole BOX of it. and it's still unfinished.
know what?
then came mama, she bought 3 of those pancakes too!
(just that it's of a different brand/shop)

oh. i can still remember what they always say last year, in front of me.
i know what to buy for jiamin's birthday leh!
let's buy peanuts, caschew nuts, almond nuts, .. nuts, ____ nuts, *(^!&*&! nuts, nuts, nuts, nuts....
get it?

AND, i simply hate eating nuts.
whatever nuts.
it just sucks.
i can't really know why people can enjoy them so much.
and yesh, that's why i dun get that excited when i see the ka-cham-pu-teh man.
so, you must be NUTS when u buy me any.

whcih reminds me that i got a really new testi from mr lim.

talking about mr lim, never fails to remind me of jonathan.
haha. him and donkey. (:
cute gayish pair.
anyway, it's weird.
i used to like hate jonathan a lot.
everyday, i'll just pray that i wun get his sms since the day i knew his existence.
haha.
let me explain this with a very simple equation:
jonathan sms = work.
so i'll avoid him like crazzzy. (:
and now, i can imagine him mugging his ass off chemistry.
ohya, his handwriting is nice.
haha.
somehow, that i'm a donkey song is playing in my mind.
hahaha.
good luck to them both for the prelims.

and donkey, what soup your mama cooked today? (:
WHERE IS MY LOLLIPOP?
i want the chupa chups strawberry flavour one! (:>

aaah. 6pm.
shall go back to chemistry.
i still dun understand why people refuse to reply my messages. =(
(which reminds me of the yao siew yesterday. super upsetting. =_-)

anyway, shall end off here, with my testi, which goes like:

A friendly and approachable young lady, Jiamin is respectful of her tutors and polite to her peers.
As a member of the Organising Committee for National Day Ceremony 2004, she was dependable, disciplined and organised. Despite her subordinate position in the Organising Committee, she showed herself to be a leader in her own right. Articulate and confident, she was not afraid to provide constructive feedback to ensure things went according to plan. Committed and enthusiastic towards her undertakings, she was the livewire of the group and was able energise the team even in the dullest moments.
Responsible and reliable, Jiamin is a good leader and team worker. With her drive and dedication, she has what it takes to succeed in life.

ze qi said that the only part which is true, was the "able energise the team even in the dullest moments". he said that i'm NOISY.
(whatever.)

5:20:00 PM

yesterday was vsnp's annual rain o shine competition.
i don't know much what happened yesterday.
but i heard from jay that it's lousier than last year.

aaah.
rain o shine. brings back zillions of memories....
from the time when louisa and i went to vs for the briefing,
to the time when me and the sec 1s think about what to perform.
from the storing of materials to the making full use of them.
from the knowing of jay for a whole year online to seeing him there.

and yeah, i got to know two of my friends at last year's rain o shine debrief.
one was howard (who is in the same college as me now)
and the other was cedric, louisa's brother (who is currently in canada.)
the second last time i saw hock was during rain o shine. (:
i still got the photo in which howard and him are struggling with the yellow marker.
and yes, their colourful faces.

all i can remember is that we didn't win.
and got suaned. =_-
and the two vs kids who were supposedly our ushers and darius, loathed me. haha.
for their faces are coloured with yellow and silver.
ah, wonders of the permenant markers. (:

anyway. i shall make myself do the tutorials later. (:
i'm so tired now.
aunt have to wake me up. zzz.
but at least i got more new vcds to watch. (: ahhuh.
just watch le divorce by kate hudson.
the scenery and people are beautiful.
the storyline..? nope. (:

anyway, i was really indeed happy last night. (:
serious.
but i shall not elaborate. ^__________________^

i think i should seriously start mugging like hell.
i dun think i wanna cram everything in my pea brain last minute.
but it can't be helped.

haha.
my ma says i everyday stare in front of a computer,
later i kana stroke.
haha. i love my mama. (:

what else?
still, i'm feeling so much.
writing so little.
ah wells, no one really cares anyway.
i shall be gone.

to love, or not to love.
now, that's a stupid question

We are what we're supposed to be
Illusions of your fantasy
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do

We are the color symphony
We do the things you wanna see
Frame by frame, to the extreme

Our friends are so unreasonable
They do the unpredictable

All dots lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do

It's all an orchestra of strings
Doin' unbelievable things

Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun

We are the Cartoon Heroes
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind
And walked out on a piece of paper

Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party

Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party

We learned to run at speed of light
And to fall down from any height

It's true, but just remember that
What we do is what you just can't do

And all the worlds of craziness
A bunch of stars that's chasing us

Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun

We are the Cartoon Heroes
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind
And walked out on a piece of paper

you think we're so mysterious
Don't take us all too serious
Be original, and remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
what we do is what you just can't do
what we do is just what you just can't do

still more to come
And everyone will be
Welcomed at theToon - ToonTown - TownParty (:

okay.
i'm totally bored.
*sigh*

this is the reason why i can't study at home.
the temptations of an unused computer.
at home, it's just me and the computer.
the computer and me.

i think i need to get a life.

okays. nice jie helped me deleted my last post.
urgh. :(

watching the tvee now.
boarding house northshore.
david fuller is gorgeous.
woots!
how i wished i know how to surf.
i wanna surf in the nice clear blue water.
rather cool. (:

woo!
now i know that i want to do next time. haha. (:

anyway, i'm been lazing around the whole hols.
yeah, went school to supposedly mug.
but then, ended up fooling around.
nevertheless, it's better staring at the computer all week, eh?

i better get my butt working later.
later all that stationery shopping, banking and stuff. (:

anyways, i'm still worried about the you-know-who.
urgh. it's just a moment of folly thingy.
well well, can't be helped sometimes. (:

i'm still immersing myself in the athens' games pictures.
it's beautiful. serious. (:
sometimes, i really blame my parents for not letting me take place in any sports courses when i'm young.
hahaha.
i think i do have the potential.
ah wells. haha.
maybe i think too much.

and jaren's entry on how tpjc rocks, sucks. (as a matter of fact)
it's like so totally urgh-ing.
and i said i admit that i'm lousy. that's why i'm there.
but then, i won't die there.
maybe like manjusri, i'll learn to love it when i'm out of there.
sure, there will be lotsa nice memories.
best friends made. hell lot of laughters and fun. endless running. bruises from tennis.
people like jen jen, benny, lover, lover's lovers, li yan, etc etc.
but then, it's a bloody fact that tpjc people don't get to go very far.
why don't some people just accept it.
man, i can still remember how i felt when i stepped in tpjc for the very 1st time.
and how i felt when i know i'm stucked there for the 1st 3 mths, and the next two yrs.

anyway, it's better to go offline and shit mug instead of blogging here away.
so i will.

adrian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


why do you have to do this to me??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?

noooooooooooooooooooooooooo.................
tell me it's not real.
tell me it's a dream.

i dun wanna go school on monday. =(
so ma lu! =(

adrian! your fault! wa lau.

WHY?

guess nua nua's adventure is GONE for good.
(to jen jen and the rest: it's getting exciting.urgh.)

aah. weird.
friday night and no1's online.
(okay. maybe everyone's partying out there.)

seriously, i still can't face the fact that everyone's mugging so bloody hard out there.
and i'm here, happily blogging away while 'burning' the disc for amanda.
oh wells, this is me.
the procrastinator (urgh. so horrible)

well, well, i'm so tired now.
and hungry, very hungry.
i can even name what i ate today.
i stuffed in, nasi lemak(which amanda bought for me in bedok) for breakfast,
had a cup of hot milo (read: heavenly) and yupi chewables and 1 or 2 sweets for lunch
and fish soup (without rice) for dinner.
like, how can one be not hungry.
i wanted pig organ soup. but then there's none.
*sigh* bad luck i guess.

*alrighty! amanda's disc one is done. now disc two.* (:

urgh. okay. my computer wun burn the disc for me.
fine.. i'm irritated.
(but i wun let it affect me. heh. stupid computer!)
i shall try it the next time. hurmpf.
irritating.
i just delete the whole bloody program.
HEH!

hahaha. (save the madness)
went school again.
ahhuh, crapped around. ended at 4.30.
went home, tried downloading everything.
and did. wanted to burn.
HA! SEE? STUPID COCKED UP COMPUTER!

anyway, today isn't that good.
rather unproductive.
spent the whole day gaming snake on the nokia phone of mine.
broke several records. haha. (amanda! you just suck at the game lah. admit it! =P)

ooh. something funny here.
haha. was walking outta tpjc.
then i decided to walk past the sea sports room to kaypo.
hahaha.
bing yao aka. tian cai, ran after me and demand that i eat one of his mentos strawberry sweet.
he was like, tryin to chop my hand off when i stretched my hand for the sweet.
haha. alan then came out and told me there's a racial conflict out there just now.
rather cool eh?
haha. they got parang, sabers, everything and anything. haha
cute. (:

anyway, been online for like 5 hours.
holy shit.
i just want to say that i'm rather proud of my darling amanda. (:
read her blog. (:
i shall not elaborate further.

i felt like a sinner suddenly.
shall continue my exercise regime. and hit the books.

what you feel is what you are. and what you are is beautiful.

no no no no no.

NOT me.
i don't want.
*shakes head*

NO.

yes, amanda.
i want to be a rock.
strong on the outside and the inside. (:

(see?i'm really bored. =_-)

ohya, i just remembered.
i fell asleep after reading this sms from hippo which goes:

you are my best friend. :) (aww...)

okays.
i'm so URGH with dad.
i wonder what is his problem thesedays.
so fucking irritating lah.
okays, maybe i shouldn't say fuck.
but then...... why can't he just get off my back once in a while.
urgh.

haha.
and ma made me laughed.
she kept repeating the words dad just said. over and over again.
apparently. he was like saying that me,ma and jie are the same.
we like to leave our stuff one side and then go do another thing without clearing up the 1st one.
NI MEN DOU YI YANG.
hahaha. okay, i know that it's not funny.
but then again......... urgh... =_-
get it?

anyway, time is like, really speeding.
ah, bad sign.
good time to die.
(ah. what am i talking about)

i'm like so shagged now.
supposed to meet the guys at 9.45.
i actually woke up at 7.30, 8 and 8.30,
but the muscle aches from yesterday, left me lying on the bed instead of waking up for my oat breakfast.
(i demand my massage, best friend! hahha)
so i finally dragged myself out bed at 9.30.
sms-ed them and took my time to refresh myself.

ate wanton mee which ah ma bought in bedok for me. (:
did differentiation. (and am still doing it.)
wasn't much of my fault that i failed to complete even one chapter of maths.

i went mentoring with my beloved mentees.
(they didn't write to me. :( which left me rather depressed. boo hoo.)
we chatted insteading of mugging.
and we didn't do maths! haha.
talked about what i didn't want to talk about.
i was freaking, all filled with goosebumps. urgh.
taught siti literature (i dun even know what i'm teachin anyway.)
i haben touched or even smell literature and rotational symmetry for the past 2 years n 200+ days.
they are just not my forte.
forgive me. (:

went back for maths at 4.10. haha.
didn't do much cause the library is closing.
it's super irritating to know that the library hours are so limited during the hols.
but then again, the teachers are like us.
(though some are bald, some nasty, many are seriously irritating.)
they need rest too. (:
(see? jiamin is such a pleasant and understanding girl. haha.)

anyway, i'm amazed by jaren's Zen Touch.
pretty cool.
with that function where no buttons are needed,
you just have to slide your finger up and down to scroll.
woah. beautiful. (:

from his blog:
Today! That kuku JiaMin say she want see how our council shirt looks like, purposely wore it, then never see her at all! Dude!

i must say that jaren has a terrible memory.
i NEVER ( note that it's Never with a capital N.) once said that i want to see how the council tee looks like.
it's amanda who said that.
hahahaha.
now now,
look who's the kuku one?
hahaha. (:

aaah. wasted the whole day.
bother bother.
shall bang hard on maths after dinner.
i don't feel like running.
hell no. =_-
shall just continue on my circuit 100 exercise. :P

aaaah. another problem.
asshole went: hey tml free to visit mrs lim?
den u ask ct wen he free lor den we arrange go visit her k?
i mean, WHO SAYS THAT I WANT TO GO WITH YOU???!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
urgh. he drives me mad. real mad.
freaking ass. i mean, he's not a bad guy.
but why must he go around and tell people that i'm his girlfriend?!?!
(haha. at least i'm wanted. hahahahahahahhahahahaha. madness.)
and the thing is, he spreads it in SP lah.
tuition ground is fine.
Singapore Poly?
come on la.
get a life. =_-
urgh.
people nowadays, are killing me.

and chang yi actually says that he wants to give me tt starbucks coupon.
what a liar. =(
bad chang yi! bad bad bad! bad chang yi!

aaah. for some reason, i'm feeling so much.
i really, seriously, love amanda and jen jen to bits.
though they drove me crazy everytime. haha.
i'm so loved. (:

who need the world when i got you both? (:

aah.
my legs are heavy.
i'm feeling sooooooo sleepy.
but i shall not sleep.
i won't. no no no no no no no.
no, i hope.

okay. just came home from dinner.
had pig organ soup, which i loveeeee sooooo much. (:
it never fails to increase my appetite. (:
woohoo. had to substitute my thick n chilled milo with yakult.
urgh. yakult is nice. but i'm really diggin on milo thesedays.
blame it on tpjc library.
but milo, i heard is fattening.
and i got 30++ packets in the locker to finish.
good or bad? hmm..

anyways, went for maths tutorial today.
haha. slacked all the way.
dunoe what she's harping on anyway.
then, went for bio lecture.
saw nua nua (sigh.), listened.
but the fellow behind me, was super irritating.
yakking non-stop behind. pooh!
felt like turning behind and slap him in the face to shut him up or smth.
haha.
but then, i'm a nice girl, so i didn't. (:

ahh. mdm nora ended the lecture late, so i reached home late.
went home, got my stuff, rushed to popular to get amanda for her pens.
haha. then, was late lah. haha. the train came at the right time anyway. (:
thank God. (:

went around to find that stupid hippo.
and i finally found the new route to the viewing mall! yay! (:
we went to T1's burger king la.
ate and tried to revise maths.
okay, my maths suck.
i can't help it. urgghh.
ended up soing so little.

but the good thing is, i got to know a new friend.
MAE! hahaha. she actually v poor thing.
1st day know me, then have to spend money chipping in to buy a donation tic.
and i missed her crush la. doh! =_-
someone slap me! i was busy figuring out my SUMMATION.
(which i can proud declare that it's the only thing i can beat hippo to)

anyway, saw jia ying. so surprising! haha.
she damn wu liao la. seriously. =P
and yah yah yah, she's still trying to tease me. =_-''
but i don't get it lah. :S
jiaying went over to swim with lover, cassandra came.
then the whole bunch of us left the airport to bedok stadium.

ran 4km. ahhh!
so nice right? haha.
i wanted to stop and walk after 3 rounds.
those guys can run fast, but i can't. (reminder: jiamin is a girl)
my stamina, seriously, dropped rather drastically.
stupid hippo and the other guy didn't allow me to stop,
i was like asking WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY??!?!??!!
hippo was like pushing me. urghhhh.
i swore i almost died there. haha.
yahh. but in the end, i didn't stop.
so i ran 4k in less than 30 mins time. yay
(i broke my last record)
but then, it didn't help with the muscle aches i'm having right now.
urgghhh.
and what's more.
he made me do pull-ups!! :(
apparently, i can't do any.
was damn shagged after the run.
i did 6 aided ones though, hippo was like pushing me up.
haha. i can feel the push.
haha. nice exercise to train your back muscles eh, hippo?

went home, then walked all the way to the foodcourt.
i dunoe why i did that when i have no appetite.
that soup helped a lot. (:

ahh. i miss milo.
*whines*

i'm been thinking about many many things.

people... strangers. friends. good friends. best friends. buddies.
my on-coming promos.
the loser state i am in now.
the horrid horrid feeling of cramming everythign in.
the terrible but undeniable loneliness.
the deep black eye rings.
the ugly blemishes. and yes, the pimple scars.
the tofu(s).
the lack of sleep.
the lack of cash.
the stupidity.
the laziness.
the everything and anything.

somehow, i refused to feel like a loser. and i won't.



the greatest love of all, is to love yourself. (:

this is an essay on how benny the hippo rock:

Benny, meaning big fat obnoxious hippotamus, is a boy.(although he or rather she doesn't act like one) but it's okay, because he has a very very good friend, Jiamin, who is willingly to save him from being a gay. (thus showing the holy side of her.)

but then this essay is on benny, so i just not elaborate how good is Jiamin. anyway, benny has this fetish for farting. (i mean it's fine since everyone farts) but the thing is, he actually shows off. (no no, don't give me that look.) yes, he shows off.

and ohya, he refuses to admit tat he has cellulite, somewhere there. but well, we ALL know, don't we? *smiles*

beware of benny though, he might sound nice and sexy (haha.), but then under that skin,
lies a terrible horrible chee ko peh (buaya, in short). he attackes people with "tofu"(as he so called them, meaning fats.) by poking and tickling people. tsk tsk. that's very bad indeed.

plus, being a hippo gives him an advantage of being very very very think-skinned.
when asked of what i'm supposed to blog on, he replied,
"go type out an essay on how i rock"



alright, benny, YOU ROCK. (: (like real)

PS. no worries BEST FRIEND, come what may. you're loved by us and always will.(though u suck)
God bless you many many, kay? (:
ohya, you will always have me, taggin along. (yes, oh so unfortunately.) haha.

just read more on the news on the attack on the russian school.
it's pretty awful to die so young.
just like that.
i mean, on that day, people were so happy that it's term break,
failing to see the impending doom of dying.
dying so tragically.
just because selfish people just think for themselves. their benefits.

why doesn't people just live as they were.
why must they kill others so that they can try to get what they want.
why can't they understand that kind of feeling one will experience when their loved ones is gone.
why can't they just stop everything.
why can;t they show a bit of love.
why can't they just think before they act?
why must they show the ugly side of human.
why are they so inhumane?
why can't they just stop for a moment and think before they act?
why must they kill?
why can't we have peace?
why why why why why why.

so many whys.
no answers needed.
it's sad to know that there's so many hatred in the air.

it's ironic to know that i have my fair share of enemies. (:
oh wells, it's better to not think so much than killing all my brain cells now.
but then, i know love is the key.
and yesh, i love you all. (except that person who irks me soo much for the moment)

oh well, i'm missing a lot of people right now.
especially my sista (we love green, don't we?), the big fat ugly hippo. :P
seriously, you still suck a lot.
but then.... aah well, i don't know.
we don't talk much nowadays, do we?
but then, again.... YOU SUCK. haha. (:

then i missed _________ (thou shall not tell)
haha. i noe i've been buggin you a lot.
and thus, i shall just leave you alone. (:

and... i missed my gang people.
for some reasons or so, pizza hut stuffing time isn't enough for me.
i realised i forgot to hug you all goodbye.
urgh. i got a pea brain. =(

and.. i missed crying.
haha. dun ask me why.
i just do.

and it comes to me that, everyone is missing out on something,
something called: L O V E

1. Ur full name ? Lin Jia Min
2. Wad friends call u : min min/jiamin/ah min
3. Wad ur bf / gf calls u ? dun remind me that i dun have one. hahah. =_- but jen jen calls me: min min. lover calls me: lover.
4. Wad's a name u once wished u'd rather haf ? dee
5. Wad's e ugliest name u can tink of ? pek choi
6. If dere was a song abt u, wad would it b called ? jiamin rawks
7. Wad would u name ur kids : ian,ian and ian.
8. Wad would u name a ship u built : satin
9. If u wrote a bk wad would it b called ? only stupid people doesn't read this.
10. Thrown up in public : nope. :P
11. Eaten or drank anythin spoiled: haha. like always
12. Had a rip in ur pants u didn't know ? haha. small hole can?
13. Tripped while checking someone out ? hell no. =_-
14. Had to pay for somethin u broke ? nope. i will run before gettin caught. hehe.
15. Nearly drowned ? never ever!
16. Passed out : almost at home. was so tired after the chalet. haha
17. Had a crush on somebody : duh!
18. Been stuck in e rain : haah. like always. (: but i love it
19. Been attacked by an animal : aaah? by my rabbit? sophie used to bite me. heh
20. Caught pple kissing : yah. can remember that the day we were slacking in sentosa before the o lvls results were releasing. haha. the couple was under the cocnut tree. hehe. letitia and i were watching as we munched on the chips. wahah
21. Fallen asleep while driving : i can't drive. heh!
22. Felt attracted to someone of e same sex ? yah. paris hilton looks soooo cute. (:
23. Actually slipped on a banana peel : haha. haben try before. not intending to try anyway.

** What would you do if .. **
24. E guy u like doesn't like u ? get upset then pick another target. haha. :P
25. Somebody was abt to steal ur car : call the police, (:
26. U wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over u n ur bed ? scream and get the insecticide
27. U farted while givin a persuasive speech in class ? haha. dun remember lah! =_-
28. E person u like.. farted in front of u ? it's okay what. (i got used to benny's farting during the chalet that i'm so immune to it now. haha.)
29. U'd 3 wishes ? 1. pass promo. 2.people around me are fine. 3.peace.
30. U'd a time machine ? i will kill hilter before he gets anyone. heh.

** Would u rather ... **
31. Find e cure for cancer or e cure for aids : both. i'm selfish. i wanna save both sides.
32. Have e power to fly, or e power to teleport ? teleport. i will get to see edison chen and cristiano ronaldo everyday! (:
33. Have e power to see e future, or e power to ur dreams? seeing the future is freaky. i rather have the dreamy part. :P
34. B lost in a forest, or stuck in a box : box! i dun wanna be stuck in the forest ALONE. =(
35. B in a drama movie, or a comedy : comedy. but joke is not on me. =P
36. Have ur birthday on Christmas Day, or on ur present birth date? burfday! i love my birthday! (: *hint hint*
37. Live in South Pole or North Pole : it doesn't matter since i am stucked in singapore. =(
38. B on a plane or a train : plane. i wanna fly!
39. Snow board or hang glide : snowboard! i wanna build snowman!
40. B a ninja or a pirate : pirate! as shuai as the orlando bloom in 'pirates of the carrabean!'

** Dream ger/boy ? **
41. Musician/Athletic : haha. both can?
42. Muscular/Slim: normal build will do. (:
43. Romantic/Humorous : haha. romantic will be nice. humorous will be nicer.
44. Bring u flowers/chocs : haha. neither. :P
45. Tanned/Fair : tanned. (:
46. Cool/Sporty : cool is good. sporty is even better :P

1.Are you good at hiding your feelings?
haha. depends. normally not. :P
2.How can we tell that you're already irritated?
it's obvious loh. i'll be so darn quiet and people won't get to see my pearlie whites.
and i got the chao tar face. haha.
3.How do you treat the person that obviously doesn't like you?
haha. i'll treat them the way they treat me. (the part where i showed them that i obviously don't like them too.)
4.What usually ruins your mood?
lack of sleep.
5. Who do you see everyday that you wish you just wouldn't at all?
haha. the teachers! seriously, who will pray to want them in school?
6. When was the last time that you had a good cry?
the day when i sprained my ankle (during the 1st 3 months in tpj. haha) so embarrassing :P
7. How often do you shop for clothes? haha. whenever i'm out with my gang! hehe.
Groceries? everytime when i run outa what i need.
8. Who's your long-time crush? cristiano ronaldo/edison chen (choose any one)
9. someone you just had a crush on? bee 8-2-8? (that's crap)
10. do you have something that you wish you just don't? who doesn't? i need longer concentration span. hehe.
11. Do you sometimes crave for something that isn't there? yeah. again, who doesn't?
12. Do you wish to live in a faraway land where nobody knows you? nah. i like to be known. haha.
13. Have you kissed a total stranger? (well, you know the name, at least) no? haha
14. What do you want to do at this very moment? study very hard (but then i know i can't)
15. The worst feeling? being in pain.
16. How about the best? being with the people i love! (:
17. Ever given your number to someone you dislike? yeah. jiamin don't know how to reject people.
18. Say something about/to someone that you know who reads this: i love you all. (:
19. What do you need ryt now? confidence/long concentration span/intelligence/silence/not fearing the night/being awake. (:
20. Happy with ur luv life? haha. like i have one. but again, yeah. i love my jen jen and my lover to bits. (:

suddenly, i remembered what jian yong asked me yesterday: who do you like?
he was like, soon huat?!?!?! (urgh.)
obviously not lah!
then it got me, that.... i didn't realised that i dunoe who i like till he asked. haha.
is it bee 8 2 8!?!?!?!?!
nua nua!!!!!
er.....or who else..?

study jiamin. study.


to chemistry:
hullos chemistry. you're my best friend remember? (: hehe.

who need the world when i got you?

aah. so blessed. (:
everything is so nice now.
(holidays can't be bad eh?)

life is so confusing thesedays.
people are getting so.... w.e.i.r.d,
so full of motive.
i felt so insecure.
what a messed up life.
haha. (:

anyway, i felt so crappish today. (:
so just let me crap on and on and on and on and on.....
get it?

aaah. talked to adrian after what seemed like ages.
i learnt that there's three types of people in VS from him.
haha. gilajay! be the third type, okay? (:
aya, if adrian in tpjc then good liao,
we are so going to form a 'ugly people' gang,
where i can get the most cca points and money every month from membership fees.
so nice right? haha. (:
and i learnt nua nua's plight. that poor thang.
tsk tsk. no wonder i so protective over him.
hahahaha. =_-''

school is getting fun.
but people are getting scary. =(
i'm freaked. aaaahhh!

i actually wanted to head school to mug today.
but no1 wanna accompany me. =(
i wondered if i can mug at home.
oh wells, no harm trying
(since i got 1 whole week of hols.)

and yah, alan, i'm so going to win u in tennis.
muahahaha. (:
mrs koh says if i can serve well, my catching of the balls are good. (:
i like to play tennis with her. haha. (:
she asked for amanda's racket when i was practising my servin of balls.
den she returned my balls with it bounced to the other side of the court. (:
but i served rather badly. =(
haha. she say i gan chiong. =__-
last week i serve balls nicely. haha.
and i got a bruise from tennis. heh! =(
i smacked myself with the racket after i smacked the ball. haha.
that's kinda silly. i know.
but then i love bruises. haha. i love rubbing them. haha.
the feeling is just so..... woahhh. haha.
but the process of gettin one is yucky. haha.
jiamin hates pain. =D

and i want to play badminton with benny.
he doesn't believe that i can win him. =_-
sista, u dunoe me. :P
he actually asked me if i'm playing with 5 year old kids everytime i tell him that i won.
it's been so long sinc we had a nice talk.
but well, haha. :P

jie have to love me cause i chiong home right after sch to get her notes zapped for her.
i only took less than 30 mins.
i think i'm a genius. (: or am i?

ah. i shall listen to what jon and adrian told me. (:

therefore, i better get going.

i love jen jen and amanda. yay! (:

i'm breaking my habit tonight (:

it's my life
and it's now or never
i ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

my heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

it's OVER...
back to the beginning.....................................................

school was really boring.
the whole thing i was just trying to get some sleep here n there.
played badminton with jon, gab and donkey.
went for dinner den playground with jon n donkey.
laze around and hear them crap.

didn't say much though.


i'm so not myself today. =_-



go to sleep jiamin. (:

You ask me do I love you















but............ ............. ............. ...... ................. ...................... .................... ............. ...
do you remember
why I walked on water for you
do you remember my first steps on the moon
have you ever wondered why i gave three wishes to you
u asked the question




but the answer lies in you