i'm sick.
yellow mucus.
sore sore throat.
aching calf muscles.
dry eyes.
cracked lips.
yellow phelgm.

but then, no1 really cares.
so never mind.

yeah, maybe except jen jen and li yan. (:
from my tagboard,
Yan: get well soon ok! ... wish for the dae: "no more noseblock for jiamin" =)

sigh.

i am so depressed.
totally.

just had my OG bbq.
was superb.
really. (:

had fun doing everything.
from setting up the bbq pit fire to learning how to fold grasshoppers.
heh.

now i know how to fold grasshoppers. (:
i'm so so proud.
all thanks to my shifu!
eng kuannnn! (:

waited 30 minutes for the damn bus 12 to arrive.
it was, obviously, damn crowded.
heh.
but me and nicole talked about relationships.
eye opener though. (:

sometimes,
i'm just glad that i was single for my last 17 years. (:
no devasting heartbreaks.
no wasted tears.
no minor yet horrid arguments.

oh!
i must thanks hui ru a lot tonight.
so pai seh sia.
haven't talk to her for ages then suddenly call her to ask about bus routes.
(cause i remembered that she lives in serangoon there .)
zzz!
i felt so mean.
but thanks dear! (:

and anyway,

no, you don't know what it's like to be like me.

life is a drag thesedays.
i wished i just get into 1 day's coma and just snooze on.
i need zillion hours of sleep.
heh. :(

anyway, training was soo horrid today.
but i am glad i survived.
got some horrid stinging pain after running.
and i ran so slow.
heh. lousyyyyy.

but then it's me.

went to work after that.
so bored cann.
sigh.

i am loving the ah sang's shou le dian shang song.
hahahaa.
it makes me sad.
i like being sad.
for no apprarent reason.
heh.

then again, i like to be happy. (:

yeah, like whatever.

i like the part when it goees,
(direct translation) i thought you'll be different from the rest,
but what are you to differ from rest?

i thought you'll stay by me forever,
but the thing is, who is willing to wait for anyone forever.

then it came to my senses that,
they are right...

nothing is forever.

not even promises.

okays,

jiamin just spent her 40 bucks away in 5 minutes.

horray. =____-

ahhh.
today has been a good day.

cause....
1. no work for today!
2. school was such a breeze (maybe except maths)
3. i saw zhang weiliang and adrian chua today at the old sdba.
(didn't really expect to see them. really.)
4. i made new friends! (:


but then again,
there's always bad things that comes with the good ones.

there's nothing cool about having a dead lizard on your study desk.
no matter how hard i try to poke it, it won't budge.
it's temporary sticked to my table, due to the stickey pads on its feet.
and i tried to remove it with my brother.
in the end, both of us screamed when i poked the lizard and we ran away.

how silly.

everything sucks.

it is so depressing.

i hate my life.

but then,
there's things to be rejoiced.

things like,
1. it's wednesday already.
2. hui xian gave me a ear ring! (:
3. amanda gave me ear rings.
4. new year is coming soon!

yeah yeah yeah.

trust me,
everything is NOT going to be fine.

Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness
and the word happiness would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

that's why i'm sad.
period.

and damn,
i actually missed cong.

=_____________________________-

so little time,
so much to do,
i rather spend my day with you...

erm.. okays.
got work later at 4pm.
urgh.
haven't finish any work.
it sucks.
i don't know why i'm still coming online when i know that i don't enough time to complete all my tasks.
heh.

yeah,
i always forget that it's the big A's this year.
silly me.

yeah,
i better go clear all my stuffs before i sink into any deeper shit.
(that is if it's anywhere deeper.)

yesterday then i realised,

how much we can save on shampoo and soap,
if we got some people to sponsor us with it.
(and if you haven't realised, you people can actually spending a lot of money on these products.)

plus, the large number of family members doesn't help,
more shampoo and soap will be used daily.
i change 500ml of soap and shampoo every two weeks.
i think so.
heh.

errrrrrr...
don't ask me why i thought of this.
i don't know.

but i believe so.
though there's no reason to stop me from mass using shampoo and soap everytime i bathe. (:

anyway,
i'm off to workkkk.

5 hours to non-stop standing.
take it frm a 4 years npcc staff sgt/ cadet:


it's still t i r i n g.

hello aching heels. :(

Attraction

Are you a flirtatious person?
maybe. maybe not. should be. shouldn't be. heh.

Physically, what immediately draws you to the opposite sex?
when i like him, i like him. enough said. (:

Personality, what immediately draws you tothe opposite sex?
character wise. who likes jerks anyway?

Is their social status important?
nah. (:

Does it matter if they are involved in activities like sports or music?
doesn't. when i like him, i like him. (:

Have you ever gotten butterflies because you liked someone so much?
like always. heh. then why do you reckon i vist the toilet so many times a day? ha. :P

First Date

For a first date, would you rather go out alone or out with friends?
anything goes if he's happy with it. (:

to a place where you can talk or go to a place where you can have fun?
anything goes if he's happy with it. (:

To you, is feeling a connection important on the first date?
yeah. chemistry needed.

What is one place you wouldnt want to go to for a first date?
pubs and stuff like these.

Have you ever been on a blind date?
nah. don't see the point

Do you kiss on the first date?
nah. i don't kiss guys. i don't even like the idea of kissing.

Love

Have you ever been in love?
nope. ha. how pathetic.

How do you know if u`re in love?
like what yc and xp said, you'll just know it. ahhuh. made sense? no? too bad then. (:

Have you told someone that you loved them when you really didnt?
if it's needed, as a white lie, yeah. but normally, i meant what i say. (:

Is having love in your life important?
depends. love isn't everything but it is sure something. (:

Do you think you are or will be good at expressing love?
haha. don't know. dun wanna find out either.

Do you think its true that we all have one soulmate in our life?
one? nah. there's a lot out there. but it depends on fate. (:

Upsets

Have you ever liked/loved someone and never had that feeling returned?
oh! like always. gotten used to them. heh. sucks.

Have you ever asked the opposite sex out and been turned down?
errr.. boy friends, yesh. but with crushes. of course not. i am a shy girl, remember? haha. :P

Have you ever been set up as a joke?
nah. dun wan to anyway. dun try me. i'll kill you, serious.

Have you ever dated someone because you felt bad about turning them down?
yeah.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
prolly. i don't know. i don't think so. (:

xXx mark it if its true... xXx

Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot....
[ ] kissed someone.
[x] been heartbroken.
[ ] been fired.
[x ] been in any kind of physical fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] stole something
[ ] fall in love
[ ] went on a blind date.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] received more than 10 roses
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] lost a family member
[ ] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[ ] went ice skating.
[ ] been cheated on.
[x] had a sweet seventeen.
[ ] had a car.
[ ] drove.

Do you or have you ever ...
[ ] have a boyfriend.
[ ] have a girlfriend.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x ] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] think you're attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[ ] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to pop
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 Best friend.
[ ] get good grades.
[x ]play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[x] wear glasses
[x] wear contact lens
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[ ] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x ] have long hair.
[x] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop
[ ] have a PDA

Are you...
[x] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[x] Ok.
[ ] not sure and not a luvo
[ ] handsome.
[x ] bored.
[ ] happy.
[x] bilingual
[ ] Japanese
[ ] Korean.
[ ] Filipino
[ ] British.
[ ] white
[ ] fair
[x] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] melayu
[> ] Indonesian
[ ] short.
[x ] in between.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[x]single.
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[ ] currently sleeping with someone
[ ] not looking.
[ ] brokenhearted.
[ ] aiming someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x ]sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ]eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[ ] ticklish.


now you can see how pathetic i am.
heh.

You are 73% Libra

Your EQ is

80 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Libra - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best place to meet someone online: Platinum Romance - the best place to meet other singles who love romance as much as you do Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

urghhh.

i hate stupid warcraft III.

it's hanging up my computer.

i wanna delete itttttt................................................

anyway,
it's time to study.

yeah study. =D

so what's the glory in living?
doesn't anybody ever stay together anymore...?

and if love never, last forever,
tell me,

what's forever for?

heh.

best friend says that i have been looking tired, sad, all-things-bad, in school.
heh. maybe he's right.
maybe not.

i hate it when it's lessons but after school, is super shuang!
and yeah, there's silly reasons behind why i'm unhappy in school.
but i'm not going to tell anyone.
i think that everyone around is me, so freaking weird.
i can't understand what they're thinking.

or is it me?
i think i don't even know myself.
heh.

it is so stupid.

yeah, i'm so friggin bottled up.
i am so going to explode.
heh.

as usual, no1 is going to care.
heh.

oh. there're happy things to note about anyway,
silly little things like,

coming online daily even when i'm not supposed to.
arep giving me a sweet yesterday.
mohsin whining on how i bullied him.
taufik pointing at me whenever i see him.
talking to hui ling online yesterday.
taking the same bus at the same place with nicole.
spotting my ogms in school.
looking for specific people in school.
gossiping.
fish burgers and milo!

heh. (:

everybody's changing and everyone's so fake.

i think i am so messed up.

taken out from mohsin's blog:

JIA MIN IF UR READING THIS: Y U NVR GIMME SWEET?? STUPID SIA,,

haha. silly boy.
act cute sia. =_-

i am sick.
yeah.
mild fever, headache, blocked nose, sore throat.
wow.

but again, it's the normal ones who really cared.
it's sad, yet good to know that there's still people who love me.
but those who i thought........ disappointed me.

oh well, it's okay.
heh.
at least they're fine.
at least i will still love them, regardless whether it's two way or not.

anyway, i'm so so so damn excited about the angel and mortal game,
my class is playing with our junior class!
wheeeeee.
i must find tt civic rep contact asap.
no matter wad.
or else, nothing will happen sia. =_-
then no game. =_-

i hate you, _____.
you are always making me upset.
why is that so?
why you?

=(

some of the procyons ogl(s)! (:

me, mohsin and his gang of brothers. heh. (:

this is what my beloved ogm(s) wrote. heh. (: i LOVE them. (: absolutely. (:

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for..........

oh wow,
my hols have offically ended.
*sulks*
it sucks.
ahhhh.

must mug must mug.
don't slack don't slack.

morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug.morning mug, afternoon mug, night mug,morning mug.........

okay, whatever right?
yeah, cause it's jiamin problem,
not yours, so why bother?
heh.

anyways,
orientation is over and i really really really, seriously, MISS it!
ahhhh.
my dear procyon family,
my beloved og2,
my darling ogms,
my wonderful ogl mates,
my Jiamin Scream!

ahaha. (:
first day wasn't very good cause the response are like .....
you know. (:
second day, everyone started to perk up, except my group people.
heh.
third day, they were fun! (:
fifth day, i realised that they love me too!
don't they?
haha :P

i have a bad memory lah,
so i can't really remember everyone in my OG,
except for some whom i often talked to.
like mohsin, my number two jerome.
taufik, the silly guy who tickles himself to laugh at my jokes. =_-
sha, the ncc guy.
hwee leng, my super cute and chio girl! (: i like her a lot. (:
christopher, the quiet ccb (err, i mean chung cheng boy).
nicole, the girl who always laughs.
jie ying, my 'lover'.
chiam ying and mei lin who looks identical.
wendy, who always pon!
kia, the contact lens girl. chio sia. (:
amanda, the china doll.
chuen yang, the self proclaimed shuai ge.
shu wei, the over-enthu kid in the whole family.
eng yong, she and her stare. tsk! :P
arief, he gave me his acs badge! yay!
waylon, he and his track.
yu shan, and her brother. heh.

of course, i got to know some others from the other OG, the same family lah.
errrrr... like like..

shafiq! he's damn cute lah.
he went like, i dun wanna lend my my things anymore, you won't return me!

kah chou,
my pokemon, pikachu.
hahaha.
he's damn pervertic though his looks never reveal much,
but we all know.... =D

that yong quan from the chinese high school.
the funny thing is i borrowed his cap which is wet with his sweat and wore it,
returned it back wet with my sweat.
heh.
i bet it stinks.
we dragged him to take a foto with us! haha. =D

er.. the other guy.. i forgot his name, always with mohsin and gang.

and and, people from other families,
like

ariff! my sweet wrapper collector. (:
hmmmm.... no1 else i think.
ahahah

oh. i got the photos! (:
upload it up later when i collect it all. (:
and we passed our contact list over the group and ask people to write their comments on us.
hahaha.
oh man, look what i got.
heh.

orientation night was damn fun. (:
love it. (:

oh!
stupid alan spoil my image sia.
everytime he say the familt scream/shout too soft,
he will point to me and say 'she'll demonstrate to you what's a scream.'
then i screamed la.
sia la.
now sore throat.
everyday at least once sia. =_-
the guys will cover their ears, especially mohsin, so i'll normally station myself near him.
haha. (:
soon huat like it though!
hahaha. (:

errr.. what else?
oh!
there's a guy who approached me (i forgot is who liao la)
and he told me that when i scream, i spoil my image.
hahaha.

aya, what else?
nothin much.
i better go do the procyon frenster and go study le.
ciao! (:

it is so sick.
heh.

suddenly, i don't feel right.

where are you when i needed you the most?

Toxic by Britney Spears

"It's getting late To give you up I took a sip From my devil cup Slowly It's taking over me " Ah, what's a year without breaking a few hearts? Literally.

haha. fredy will love this. :P

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

You Are the Peacemaker

9 You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others. Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict. You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come. Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together. Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination. There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language. You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands). You would make a good athlete, physical education teacher, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.

today is orientation day one! (:
quite fun lah.
i like my family. (:

just found adrian's fisherman friend lozenges in my drawer.
goooood...! (:
good for my throat.

oh wow.
i'm waitin for tml's orientation!
yay. (:

oh wonderful.
last day of freedom..
heh.

there's school tomorrow.
sounds good?
maybe.
i miss jennifer, my lover, liyan, denise and mui hia. (:
but i hate the fact that there's topical tests right smacked in the midst of orientation.
and know what?

i haven't study for it!

oh man. =_-
this sucks.

i got all my maths work undone.
3 more GP articles to finish through.
one chem chapter to understand and finish up the tutorial on it.
study my integration, permutations, differential eqns....
and my biology tests, the whole of organic chem.

have to wake up at 6 to reach school at 6.45 tml.
my beauty sleep. :(
-sigh-

so many things to do, so little time.
it's okay though.

i'm jiamin. (:
i'm supposed to handle everything well.
and i will.

and when school starts, everything will be a rush.
rush. rush. rush.
running against time eh?
that's when my planner comes in. (:
i love my planner!
it's greeeeeeeeeen! (:

oh well,
so then,
goodbye. (: