jac: you mind i call you jie?
me: of course not
jac: you so nice, i wan to call you jie.

hahaha.
just remembered now.

and i was like wondering, how nice can i be.
come to think about it,
not very.

the only good thing i did today,
was to wake up at 7.30am after sleeping at 4am,
just to wake best friend up.
heh.
it took me 10 mintues of non-stop dialing to wake up.
hur hur.

aya,
today sucks.
maybe.
maybe not.

the good thing is that i'll get to see my babes in like 2 hours time.
and see my 4e classmates for dinner later.
and i'll be sun-kissed red yet again!
whee.

the bad thing is that i can't catch the movie with the db girls. :(
which means that i have to watch the incredibles alone,
cause i think everyone watched it already!

and the worst thing of it all is that,
because of the class dinner,
i can't go back to the chalet and see the little ones!
i got jac's email add.
but ahmad, dun have his contacts.

this sucks.
i like ahmad the best.
he's soooooo sweet and cute. (:

this is the scouting life of mine,
i'm gonna let it SHINE.

ahh.
i'm missing ahmad and jac already!

anyways, kinda came back from their bbq session.
amanda missed it.
heh. =(
what a pity.
really.

actually, reached there feeling very bored.
nothing much to do.
and the firs t person i saw was ahmad.
hahaha.
he helped me keep my bag. (:

just stared around,
ahmad got me food!
and he peeled and fed me prawns.
cause i dun wanna dirty my hands.
shared bbq-ed marshmallows with him and jac.
hahaha.
they are soo cutee. (:

then the guys are like playing with themselves,
by stripping one another,
pouring gels on their *you know what*,
and burning their hairs with fire.
so i just practially stared at the opposite direction and talked to ahmad.

he got 203 for his PSLE.
better than me you know? =_-
haha
poor jac got 160.
didn't believed him at 1st..
that silly guy kept saying that he dun wanna go express. =_-

then i got to know some malacca guys too.
they're from scouts.
and they speak english!
hahahaha.
now i know (:

then amin and guys left.
amin was like asking for a good bye kiss.
haha. cock.

then i started wearing ahmad's scouts scarf. (:
and when willy saw,
he was like,
hor hor. if you wear that scarf, you must be a scout liao! :P

then we went to search for twigs to build fire.
went with ahmad to find.
he's so adorable can.
so i passed him whatever twig i found.
he was like asking me to be a scout.

he went like, you so pro in finding sticks, you should be a scouts leh.
me: don't want lah. i not boy.
he: no lah. girls also can be what. you go be scouts trainer lah.
*jac came along*
he: jac, you want her to be a scouts a not
they: yesh!

kids!
so cute. (:
and jac called me JIE. (:
cutish leh!

then we played hide and seek in the dark.
stupid azlan was like laughing at me always for something.
he rubbed my face with his hands when i told him that i'm cute with my sun-kissed red face.
urgh.
i went like, wa lau! dirty my face! sia lah! next time all pimples no1 want me sia.
he was like, aya, no1 want you, come and find me lah. i will want you.
hahaha.
in the room, he went like, wanna lie on my lap?

see? guys.
all guys are like that.
tsk. tsk.
*shakes head*

i was a babysitter with si ying.
she's only primary three.
and we were supposed to find someone in the dark.
sadly, i forgot his name. :P
but he is small in size and so we had a hard time finding him.

and in the end, we hid behind the bushes with him.
and we were like crouching and lookin at the kids searching for him.
hahah. so funny.
he was like lying on the grass so i just kinda lie on him to have a clearer view.
nice lah he.
he never kpkb. (:
and he pulled me up when we're supposed to leave.

yeah.
and when the game's over,
i had to leave.

and ahmad was like,
i thought you're staying overnight?
don't go leh! i'll miss you.

so sweet.
so innocent.
so pure. (:

and i forgot to tell ahmad, i'll miss him too.

i think today is the last time i'll be seeing him.
but i hope not.

he's such a darling. (:

oh. his full name is ahamad naufal.
naufal! haha.
always reminds me of my biology cher.

sigh.
i think i miss ahmad already! :(
plus, my new brother, jac. :(

ah.
the little ones.

today is the suckiest day ever.
heh. :(

(: JiA MiN why make it strong to break it once again? says:
got miss me ma?

(: JiA MiN why make it strong to break it once again? says:
haha

=] boulevard of broken dreams says:
of cuz not

=] boulevard of broken dreams says:
i c u online everyday

=] boulevard of broken dreams says:
wherther i wan it or not

sighh.
now i know why i'm sad everytime i'm online.
thanks cong.

thanks.

ah.
woke up feeling horrible.
my face is still red.

and no one believes that i look cute in my red face.
heh.
but i'm really cute like this what!

went pasir ris library to return and borrow books.
heh.
then city hall to walk walk.
alone.
hur hur.

supposed to meet aldrin for coffee after that.
but wasn't feeling well so i went home and nua.
sorry aldrin! (:

spent 30 bucks on stupid things.
don't ask me why.
i don't know.

i'm sick. sick. sick.
i need volunteers to come over and take good care of me.
physically and mentally.

anyone? (:

jiamin's current state:

a rotten right foot wound which is cracked.
sore throat.
mouth ulcer.
sore eyes.
blocked nose.
red, burnt skin.
fibreglass cuts (my goosebumps all rise everytime i come in touch with anything.)
insane mind.

this is what jie sent me. kinda cute anyway. (:

and oh, did i tell you,

you are history.

good bye.
i think i'll be happier without you.
yeah.

happy me. =)

ahhh.
i'm sick.
sickening.
heh. :(

went for the kayaking expedition today.
leah pang seh-ed sia.
tsk tsk. :(

supposed paired with ying chun, my mei nu one.
but botak chew kpkb quite a bit,
so i was paired with alan!
hahaha.
of all people. it's ALAN!

then he kept asking me to shut up while rowing.
heh. :(
mean right?
we're supposed to be the fastest and best boat.
hahaha.
supposed to be, only. :P

anyway, poor alan lah.
he had to row a boat with a very lousy person.
heh.
i simply cannot kayak much.
i don't have much strength so i kept stopping,
and he had to row alone.

but you can't blame me!
the very last time i kayaked was secondary three in march i think.
during outward bounds.
hur hur.
with chee voon.
and the same thing happened lah.
he rowed, i slack. (:

and the sun was really big and woah,
i got burnt.
hahaha. so did the others. :P

had macdonalds for lunch.
paid only 3 bucks for a meal.
wheee. (:
ate bing yao's ice cream,
which was WOW under the bigg bigg sunn.

rowed back then.
alan wasn't feeling well,
and he capsized the boat even before we start rowing can!
urgh.
we capsized on shore.
how funny.

longgg journey i tell you.
and my wound cracked.
and it bleed.
my eyes are read and sore too.

i think because i wore the contacts the wrong side.
urgh.
my eyes were like tearing. :(
i actually cried for my eyes.
too pain. :(

and it still hurt now. :(
sobs.

i'm so reddddd.
walked back to the mrt station with darren.
a bit weird lah.
like nothing to talk to him about.
hahaha. so we started to talk about the PEARLS system.
hur hur.

aya, today is a suay day.
even the uncle selling tissues, doesn't like me.
the nice me went over to buy tissues from him,
on seeing that he got not much business to do.
so i walked over and waited for him.
after i bought the tissues, he didn;t even thank me.

sighh.
why must i always felt so unappreciated.

okay,
maybe i'm just simply unappreciated by everyone.

hell.

sometimes when u climb, u fall n the fall kills u.
but sometimes when u fall, u fly.


the thing is everyone hates waiting.
and everyone includes me.
but yet, i don't know why am i still holding on to.... this.

you.

amin, is a very good boy.

declared by me. (:

sighhh.
this sucks.

while i was on my way to the tampines interchange that day,
i found myself staring at a bball mjc guy, with his group of team mates.
i thought he looked pretty familiar at first,
then he started staring back and went, ah! ah! ah! ah!
as if he was trying to remember who i was,
as if we knew it each other.
so i started on, and backtrack a bit, wondering who he was.
he continued frowning, pointing to me and said 'a!' a few times.

then suddenly, he turned to the lamp on the wall, then say 'a! the.......'
i mean... what the *toot*
i was like so embarrassed, then i walked away pretty fast,
and with my headphones on,
i can still hear that whole bunch of guys laughing.
assholes.

i don't like.
alan!
they bully me!
settle them for me okay!
you say you'll help me k people de!
hurmpfs!

went over amanda's place,
ate and ate and ate.
especially durians (wink wink, benny.)
watched 2 dvds.
intended to study, but we both fell asleep after 5 mintues of reading.
goodness me.

anyway, came home rather early today.
saw derrick and his classmates at my house void deck.
they intended to use the street soccer court next to my place,
but it rained.
heh.
suay.

went home, slept,
went airport then to look at the planes loh.
then best friend came to look for me,
crapped a bit, then we each got our twix!
yay.
i love twix. (:

then was home,
rushed out to meet benny to give him the little prince story book.
he bullied me.
poked me real hard several times.
heh.
to think i was nice to give him a book,
so that he won't mistake the little prince as the happy prince anymore.

heh.
got kayak expedition tomorrow.
hope it'll be fun.

whee. (:

The human heart,
at whatever age,
opens only to the heart that opens in return.

When we lose the right to be different,
we lose the privilege to be free.

ahhuh.
kinda just woke up.
but it's alright.

i got my plans for today.
going to bathe and head towards amanda's house again.
holidays are like that.
boring and stuff.
heh.

but again, it's okay.
i like stayovers. (:
wheee.

and oh,
i just read zhen ru's blog.
hahahaha.
it's just so incredibly hilarious when i saw mr gui's photo on there.

he is stilll him.
cranky up there.
always acting like a kiddo.
but stil, he's really nice to me. (:

i used to write him really sad and depressed letters to him.
and he will never fail to reply to me.
he even burn me his favourite chinese oldies cd.

he's the one who always bring a smile to my face.
the only teacher who i always bullied endlessly.
the only teacher whose jokes are not funny at all but still tickled us badly.
the teeacher who sponsored my teva slippers.
the teacher who gave us each a spoon for farewell.
the teacher who will still sms me frequently now to ask me how am i.
the one who taught me how to drive a car.
(sadly, i don't remember)
the one who screamed at zan yan when zan yan only wanted to go toilet.
the one likes to dance around in class.
the one who acts cute.
the one who teaches me how to play mahjong.
the one who motivates and encourages me.
the one who make me feel cared for in manjusri.
the one whom i respects the lest but adored the most. (:






this is him, dancing around the corridor.
hahaha.

this is the usual him.
my usual physics teacher for 1 year and a half.
this is our mr gui. (:

when things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee...


a professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
when the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

he then asked the students if the jar was full.
they agreed that it was.
so the professor then picked up a box of pebbles
and poured them into the jar.

he shook the jar lightly.
the pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
he then asked the students again if the jar was full.
they agreed it was.

the professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
of course, the sand filled up everything else.
he asked once more if the jar was full.
the students responded with a unanimous "yes."

the professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar,
effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

the students laughed.
"now," said the professor,
as the laughter subsided,
"i want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

the golf balls are the important things --> your God, your family, your children, your health, your friends,
and your favorite passions ---> things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
the pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.
the sand is everything else-the small stuff.

"if you put the sand into the jar first," he continued,
"there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
the same goes for life.
if you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
play with your children.
take time to get medical checkups.
take your partner out to dinner.
play another 18.
there will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal."

take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter.
set your priorities.
the rest is just sand.
"one of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
the professor smiled.
"i'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

yay.
and the thing is i'm going to have my coffee session with seng poh soon.
he says he loves me.
hahaha.
good.
cause i love him too. (:
goood friend! (:

hur hur. (:

hahaha.

i can't help but smile everything when i think about what amanda told me last night, over the phone.

she went like, during the bunk cleaning for the scouts camp,
ahmad went to talk to her and asked her if i am popular with the boys.
then when amanda enquired him about that,
he pointed to my direction.

hahaha.
you know what?

i was walking away from them,
and behind me was a group of kids, just following behind.

then i was like, imagining them tagging along behind.
so awfully cute can! (:

as if i'm some kinda mother duck.

sighh.
i'm missing the camp.
haven't got the photos from the guys yet.
will post it online when i got it.

i'll see you when i see you eh? (:

this is what chin yi drew for me during the break of the collection of newspapers. cute right? (:

woke up and headed off to boon keng today.
finally saw siti (my long-lost mentee)
hur hur.

i was punctual for the very first time and,
everyone except madelene was late.
heh.
horrid sia.
never give me face. :(

collected newspapers from everywhere.
long and slow process.
heh.

kana bullied by the boys. :(
supposed to go watch brother's performance now.
but not enough ticket for me.
so i'm left alone at home.
-sobs-

nothing much today.
super tired after the collection of papers.

sighh.

yesterday,
while i was on the way home,
i saw a car with one of its sides dented in.

it's pretty obvious that it has a crash with another car.
a bad past.
hur hur.

like the cars, each and everyone of us has a past.
whether it's good or bad.
it's for you to judge.
but like the owner of the car,
you get to choose whether you want to repair and make it look like before
or to leave it the way it is.

now,
you have a choice.
stay sad after all those bad things that happened to you or change your perspective and be happy.

think.

i don't know what to do now...


maybe i should just get some sleep.
heh.

suddenly, i felt unhappy.
over.. over... over.. everything. :(

boo hoo.

caution: long entry.
partly cause this entry consists of 3 days endless blogging (:

i'm pretty shagged now.
but sleeping on the mrt from yishun all the way to simei helps.
a bit at least. (:

anyway, shall crap A LOT about scouting life/camp.
so shoo if you don't wanna hear about it.
heh.

oh.
on saturday:

actually i'm supposed to meet the db girls at 8 at the bus stop outside xue ping's house.
overslept quite a bit.
wanted to walk to the bus stop that has bus 31 instead of taking bus 9 then change to bus 31.
but it was raining pretty heavily and my leg hurts like madd.
so.. take the second alternative.
bus 9 then 31. :(
waste my bus fare sia.

and so anyway, reached at 8.45am.
hahaha. very late.
when i reached, the girls were doing the tuna le.
helped to cut the bread, fill the bread with tuna, fry the luncheon meat.
and hui xian got burnt.
that poor girl.

christie helped me apply antispectic cream and she bandaged my leg for me.
pretty skillful, i tell you. :P
thanks eh?
she's a good safety officer! (:

then we went raffles place mrt together and rowed for the race.
saw yu teng and geng yan. (:
anyway, we lost.
but it's okay.
we get to learn more from the loss.
right, girls? (:

then chiong-ed home, bathed, packed my bag and chionged to woodlands to meet amanda.
and we reached the campsite at like, around 9pm.
hahaha.
no more dinner but the clever me bought 2 breads from breadtalk before going there. (:

it was pretty eerie walking to the campsite from the bus stop.
foreign indian workers sitting along the pavements, drinking and looking at us as we passed.
and the worst thing is when we reached, it's real quiet.

the scouts went for their nightwalk. :(
but the lucky thing is that we saw the guys.
oh! i know their names le.

the adrian lookalike guy is called Azlan.
the guy with the left pierced nipple is Amin.
then the indian guy, we called him sammy. (:
and oh, they're all 17 years old.
same as me!
whee. (:

ahhuh, then hey asked us if we wanted to go hiking with them.
and since we were bored, we said okay lah.
they took us into some really bare land with forest.
those construction site lah.
and they gave us a mat to sit as they did their stuff.
some stuff that the scouts have to do lah.
like, climb up the steep slope, using the rope.

and while waiting for the scouts to come, all of us sat on the mat.
i was leaning back-to-back with Azlan.
sam and amin smoked on their cigarettes while amanda scratched her hands and legs.
it's like those kinda buffet for the mosquitoes lah.
sucks. :(
haha.

then i helped to lead the boys across the road and voila!
we finished our task. (:
then they played dai dee as i watched on cause i dunoe how to play.

oh! around 2am, they wanted to eat supper.
and we went with them.
all the shops around there are closed. (obviously)
and the only place open is those drinking bar.
hahaha. damn crap.

we are left with no choice so we went in.
ahhuh, the guys ordered 1 plate of cockles and 2 plates of fries.
they bought a cup of beer, coke while me and amanda drink lime juice.
they ate and ate. and wanted to play dai dee.
but amanda can't see in the dark.
hahaha. wasted.
they were like saying, wa lau. if the police come spot check, we sure kana.
only azlan and amin were eating the cockles and they got sick of it.
in order to finish that plate, they asked us to eat.
amanda ate for experience.
but i don't wanna eat and they kinda forced me.
so i swallowed it whole.
hahaha.
in the end, the cup of beer is left full.
only me, amin and azlan took sips.
waste money nia.

then azlan was tried to swallow it down too
he says chewing it is nicer but who wants to chew that bloody thing down.
the shells were bleeding lah. wa lau. :(
azlan, wantin to finish the cockles, challenged us on blackjack.
the loser gets to eat the cockles.
and he's the dealer.
damn cock.
didn't lose a lot so i didn't eat much.
which is good. (:

went back and they taught me how to play dai dee.
won quite a bit leh. happy happy. (:
with aid, of course.
played some kinda mahjong game using the cards as tiles.
funn. kept winning like no1's business. (:

anwyay, it's only between me, amanda, azlan and 'god of gamblers' (forgot his name lah)
initially was amin, but he went to bed.
so the 'god of gamblers' played.
it's was really funny. cause he's crappy.
and when he left the next day, we found his namecard in our bags.
anyway, we played cards till 3.30.

i slept like the sofa.
woke up at 8.
and you know what amin told me.
he said that earlier on, when i was asleep.
the teachers came in to eat their breakfast and stared at me quite a bit
cause my butt was facing them.
sticking out.
sheesh.
and he told everyone.
evil!

went for breakfast then i got involved in some climbing expedition lah.
i was just supposed to check the boys' harness.
so boring. and it's so sunny.
i got burnt. :(
again.

then amin came and he sat on that chair which is rather dirty.
and he asked if i want to sit on him, so i did.
i finished his sprite ice. (:
then we talked a lot of cock, like what he want to do after o levels.
he's lousy.
all he said is that he wants to get married.
hahahaha.
but i got off when mr rahjoo came.

then i went to find amanda and we played the catching game lah.
on the rope thingy we played yesterday.
we wore harness and i was belayed by azlan.
i was the catcher and i caught amanda!
yay.
and they made amanda lick the tree.
then they made me lick amanda on the face.
amanda was made to hug the tree again. and i was supposed to hug amanda. =_-

then they kept me hanging on air for minutes.
=_-
they dropped me down and with three mens' strength, pulled me up again. :(
bullies right?

after that, the kids have to make their campfire stuff so me and amanda was really bored.

then was lunch!
and after that, we went to sembawang park for their teasure hunt or something.
super sian sia.
amin kept coming over cause his base is near mine and he's bored too.
hahaha.

great meal, serious. (:
then was water game.
i was paired with amin.
our game is the water barrel with holes de lah.
the kids are supposed to fill the barrels without water flowing out.
in the end, i got all wet after splashing water at amin and the kids.
the last game was the catch man.
the kids and amin, ganged up and sabotaged me.
they poured the whole barrel of water on me kay!
hurmpf.
and i didn't intend to bathe.
so i didn't.

and amin bullied a really cute boy!
that boy is really cute.
really small in size.
he looks like a kindergarden 2 kid but he's primary 5 liao.
amin poured a bucket whole of water at him.
(shall post that kid photo when i got it.)

and oh, i got to know a lot of kids during the water game.
hahaha. (:
pople like ahmad, and my boyfriend, derrick. :P
derrick, like the rest of the kids, all dun wanna be my boyfriend leh!
they went running away and EEEEEEEE!!! i don't want!
when i said that they're my boyfriends.
hahahaha. damn cute! (:

kinda got reprimanded by mr rahjoo when he caught me and amin throwing water at each other.
and my hands got scratched when drawing water.
amin was like forever saying that i'm clumsy.
heh.

then he went home after dinner loh.
cause he had his O level combined sci paper 1 the next day.
sia la.
he's powerful where got people go for camp the day before their paper one?
somemore is O levels sia. =_-

then campfire was boring, as usual.
was super cold due to the wet clothes and i sat on one of the scouts' chair.
and i asked that boy to sit on my lap.
hahaha. that kid is another powerful one, i tell you.
he can sleep during campfire time, on my lap.

after that, willy took us out on his car to buy supper for the scouts leaders and helpers.
oh, there's a malay looking guy named victor, with us then.
he's mixed blood lah.
good looking but not a gentleman sia.
he made us carry everything and repeated everything we said as if he said it first.
and oh, azlan broke the shop glass. =_-
sia la. then he act blur.

then we went back and ate the stuff.
amanda's parents came over then so happy sia.
then we went over her house to bathe then sleep.
sammy damn sad sia.
he brought his laptop to play PS with us but we weren't staying back with him. :P

woke up rather late.
very shocked though.
didn't hear the alarm clock ring! :(
and my hair were all standing after the sleep. ha.
saw sammy's sms, made me more gan chiong.
went over and found that we got nothing to do.

sat there with amanda then amin came.
hahaha. he finished his papers.
then ahmad gave me his bangle.
which i stuffed into my left leg. (:
i like!
ahmad is cute too. (:
he's primary six so i won't get to see him anymore next year. :(
and the kids kept saying that amin and me were a pair.
so crap.
hahaha.

after the thing we ate breakfast.
roti prata! (:
then the kids were made to clean up the room.
ahhuh.
me and amanda were in charge of the first room.

and i found a boy scout who was finally willing to be my boyfriend.
he's damn cute. kept coming to me.
i dunoe how to spell his name, jayco___ something.
a chinese lah. his name weird. :p
he was like forever leaning against me on my shoulder.
then sammy will go to him and asked him to back off by saying that i'm his girlfriend.
hahahaha.
and amin awill chase him away with the broom.
they locked him in the room kay.
mean. :(
i tried saving him anyway.

then we stayed in the bunk to chill abit.
amanda fell asleep and azlan licked his fingers and left his saliva on her toes.
yucks. =_-

then the scouts all left.
took a few photographs with the kids. (:
then they left.

we cleaned up the whole place.
hur hur.
they all bully me lah.
then kana debrief-ed.

went for free lunch with everyone except amin.
he went off first lah.
i think we were supposed to go over to his place de.
cause it's hari raya or something like that today right?
dunoe lah.
they started talking about all those stuffs during lunch.
mr rahjoo's treat. (:
he started talking about me sitting on amin's lap.
i embarrassed sia. =_-
i'm not supposed to do that.
can kana chased out de. cause it's a scouts' camp or something lah.
sia la.
make me damn (*#^*#&!^#!. :(

hugged azlan good bye.
amanda started it.
not me!
didn't hug sammy cause i asked him to come to hug me he asked me to go over.
none of us wanna walk what.
haha. then he say i owe him two. =_-

ahhuh.

brother wants to use the computer.
it's a long entry.
shall go bathe and clean my wound. (:

jian yong sais i'm the most longwinded tpjc blogger. hahaha.
like whatever lah.

ciao.

sorry about this post.
i know i'm not typing nicely.
too shagged. (:

oh! the campsite is some terror sea scouts' campsite.
funnn. (:

ah! time to heal the wounds and pimples. (:

urghhhhh.

this sucks bigg time. :(

woke up at 6.30am today.
very very dead indeed.
bathe and ate the oats lah, as usual.

took the train all the way to woodlands.
took the jurong east route.
it took me 1 hour 20 minutes.
hur hur.

was late lah.
went there with amanda loh.
the camp was in sembawang.
in some terror scouts campsite.
ahhuh.

quite creepy then.
didn't know what to do actually.
but CS just popped out and he told us to put our bags in the room.
then me and amanda sat at the road and watched the kids play their games.

they're kinda silly.
scolding, hitting each other.
yet cute in a way. (:

then we just hung around these two guys who were making the slide.
the slide is like made of 2 big plastic mats and some mattresss underneath, on a steep slope.
ahhuh. we poured soap water on the mats loh.
then the kids were supposed to climb their way up there.
and in the end, no one succeed lah.
but they all get to slide down from the top. (:

when we were keeping the stuff, they made us slide down there too.
though we didn't bring anything with us.
urgh.
then i tried to make my way up there too.
failed. :(
and cut my knees.
my knees were scratched and they bleed. :(

then when i go back to the top,
that guy carried me up and threw me out the slide again.
don't ask me what's his name.
i can't remember.
i thought he was a chinese you know, so did amanda.
but he turned out to be a malay.
and i can't remember malay names. :P
i think it's 'Ha-something' .
haha
too complicated for me.
and the thing is, i thought he looks like adrian.
hahaha.
so far as i can remember how adrain looks like lah.

and he dirtied my tee.
asss. :(
and oh, he knows nazeem!
hahha.

then the other guy, whose name i oso forgot lah.
chinese name though. :P
kept bullying amanda.
hahaha.
funny.

they made us walk on the rope which was on air, with our hands holding on to another rope above.
they bullied me further by shaking the rope. heh.
and they made us kiss the tree.
bullies!
got to now more people there by then.

then amanda and i played carom.
i suck a lot at it.
hahaha.

ate lunch with the kids.
helped them picked up rubbish and leaves for their area cleaning.
ha. they can't stop bugging me.
slacked around then it was dinner time!
whee.
then slacked further more, it was campfire time.

oh before campfire, it was damn funny
the another malay guy who is quite good looking, said he wants to show us something.
then he pulled up his shirt and there,
we saw a pierced left nipple.
woah.
that must have hurt badly.
he said he pierced it in thailand.
S$8 only.
haha.

then campfire is really boring.
it made me sleepy.
very, indeed.
so sian la.
every group does the same performance by running round and round the campfire.
you say, sian boh?
zzz.
but they did a dance which i thought was really nice. (:
got break dance summore.
i'm so so impressed. (:

the highlight for today:
after the campfire, wanted to head home to sleep.
but we decided to help out in moving the benches from the campfire area back to the canteen.
and the guys scoffed at me.
they say i don't look like i'm from dragonboat.
and that Ha-something asked if i could carry one bench by myself.
so i go carry lah.
picked the wrong one.
i got the heaviest mental-made bench.
sucks.
now i got what they meant by heroes die young.
hur hur.
spastic, really.

was struggling with it.
then one of the sides came down then they asked if i can or not.
i was like, fumbling with it.
then it dropped and landed on my right foot.
HAHAHA.
how fun..
automatically my foot darted back, but too slow lah.
WHAM! it went.
kana banged. :(

i kinda like winced in pain, then the guys asked me if i'm alright
of course, i say i am lah.
i'm always putting up a brave front.
anyway, it hurts like *toot*
i shall not swear.

helped to carry up more benches then off we go.
and i didn't realise how bad it is until i saw it.
my large pieces of skin peeled off and there's a tiny blood clot there.
and it's all swollen up. :(
sucks bigg time.
so i got raw skin noww. :P

beared with the pain all the way from sembawang till simei.
ass! and it started to rain.
totally not my day today.
can cry man.
so painfull.

went home, apply antispectic and rubbed with zam buk and a lot of other different creams.
hahaha.
call me kiasu. (:
and it didn't hurt that much until i rubbed it. :(
i think it's because the pain is constant. :(

sucks.
i need sleep le.

i got to endure three more days of camp days with the people there.
and i think they're rather nice and funny.
damn cool.
but this time round, i'm staying there overnight.
whee.
and it's the primary school scouts kids. (:

and who says chao yang special school's kids are weird.
they're special, in their own way. (:
and i realised, the really sad thing is,
the kids are mostly being physically abused by their parents since very young.
and they're constantly seeking for attention and stuff.
i think all they want is the reassurance.
the feeling that you know that there's someone who loves you and you're not ugly/stupid or something like that.
and there's a kid who looks like daniel wu.
quite shuaiii. (:

life is sad,
but it doesn't mean that we have to be sad to fit in. (:

so...
YAY! (:

there she goes.
there she goes again....
lalalalalalalalala.

whatever.
anyway, let me tell you the most interesting part of today.
me, kingsley and benedict weren't late for the training!
yay. (:

ahhuh.
cause kingsley's nice dad fetched us there.
and i bought bread for breakfast.
yum yum. (:
but i forgot my nalgene.
left it at home. :(

sometimes, water bottles need a rest too.
from all that dirrty kallang river and harmful UV rays.
hur hur.

ran 'little' as usual.
just that today, my body is not functioning very well.
had slight tummy cramp again.
and alan who was leading, chiong like mad.
spastic, i tell you. :P

was the cox-er at first.
kinda stressful but super funn. (:
i like!

then rowed.
damn weak.
tried my best though. (:

went onto the mixed boat and rowed.
this time, rowing was easier but still, tiring.
i kinda tend to lose my strength easily.
can't maintain that endurance power.
urgh.
jiamin, try harder!

and something bad happened to me in the boat.
for the first time.
was freaking out.
luckily not many people know. (:
heng sia.

then went for briefing, the same bad thing happened.
super sucky. :(
hahahahaha.

rushed to bathe den walked back to mrt station with leah.
met the guys half way and they asked me if i wan to eat lunch wth them at mac.
can't really decide cause all i have was $8.50 with me.
and i still need to survive this week.
see! amanda, your presents made me real broke.

then i started bugging them to pay half for me.
which desmond and alan each gave me 2 bucks each.
hahahaha. good.
i get to save up. (:
double yay!

then wanted to go home to sleep.
was dead shagged.
and then alan jio-ed me to go suntec, i went loh.
cause i'm not supposed to reject him.
hahahaha.
crap.

so the 4 of us - me, steffie, alan, james walked around there.
and james ate a huge plate of roasted meat rice which costs 6 bucks.
heh.
felt like puking everything i have consumed, out when i see him eat.
tsk.

then they wanted to go watch shuttle.
some japanese ghost movie.
hur hur.
i don't really dig in these kinda freak shows.
it's a sin to scare yourself.
plus, i dun wanna watch movie. :(
no moneyyy.

and the nice thing is, the movie isn't featured in that eng wah cinema.
triple yay! (:
then they decided to watch 'saw'.
some NC16 show.
ahhuh.
james paid for me.
errr... many many yays!! (:

sat with steffie like the really nice corner sofa seat.
and she went to sit with alan after a while.
while james fell asleep when sitting on the floor.
so i made him warm my feet by asking him to lie against them.
ahhuh.
thanks ah.
it helped a lot. (:

then he upgraded and sat with me.
and i conducted some heat from him by kao-ing beside him.
he and his stupid hairy legs.
eeeeyerrr. =_-
his body's temperature is much higher than me.
i think it's because he's sick or something eh?
take care lah, competition on saturday leh.

walked around again.
and i saw ekkawat, wen xin and another guy (dunoe his name) at the polar cafe.
hahaha.
his back was facing me yet i can recognise him.
i think i'm smart. (:
hur hur.

talked a bit and ate their stuff.
the cheesecake was baddd.
but the rest wasn't that bad lah.
talked a lot.
haven't seen him for a longgg time.
he looked weird.
errrrmmm..... but still, handsome lah okay? (:
and he owed me a meal at some place. =__-
wen xin looked skinnier than before.
hur hur.

went home then.
the guys were funny.
when stef poured water on alan's head in the train,
the other guy who was leaning on the glass thingy was shaking his head.
hahaha.
damn cock.

yeah.
slept immediately for 45minutes.
cause dad woke me up.
and we went bedok for dinner. (:

and i had to wake up damn early tomorrow.
need to meet amanda at 8.30 at woodlands.
have to go be a volunteer for the mentally disabled children's camp there.
and you know what?
hahahaha.
there's no CIP points/hours for this.
i know people wonder what's the point of going there to help out without any benefit.

but still, i found a reason to.

humanity. (:
it's the heart.
the passion to help others.

and i think i'll learn and appreciate more about things after tomorrow.

trust me. (:

and pray that i don't shrink in height. (:
i musn't.
cannot.
shall not.
will not!

oh! i got a pink face now.
and a left palm with some burst and un-burst blisters.
plus a peeling sunburnt skin on both shoulders.

wow. (:

his friendster caption: tom cruise himself...caught him at the airport..
(hahahahaha.) --------> cute (he self-proclaimed.)

oh yeah,

i just simply forgot to add in:
( ah well, the lazy me shall just copy and paste. (: )


gordon[sun and sea] * _ _ _ _ alamak!! says:
eh and u din say im the chinese tom cruise..

and then he went on,

gordon[sun and sea] * _ _ _ _ alamak!! says:
act...don say ppl also can tell la..

gordon[sun and sea] * _ _ _ _ alamak!! says:
but jus to be sure

after which he reassured me,

gordon[sun and sea] * _ _ _ _ alamak!! says:
ya...jia min's a nice grl..so nice man..

that's our dear gordon.
hur hur. (:

xin, chun, sam, me and amanda. taken on amana's birthday, 17 nov. (:

chun, me, amanda, xin, sam :P

xin, sam, me, amanda, chun (:

me, chun, amanda, xin, sam

happy 17th birthday, my dear dear amanda. (:
i love you. (:
and oh yeah, there's more years to come. (:
really really adore you to bits.
hur hur. (:

hahaha.
just came home from bugis.
am happy.

these people really know how to make me happy. (:

anyways, woke up at 10.30am today.
can't really get to sleep yesterday.
was super depressed over nothing.
until xin hui rang me up and i entered a 4 people conference.
crapped a lot but it cheered me up a lot. (:

sms-ed amanda till i fell asleep.
hur hur.

woke up and continued on the 17 postcards journey,
then i realised i'm almost late for training!
dumo everything inside my bag and chiong out.
met my meinu, ying chun and hui sin at the station.
walked there lah. cause i can't fly. :(
and it's funny when we croosed the big road.
hahahha. they didn't dare to cross it when the vehicles all halted and it was red light.
so i just went along, walking through the spaces between the cars.
and they followed.
hahahaha. we ran.
they were freaked.
hahaha. hilarious. :P

training is tiring today.
had a really bad tummyache after the 'short run'.
heh.
wanted to die. it hurt really bad.

was really weak the whole time during training.
my arms ached a lot.
it sucks.
ate very little for branch lah.
i'm only proud of the last set of today's training.
i put in my everything. (:
it's sucks to be the last in the boat.
kinda like the powerhouse of the boat, supposed to be to very fit and strong.
supposed only.
hahaha.
luckily, got christie with me. (:
yay.
i'll put in my very best anyway. (:

after training, chiong toilet to bathe den realise why i had tummayches and felt weak the whole day.
ahhuh.
today is the first day of the month.
hahah. it sucks. :(
oh i think the tummyache was a tummy cramp.
hahahaha.
i just can't differentiate. :P

so all these explains why i'm feeling so down lately.
stupid hormones. :(

went bugis and realised the people were still in woodlands.
heh. how nice.
walked around seiyu and my heel were screaming in pain.
so i sat outside the water fountain of parco bugis.
hur hur. and it rained.
super unlucky.
walked around again. sighhh.
then they called.
yay. (:

was feeling rather grouchy then.
but forced a smile to them.
and we went to the kiddy arcade.
hahahaha. i spent 1.50 bucks trying to get more tickets for xin hui.
samantha spent a dollar.
while xin hui spent 8 bucks.
hahaha.
so funny. she wanted 160 tickets to get the stickers.
and in the end, she managed to get the winnie the pooh's and precious thoughts' stickers.
(with our aid)
and the thing is, the sticker can be bought for 1 dollar at the night market.
hahahaha.
so crap cann?

went v8 movie cafe to dine.
amanda's treat.
i had seafood spaghetti.
and watched 'qian ji bian I' there.
but the thing was they were playing music
and you can't really understand the movie with only the tv on but no sound nor subtitles. :(
but still edison chen looks gorgeous.
oh mama!
and oh, it's amanda's treat.

we had, or rather i had oreo chessecake! (:
yummy.
and we shared a plate of brownie with vanilla ice cream topping.
man! this plate of desert made everyone happy.
the brownie was hot and the ice cream was cold (duh).
and when u eat both at the same time, the feeling is superb!
the ice cream melts immediately upon entering your mouth.
it made me happy. (:

went to take neoprints then.
so funnn leh!
we were so cocked.
didn't really know how to use the bloody machine cause everything was in japanese.
but the photos were nice though.
*points at the above entry*

and after cutting and spiltting the pictures,
xin hui excitedly went outta the store.
hahaha.

guess what?
when we were walking back to the mrt,
then she realise that she left the precious thoughts stickers at the neoprint shop.
hahahaha.
8 bucks leh. =_-
(not including me and sam's money)

so amanda said she would go back there and collect it for her tml.
i wanted to go at first but i got training lah..

den came home leh. (:
i'm happy today.

cause it's my dearie's birthday!


i love you a lot amanda. (:

i'm sorry that i had to pang seh you people to go training.
we intended to go sentosa and celebrate one. :(

oh, we made a 15++ mins video slip for amanda.
and in less than 5 mins of viewing, she broke down and cry.

silly girl! (:

and i saw yu teng on my way to kallang mrt after training.
talked to him a bit.
hahahaha. talking to him now.
and he made me happy by saying:

btw the contacts how much ?
ok la
dun say i not fren
i support u half
to acheive ur dream
lol

i said: bluff

he went: realy anythin one

ahh, such good friend. (:

sighhh.

this sucks.
today suck a lot.
hur hur.
i'm getting a bit weird today.

anyways, i slept at 4.17am.
cause i was sending songs to best friend so that he got entertainment during his trip.
yeah, i'm a nice best friend.
try me.

i had to wake up at 7.45am.
and rushed to the airport.
amanda waited me for 19 minutes.
so sorry. :P

okay, so we saw the bunch of people in green tpjc PE tee and jeans.
ahhuh.
(okay, except clarence who decided to oppose. haha.)
talked to jennifer and people over there.
clarence always make me laughh.
hahaha.
he believed that i came to see him off. :P
sheesh.
fiona went to. lucky her. :P
it is so unfair.
haha.

oh.
anyway, they're going myanmar for 8 days to do overseas CIP.

hugged them good bye and passed them whatever i need to.
oh, we bought jen jen hello kitty candy and best friend, twix.

i always think that twix has some magic inside.
something that never fails to make me happy. (:

ahhhuh, was pretty jealous and gek that i can't go.
especially when they went into the departure gate.
ha. it's been a long time ever since i sat a plane..
pretty sad.

and yeah, i don't deny that i was cursing the teachers-in-charge.
like, hoping one to sprain her ankle,
one to cock his head,
so that mrs sze can take care of them.
or something.

yeahh, shan't be so mean.
what a sin.
*shakes head*

anyway, they're right.
what is never meant to be yours, it will be yours.

i'm just jealous for a day so let me kpkb a bit cann.
i'm feeling really weird.
i think i'm sick in the mind.
heh.

had big breakfast at macdonald's then.
got a good bye sms from best friend.
hahaha.
i bet he'll be shocked/surprised/overjoyed to see the contents in the plastic bagg.
aya, at least i hope so lah, cann?

jie called and asked me where's tpjc library.
ahha.
she wore my uniform to tpjc and used the library for her muggin session.
yeah, i still think i look better in that green uniform than her. :P

grumbled, whined, kpkb, cursed, sweared everything to amanda before we left.
(now you know how badly i wanted to go over there)
i can't stand jealousy.

haha. but there's advantages too lah.
at least i get to watch the last episode of my fav show.
at least.....
i really don't know.
that's all i can think of.
really.

this is so bad.
went home and all i want is to have a good sleep.
and i realised that i forgot they're building new air cons at home.
urgh.
so the second storey was sort of 'blocked out'.
and the only place i could use is the living room, the dining place and the kitchen.
boring.

they shifted everything into the living room, including the animals.
and i wanted to sleep on the long sofa but the rabbits' and gerbils' cages were beside it.
i tried sleeping but i just can't.

bob's fur was flying all over.
and to my horror, when i sneeze, fur came out with the mucus.
ahhuh.

and i don't think that having asthma as a nice thing, you know?

so i gave up sleeping and listened to my discman.
and hell, i finished listening to all 117 songs in the cd.
got nothing to do so i decided to go up and get my world war two book to read.
and the room was in the mess.
heh.

then i have to clean and sweep away the debris,
plus mop the floor with a cloth and my tow bare hands.
hur hur.
tell me how fun was it.

but the thing is, i wasn't that unwilling today.
see? i told you i'm weird.
so i started doing everything.
sweeping, mopping, etc etc.

and i just remembered that i have to get amanda a present later.
hahaha.
okay so i shall go eastpoint and buy her something.

so now you know what jealousy can do.
it makes jiamin do household chores without being pissed.

and now, i realised something else too.
i just affirmed my ambition. (:

sighh.

i hate this.
i hate everything.

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