ahhh. (:
such a nice cold weather. (:
it's been raining for the past 6 hours i think.
wheee. (:

and i just woke up from a deeep deep sleep. (:
anwyay, yesterday was both good and bad.
i can't login blogger yesterday lah,
which means i have to kpkb about yesterday before i can do the same for today.

yesterday, amanda got the same old headache again,
and she keeps crying.
i can't help her head stop aching.
does it really hurt so so bad?

she got it while our everyday-morning-meet at the bus stop.
anyway, for your information,
me, jen, chui ying and amanda always meet each other before going into school together.
so jen jen stayed behind and look after her,
while i dashed into school to find miss chua.

the stupid sidegate was locked so we walked a BIG round to get to the bus stop.
from the front gate all the way to the side gate's bus stop.
yeah. so after we left her in the sick bay and attended our lectures.

then after that was maths tutorial,
amanda, trying to be funny, didn't want to lie in the sick bay,
despite the headache
so we went maths tutorial together lah.

then 15 minutes later,
she chiong to the toilet and i have to accompany her.
so i ran after her.
and we sat in the toilet for almost the 2 whole periods.
i just stare at her and she just nua beside me and cry and cry and cry.
so i wasted my time starin into space into the creepy toilet.
eeyyer.
the very thought of the empty toilet freaks me out.
and i still didn't know how to do the question i don't know how to do,
simply cause i wasn't there listening.
ah.
i think i am going to fail my a levels.

but i shouldn't be complaining lah.

then PE was silly lah.
did the jumps and stuff,
which made my thighs ache more.
and i still lost to that netball girl in running.
wasted.

then was training.
hell.
my thighs ache more.
run run run in circles doesn't help.

but rowing was fun.
my rowing is super lousy lah.
but i enjoy doing the twisting thingy leh.
it's cool.
haha.

and leah saw her cute sprayer.
the funny thing is that she forgot even how he looked like.
i have to remind her, you know.
=_______-

and i saw weiliang!
HAHA. (:
my good good good pri sch mate who used to sit the same sch bus as me,
played digimon with me,
threw stones at me just because i was the catcher for our catching game,
spit down the block with me,
washed and scrubbed the sch bus with me,
sprayed water at every traffic light junction,
walked to my block with john wong just to board the bus with me,
yeah, basically the silly things primary kids do.

yeah. i saw him at SDBA again.
it's nice seeing him.
he never fails to acknowledge me as his friend.
always raising his eyes so that i know he's lookin at me.
hahaha. (:
and i saw him buyin the can drink at the vending machine
and i came to his rescue okay.
his 20 cent coin just won't slot nicely into the machine.
i wanted lemon barley leh,
but he wanted soya bean.

i was the decision maker okay,
i pressed the SOYA BEAN button.
i'm such a nice compromising friend. (:
and i drank it anyway, though it's not bought by my own money.
oh, hey, soya bean wasn't that bad afterall.
so i continue to drink from xp's.
HAHA. (:

we (leah and i) boarded the same train as him lah.
just tt he nv walked all the way to the train tail.
so he was at the other far end.
i actually wanted to go over to talk to him,
but leah ai mai ai mai,
so i gave up the idea.
but all three of us are from the same CLASS previously leh.
tsk tsk.

and today, amanda didn't come to school.
actually nothing much happened.
i kana scolded by ah lek twice leh.
i did everything he asked us not to do,
cause i was half asleep at that time.
zzzz.

but he treated me ice cream after school.
so i dun mind. (:

and for gp, mr lim wanted to do debating.
so i chionged!
and requested to be the time keeper (ayah, easiest job what)
and i got it.
YAY! (:
madeline was pretty reluctant to have me as the time keeper though,
i think she likes my voice,
she wants me to open my mouth.
but i shan't! :P

then chiong home and slept.
still having that silly headache.
i think i better be off to get my ass working.
must finish NMR tut by today.
plus, he said: bored then go and study lah.

HAHA. (:

okay.
i shall end off the female version of ABC this time.
(completed it with liyan and hui li again. during CME)

oh, i am the shark for the CME exercise.
meaning that i'm the competitive type.
HAHA. (:
leah says i don't looklike the type.
good.
it's called WO HU CANG LONG. (:

anyway, here it goes:

Amanda [ah ma. (:]
Bernice [my sea sports club sailer. (:]
Connie [don't want this one. but they insist. =__-]
Denise [lover's da lover.]
Evelyn [miss chua. HAHA. our ct.]
Farhana [fa fa gong zu]
Geckwoon [tj girl]
Huili [who dislikes people touching her.]
Ivy [my bengawan boss. (:]
Jiamin [the VERY VERY cute me. HAHA]
Kit [chan. the one who sang homee.]
Liyan [ni shi wo de. *raises hand* LOYALTY!!]
Muihia [my lover's 2nd lover.]
Nicole [the silly cat faced woman. i miss her already]
Olive [the spinach eating popeye's girl]
Peijuan [madeline. or tigger. or ah ma]
Qianyin [haha. comic freak eh]
Ruhua [the variety show self-proclaimed mei nu. HAHA]
Sarah [ahaha. tution girl.]
Tanya [chua. i like her songs leh.]
U_______ (if you can think of a name here, tell me)
Vivien [the one who says i got artifical butt.]
Weiwen [vivien! or my son, wilmond also can. HAHA.]
Xiaoai [my loverrr. (:]
Yushan [hmm.. her shirt very hosrt now lah. xin yuan's mei mei]
Ziwei [don't know/don't care who lah. they know can already.]

sighh.
school days are such a dragg.
still, i got headache today.
mai siao siao okay.

ayah.
as usual, i just got up from my 1.5 hr nap.
chao shuanggg. (:
and my legs are aching. haha.

brother pestered me to go bedok stadium with him just now.
apparently, he had his 100m, 800m and high jump heats tml.
the annual mjr sports meet lah.
(i didn't know that people are still interested in doing these stuff.)
but i rejeced him lah.
needed sleep, you know.

but again, i don't think he needs to train lah.
last minute also won't work one.
plus, he's my brother, so he'll WIN.
hahhaa. (:

ermm....
i went home after bio remedial today.
amanda studied with hui li,
jen jen studied with nicole,
while jerome studied with another girl.

ah well, everyone got their own studying mates alr.
hahaha.
i got mine too, my fm radio.
my brain just can't function without music. (:

oh.
maths tutorial was super amusing today.
i love that mr chow to bits man.
hahaha.
his expressions are so hysterical.
HAHA.

we were doing question on 3000 pond fishes, species A and species B.
the way he pronounced species, is like the way he prounounced FISHES.
haha.
and i thought him say fishes A, blah blah.
i think it's rather cute to have a teacher calling fishes, fishes.

then after doing that question, he ask huili,
so are you having any fish for dinner tonight?

hui li, didn't bothered to answer that poor man.
so i said: no choice what. mother cook what then we eat what what.

he, being cock,
went on to tell us how fortunate we are.
he said: see lah! you people are soo fortunate. next time when you all grow up, you must think of what kind of fish to cook, whether you must cook fish as a dish tonight, what you are going to cook it, does your husband like to eat fish or not..............

then when he was trying to differentiate discrete and continuous random variable with us.
he said: discrete random... blah blah.. liek whole number.. something like 3.0000
(when he states the decimals, his hands will whirl round and round in air.)
then: continuour random... blah blah... decimals... blah blah.
(again, when reached the decimals, his hands spun outta control again)

hahaha.
the cockiest part was EVERYTIME single time he says the word probablility,
he will stutter: PRO.PRO.PRO.PRO.PRobability.
hahahaa.

amanda was choking with laughter.
bio spa was sian.
even amanda cna tell that i'm sianed.

she said throughout the 1 hr paper,
i was holding up my pen, and putting down my pen.
X repeat.

ayah.
i think the stress level os mine has reached its limit.
any higher, my poor pea brain will over-exhaust and burst.

HAHA.
hopefully not. (:

i miss the song.
random letter by pug jelly.
haha. (:

anyway, today was a so-so day.
cause i got to end school earlier than expected.
in fact, i missed the two periods. (:
cause mr lim is on MC and my chemistry tut period was brought forward.
how nice.

but the bad thing is, i got my headache back again.
can't help it leh.
everyday sure kana headache one.
and i assure you, it sucks.
i can't even think properly.

it's not the stinging pain that comes once a while in a few minutes.
but the constant seizure that won't go away.
it's as if something is squeezing the brain whole time.
urgh.

so i didn't go for the cca fair which i'm supposed to.
told alan that i was having a headache.
(and i'm still having it)
and left home to sleep.

ayah, as if sleeping and medicine will help like that.

anyway, our class ran the relay today.
HAHA. we rock leh.
got second. (:
i was the first runner. (:
(like always.)
but aya, not as if i can run very well like that.
but it's a short distance sprint, not too bad. (:
and jen jen said i run until very sey.
HAHAHA. shuanng. (:

and i ran for the 4 x 100m relay too.
that one, no comments la.
HAHA.

erm, what else?
oh dichlorophenylethylphenol!
i bet none of you, know what is this.
cause i don't either and it's coming out for my bio SPA trial tml.
but ayah, never mind lah. TRIAL only what. (:
but i think it's shitty lah.
i can't believe i have to sit on the lab bench stool for 1 hours, writing what i don't know - dichlorophenylethylphenol. (haha)

oH!
my mei nu made me brownies and cookies today.
and i was so selfish that i finished it all by myself (only tt i gave one to hx)
cause it's so yummmy. (:
i love my mei nu. (:

and chemistry fac test sucks bigg time.
FAIL LIAO LAH.
what a bummer.

headache headache, go away.

ahh.
today's competition is a total disaster.
luckily, it didn't hold much importance to our team. (:
it's all about gaining experience what.

but i think i learnt how one can be so shagged after waking up at 5am.
wa lau.
cannot tahan man.

so after reaching home,
i didn't even bothered to bathe, washed up and sleep all the way.
from 11.30 pm to 4pm.
woots.

i think i'm having sleepless night tonight alr lah.
shit.
haven't even mug for my chemistry fac test.

HAHA.
you know what, guys?
hahaha.
so freaking funny.
anyway, my SP dragonboat friend, yu teng told me:


Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
u all got medals leh

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
u noe ?

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
y dun wan take?

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
haha

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
funny leh


Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
no la

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
lol

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
wasted la

Haha...SP's medals-drought finally over...BUT... says:
at least gt one medal wat


yeah.
to the people who wnats to know, what's happening,
i tell you,
all of us left after the race so during the prize presentation,
no1 went to collect the medals.
HAHAHA.
i think we're damn attitude sia.

ha
i just spent my freaky saturday doing binomial distribution.
i only don't know how to do two questions!
*smirks*

brandon taught me well.
HAHAHA.
(not that he did anything anyway.)

yeah. i better get my ass off the com soon.
need to finish mugging chemistry before 10pm sets in.
i need to sleep before 10.

WHY?
you might ask,
it's simply because i have to reach Toa Payoh at 6.20 tomorrow.
and yeah, i forgot to add thr Am behind 6.20.
so it's 6.20AM.
ahh. freak.

simei to toa paoyoh....
doesn't click.
okay la, because a journey of 45 minutes does.

ayah,
i better fall in love with chemistry soon.
i don't know why but every single time i read chemistry,
i start to yawn, and feel drowsy.

ah!
why is love always one sided.
i do believe i love chemistry, you know?
HAHA.

and i read hui li's blog too.
yeah, poisson is shitty.
spent an hour figuring out how to do question two lah.
why does the tutorial question differs SO MUCH from the notes' examples.
bloody.

can't afford to spend more time this weekend already.
got so many things to pia.
where got time sia.

ahh.
i want so badly to pass the chem fac test lah.
got bio SPA on tuesday also.
major turn off for next week man.

AYAH!
time to go and mug lah.

no time already.
where got time to waste?

oh.
and i hope we get the first for tml's race.
or else, it's NOT worth my beauty sleep leh.

shut up.

ahhh.
i must improve my english vocabulary already lah.
so that i can use bombastic words in my blog next time..
haha. (:

wa lau.
i don't know why i'm so freaking tired now.
just woke up from a 11pm - 9.20, which is 10 hr 20 mins sleep, you know.
maybe coming online makes one drowsy.
aya, for my case lah.

erm, what to write.
i don't know. ):

but yeah, i think i should go back to sleep,
then wake up and finish my work and
study for my chem fac test.

ahhh.
i must pass chemistry.
ever since i stepped into jc life, chemistry isn't my forte.

but then again, it never is.

ahhh.
i think trainings on consecutive days suck.
i mean, a lot a lot a lot.

been sulking like mad thesedays.
so sorry to everyone in school, especially AMANDA and jennifer.
it must been hard to you two.

i'm physically and mentally drained.
and a tired jiamin is a bad mood jiamin.
and a bad mood jiamin doesn't like to speak.
so, ayah, you should know the complications involved lah.

i never knew i was so used to be so bubbly and happy in school,
until some people expressed their concern over my gloomy face.

mdm lim: why you look so sad today?
miss ho : you alright? why you look so pale?
lu jun: ni zhe mo zhe yang?

blah blah blah.
AYAH. bad mood bad mood.
i hate it when i'm in bad mood.

and jiamin's pea brain when tired, aches a lot.
so the head has been aching for a day today already.

to comspensate the lack of sleep,
i went home at 1pm ater school to sleep
and went back to school for training at 4.

i slept with an aching brain,
and woke with the same ache.

and with my bad mood in hand,
i stormed to school and saw zhen yi.
i wasn't happy what so i acted like i didn't see him.
then when he asked me why i so dao, i ignored.
hahaha.

then i saw gordon,
he was suaning me lah,
but i gave him tt face and stormed away.
HAHA.
i bet i scared the hell outta him.

then i went to find amanda to return her her wallet.
i smsed her not to walk away from her original position which is at the 3rd level above the canteen.
but when i reached there, she wasn't there,
AND DO YOU KNOW HOW PISSED I FELT?
i walked all the way there with the bloody headache lah.
and i TOLD HER NOT TO MOVE.
urgh.
all the way from the side gate to the canteen to 3rd level leh.
)(!#&*(!^&(*#!^(*!#^(*!&(
and i didn't have my hp with me to call her.

so i went back to sea sports room and called her.
shit la.
she was at the stupid bus stop.
I TOLD HER NOT TO GO THERE ALREADY!!!!!

but i must apologise to her also la.
she waited up for me till 1am last night.
she told me to call her but apparently i didn't hear that.
i told she was the one who was supposed to call me lah.
so when she didn't called, i went to bed, cause i was so freaking shagged.
then as a result, she was tired today too.

and i can't believe i fell asleep during ms chu's bio tutorial today.
HAHA.
she was talking about the genetics between barren chicks, hen and cock thingy.
and i dozed off.
when i woke up, they were all drawing the genetic diagrams and i dun know what to do.
urgh.

and my mei nu stated that my lips were pale when we boarded the bus.
i think i'm getting sick soon if the trainings doesn't stop.
(luckily i survived the last training for the com preparation! :D)
but i regained energy from chipsmore coookies.
ahhh
they were so delicious.

rowing was nt too bad today la.
but i felt very weak.
haha.
but the 500m set wasn't that bad. (:

actually we wanted to have dinner toegther one.
but my head was aching like mad alr.
BUAY TAHAN.
so i ran for the bus and went home.

ah well,
so much for crapping.

i feel so sad.
for no reason.

i want to cry. =(

ahhh.
i am terribly shagged.
but i got some IMPORTANT things to blog in lah.
hahaha.

anyway, i shall start with the most important section of this entry.
HOW TO TEACH YOUR KIDS ABC in the near future.
the method of teaching, is pretty niceee (tee hee hee.)

Alan (dua bear bear.)
BRANDON !!!!!! ( lalalalala! :D)
Chengwei (aka yellowman. :D)
Derrick (donkey! and some guy in so1.)
Eng kuan (one of my best friends. HAHAHA.)
Farhan (the funny walking stickman.)
Gabriel (gabby!)
HSI EN!!!!!! (*giggles* lalalalaa. :D)
Ivan (my lover's lover's lover
John (my beloved mortal didi.)
Kingsley
Liangwei
Mohsin (eeeeyerrrr.)
Nicholas
Owen (the sauve but short soccer player i once love.)
Patrick (amanda's dad.)
Quanyang (originally is chuenyang, but china name also same la]
Reuben (my papa! :p)
Samuel (my lover's lover's lover.)
Terrence (lalalala. :D)
Utt (ayah. canot find anyone to fit in this. sui bian la.)
Vincent (lee. AHHA)
Weiliang (my unofficial EX. LOL.)
Xiao xiaoai [xiao ai's baby, my rabbit. (:]
Yanming
Zhiming

yeah. it's our friends' names.
ayah.
we thought of this during CME period.
not bad eh?

this is the MALE version.
female ones.... next CME lesson i think.

maths remedial was super fun!
got sarah, huili, amandia, hx (!) and victor.
oh, i forgot the main one, MDM LIM. (haha)
so fun leh... i felt stupid and yet mdm lim said something nice.

she said: actually jiamin is brilliant but she's lazy.
HAHAHAHAHA.
brilliant, indeed. (:

then training was crazy for me lah.
my back canot take it.
my spine aches like mad lah.

AHHHHHH!
i am so bloody shagged now.
urgh urgh urgh.
need sleep but have to study for chem spa.

buay tahan.
sucks.

i go liao la.
urgh.

hx not good sia.
she never told me that she saw HIM in school yesterday.
WA LAU!

mdm lim said i looked sad today.
HAHAHAH. so cock.

urghh.
i'm going to fail my math test too.
but ayah, i didn't study for it.
so... i deserved it.

training wasn't that tough today actually,
but everyone's feeling so weak and weird.
hahaha.
the whoe boat started laughing at EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING.

and i felt so funny today.
how i know how hui xian and hui sin feel.
hahahhaa.
i almost fell down THREE times today leh.

i fell lah, but regain stability.
no, i didn't tumble nor roll.
awww.. too bad for all the jiamin haters.

luckily, i fell down christie, the first time.
fell on another boat while trying to board the boat after i refilled the bottles.
then i fell upon stepping ontp my mei nu, ying chun.
luckily she held onto me leh!
hahahaha.
my mei nu rocks.

but she bluff me sia!
tell me, she bake brownies.
NEVER GIVE ME LEH!
i think she forgot about her mei nu here alr. =(
boo hoo.

so funny.
on our way home,
hx, leah, fiona and i were yakking nonstop about autographs books.
HAHAHA.
childish sia.
then we talk alot of cock also lah.
now on train, hx tells me muscles shake too.

i gave it a thought and
YES!
i agree!
hahaha (:

ayo,
i got to know more on the evil nature of human today.
ayah, if i were a child, maybe i'll be so naive and brush everything aside.
but hell no, it made me think a lot.
i hate growing uppp, :(

but then,
EVERYONE THINKS that they are RIGHT.

i had a good start for term two. (:

thanks to the coffee and kaya roti in the early morning.
breakfast is a real morale booster, i tell you.

and yeah, i guess i should be contented and satisfied with all i have.
great friends, my found motivation, and my great calendar of events (liyan's diary. HAHA).
and nice conversations for everyone. (especially.. the one who is in my calendar of events. HAHA)

thank God.
may all these pleasures stay and not fade away. (:

but to money's woes,
leave me, by all means. (:

i'm very blessed indeed.
and i was joking when i said i'll commit suicide if i fail today's chem test,
cause i WILL definitely fail it. (though i hate to know.)

and i'm not ready for death yet.

ahhh!
there's a LEE HOM 'xian cang hui' later at 3 at IMM's open carpark.

it's so weird,
but i'm definately into him now.
hahaah.

he's so dashing.
*gushes*

ayah, but the stupid thingy is held in jurong,
and i don't like i want to spend 1.5 hours travelling there,
to be squashed by masses of people,
just to take a peek at him.

i guess i have to be contented with looking through his pictures on yahoo then.

and holy cow,

IT'S SUNDAY ALREADY!

i dread the aspect of being tortured in school with the limited ranges of food,
and an irritant with everything irritating about her.

and yeah, no more adventure in school. (it used to be nua nua, then b282.)
and the prospect of waking very very early at 6.30am (HAHA. early?)
plus, having no breakfast.

and i have to run after the bus every morning.
and and and and.......... late nights...


and and EYEBAGS.
and black eyerings

ayah.
all in all,

SCHOOL REALLY SUCK!

and it sucked more this year.
without b282 spying.

sian...

oh well,

today is such a blissful day. (:
i took my first step, in everything i ever wanted to do.

to know a person,
to know a subject,
and to volunteer myself for more cip hours.

and very soon, i'll hit 80 hours of cip.
very soon.
(anyway, that's in july lah.)

and i realise something,
i can't study without music!
hahaha.
but music distracts me a lot while studying.
so i have to tune into chinese fm(s) while muggin.
hahaha.

because i don't really care about chinese lyrics.

and yesh, i LOATHE HER.
urggggh.
no reason though.
jiamin, is so bo kuan.

oh oh oh,
and the most important thing is,

i FOUND my motivation.

in mugging.
and you. of course. (:

goodness.
goodness.

it's saturday already.
good time passes exceptionally fast.

my face is coarse.
after much scratching the other day. =_______-

ayah, shall go read up a little on chemistry,
changed and wait for amanda to come over,
so that we can go changi general hospital for our class cip later.

and the good thing is, the hospital is less than 700m away from my house.
400m away from the mrt. X)

wonderful.

ermm..
shall blog on leah,
since i promised to do so.
haha.

anyway,
leah is such a b*tch.
HAHAHA.
cause she always say i am one.
but never mind, b*tches are normally in pairs.
in my case, at least. :p

anyway, i have no idea,
but she is going gaga over her hcj cute canoe sprayer.
hahahaha.
who was the guy i once told hui xian that he's cute when we're on the boat and he canoed passed us.
but i changed my mind now.
i don't fancy hairy hairy legs, you know. (:

and morgan lied.
he said he will get me his name and contact number,
but he didn't!

ayah, if i got his contact number liao, i can SELL it to leah what!

anyway,
did i mention that leah is my primary 5 and 6 classmate?
we aren;t tt close then.
but i still got her writings in my primary school autograph book.
HAHAHA.
that was so silly.
she wrote that she'll remember me,
but hell, she didn't!

oh well, not until i approached her and tell her that.
she lousy right?

hahahaha.
silly silly leah.
funny sia she.

okay, no more about leah liao.
change topic!

anyway, i got him in my msn liao.
hahahaha.
he got a cute nick and another stupid one.
ayah. =_-
got nothing to comment on.

sooo... i change topic again!
our race is on sunday.
woahhh.
i think we're going to win!
hahaah.
but then again, we'll always win.
at least we'll get somethingg!
(aya, shan't eleborate. so sia suey. keep it among the db people can liao.)
but i got feeling that we'll win NJ leh!
hahahaha.
so shuannggg! X)

okay, change topic again.
i've been doing 4 numerical method question for the past 2 hours!
i feel so stupid.
and the thing is i CANNOT GET THE FULL QUESTION RIGHT.
it's always either part a or par b which is wrong.
i don't understand why, but it's giving me hell.
urghhh.
but never mind la.
i'm working on it.
tonight i shall sleep at 3am then. (:

*shit*
for some reason, my head is spinning now.
sucks.

and and, i think i lost a dear friend today.
ayah, i think they're right.
time widen all gaps.
so sad, but true.

oH!
the most exciting part! ***** a must read*****
hahahaha.
i got to know a 34 year old man through sms last night.
HAHAHA.
of course, when i realised he's 34 then i sian diao already.
HAHA.
i know i sounded quite crude, but aya,
i shall type the conversation out.
HAHAHA.
don't laugh at me okay!

okay, i replied when a forwarded sms was sent by that number.

me: hey, sorry. who is this?

then a reply was given but i accidentally deleted the unread reply away cause i cleared my inbox with the unread one also.

so i went: err, did you reply? i accidentally cleared my smses away. sorry. who are you again?
him: why so late not yet sleep?
me: err.. who is this?
him: wah lau, u really forget who n i ah. so no heart leh. yesterday we just chat before leh.
me: eh, if you're bing's friend, then WRONG liao. me her sister. she changed her number alr.
(cause i just exchanged numbers with my jie so i thought this might be her friend.)
him: bing is who.
me: huh. then who are you.
(thinking that he is my friend, i think think think, but i dunoe who i tok to yesterday la)
him: r u seow ching?
me: hey, i think you got the wrong number already. haha. if there's nothing, good night then. bye.
him: haha, i think so. good nite have a sweet dream.
me : oh. and the forwarded sms you sent is really nice anyway. thought you'll like to know.
him: what u mean. i very pig not understand. so sorry.
me: eh, never mind then. bye bye. anyway, i really hope you find your seow ching soon.
him: hope so cos this number she give to me 1, if u no reply ask who am i, i think forever i also don't know is wrong number. so funny hor. haha.

(i think that seow ching anyhow give number one. so i conclude that he's not handsome looking nor charming nor rich. HAHA.)

me: eh, yeah. i think you should ask her again or something.
him: can we make friend?
me: errr... what's your name? ( i seriously don't mind if it's a girl leh. wa lau.)
him: my name is patrick. what ur name?
me: dee (HAHA) how old are you then. (i prayed that it's around our age group, you know.)
him: oh.. i too old liao. 34. then how old r u?
me: 14. (HAHA)
him: wah..so young ah. i think you won't make friend with me la.
me: haha. 20 years difference. also nothing to talk about what. haha. but i really hope you find seow ching real soon lah. bye bye.
(sorry that i sound so crude lah. bo bian okay.)
him: bye bye.

then he sent me two forwarded sms-es.
hahaha.

so COCK.
i know.
=________________-
anyway, i'm nice enuf to type in a different font colours so that easy reading can be done.
HAHA. =_-

okay, time to delete my inbox again.
HAHA.

oh!
me and lover went to school after mentoring yesterday.
and we sat at the bench from 5 - 8,
doing permutation and combination tys question nonstop.
and we finally the whole chap on it.
AHHAH.
*strikes off one task on my homework list*

yeah, that was one of my remedial assignment.
zzz. =_-
and we realised the school gates were locked!
AHHH.
luckily they were having a dance camp so we asked the teach-in-charge to open the agtes for us. (:
and we saw an eerie eerie guy in the foodcourt.
freakkky.

i am seriously sick of hearing people talk about themselves.
their problems, their encounters, their achievements, everything about them.
actually, listening isn't that bad.
but i hate the fact that NO ONE EVER LISTENS TO ME WHINE AND MOAN.
except for the yellowman who is so busy with uni admission applications thesedays.
sigh.

and i realise,
people can sound so different online and real life.
so weird..

i hope i sound the same here and there and everywheree. (:

and i hope you had fun,
laughing at my stupidity.

heh.

haha.
i just clicked on something which contains some of my past.
quite silly leh.

anyways,
i came to my decision early this morning.
and i think,
what my dear friend, eng kuan, is right.

SUAN LIAO LA.
i'm not being a pessimist,
but i think things can turn out better, you know?
i'm sick of thinking, wondering and all the silly little things.

it's time to move on.
time to get a life.

a life without you.

no more fast thumping of hearts,
no more mentioning of you.

sigh.

and yes, i'm going to make my day a more productive one.
breakfast, then mug for the tests.
then mentoring at t mart.
more mugging follows after.

sigh.
i hate growing up.

oh.
i promised to blog on my dream.
HAHAHA.
it involves ian thorpe and fiona!

hahaha.
it's crap,
cause it's just a dream lah.
relaxxxx. (:

anyway, it's weird but ian thorpe actually came sinagapore to do some charity work.
hahaha.
(dreams are supposed to be weird anyway. :P)
and when the performance was done, he went down the stage and disappear liao.
i was on the stage, and wanted his autograph,
but i was too busy rummaging through my bag to find a nice pen lah.
then when i got the pen, he wasn;t there anymore!

so i went to search for him everywhere lah.
even waited outside the male toilet okay.
HAHAH. (what a dream)

then i went to the carpark and saw fiona!
hahaha.
she was also looking for ian thorpe.
hahaha.
then we saw some crazy guys jumping into one celebrity's van.

quite hilarious eh.
and i woke up.
woah.
i didn't know ian thorpe and fiona mix.

and christie says that i will dream of micheal phelps today.
i wonder how true can it be.
christie's my rowing partner noww.

and only today, i realised something ultra cute about her.
she sticks out her mouth when she rows!
hahahahaha.
i only realised it when the coach asked us to observe the rowing technique of our partners.
hahaha.
cute sia.

anyway, shiyu and clara came down to row with us today.
hahahaha. i miss them both!
clara looked pale. very pale.
i think she a levels finished liao,
the adrenaline and stress hormones still pumping like no1's business.
haha.

shiyu looked the same though.
hahahaha.
she still 'teh' here and there. :P
haha.

and mum and dad had dinner with me.
we saw how the porridge uncle killed the tian ji.

tian ji = frog/toad.

he just grabbed its legs and slam it down.
hard.
twice sometimes.
then chopped it alive.
goodnessssss.

i never eat tian ji before
and today,
i SWEAR that i will never eat that poor little jumping thing.
never.
EVER.

and yes, my cheeks are RED.
they itch so much, then i can't stop scratching it.
hui xian knew how red it was when she saw me at the escalator on the mrt platform when she's at the other end's escalator.
and they were saying how cute i am, with my cheeks red.
but i dun wanna look like pikachuuu.
though pikachuu is really cute lah.
but i dun wan to win shu hui. :P

aiya,
training is so tiring today.
i'm totally drained.

and it all sums up to one,

should i?
or should i not?

holy cow.
i think i'm delighted.
hahaha.

i got his bloody msn add.
tee hee hee.
wheeee. (:
but, no, i won't add him.
HAHAHA.
X)

lalalalalalalalala.
this is not going to work out lahh.
sian. =_-

and i got training in an hour time.
sian la sian.
i hope i'm cemented to this chair.
but hell, i am not.

so i'm supposed to go training eh.
and i think i will lah.
no point ponning anyway.

alrightt.
i'm going to eat my 'mee-tai-mak',
and head to kallang.

sigh.
what a day!

ah. these are the first jap drama serials i watched.
searching for them too.
i wanna rewatch.
it's quite sad. heh.

and,
they are really good. (:

Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.

I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do -- that
You might laugh or say mean things.

I'm afraid I might lose you.
I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,

But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.

So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand.

So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me

Until I love me,too.

To 4E 2003 Manjusri Students Only-Do Not Read if otherwise


Message:
Dear 4E 2003 MJR Students,I just got home to be surprised by the hugehamper of baby stuff that you have gotten for BabyNadiah. Thank you for the gifts, it is certainly asurprise. (Psss...It is even more a surprise thatyou guys manage to choose the clothes well when Ican't..LOL) Anyway, thank you for not forgettingabout poor Old Me....All the best in whatever youand always remember to believe in thy self....I DO.

Cheers Naufal

heh.
i miss those days. (:

and yeah,
the clothes we chose, are nice.
all because,


we chose it. (:

i shouldn't be slacking so much, you know.
urgh.

mug mug mug mug.

i shall not regret.

and yeah, i'm going to eat lesser now.
so that i'll be lighter and
maybe, i'll be able to do my first pull up in no time.
maybe.
then i can xie xp liao.
HAHAHHAA.
i can cut her up. hohohoho. =____-
not funny lah.
i bet xp isn't laughing.
boo.
lousy joke.

meanwhile, i shall not slack anymore.
no more.
slacked enough for 1 year and three months.

time for some serious work. (:
time to change.

time to have a new life.

without or without you.

but i guess, it's without.
sigh.

reflect.
jiamin, reflect.

yay. just what i want. (:

i lost these neoprints. :(

due to my lousy art skills, i failed to colour off the orange thingy on amanda's head. heh

i feel so sluggish now.
actually i got nothing to blog.

just that i suddenly remembered my dear ahmad last night,
when morgan offered to peel the prawns for us.
ah, how could i forget him.

and i learnt from an experience that if you were to drop your coin into a vending machine,
drop in the one with the least value first.
i wasted my $1.20, wanting a apple flavoured yakult,
but end up with nothing.
quite pissed with the stupid vending machine.
urgh.
that i even use my key to try to dig out the coins from the hole where you slot the coins in.

i actually put a dollar coin in,
then a 20 cents cin in,
when i got 10 ten cents with me.

laugh if you want to,
but i feel so stupid.
haha.
but i was tired last night!
which can be used for an excuse.

watched sixth sense last night.
missed the front part of it,
cause they wanted to bowl,
alan had to do his business in the toilet,
blah blah blah.

and yeah,
the temperature is like woah, today.
so freaking hot.
and what's more.
there's a malay wedding under my block.
they're singing malay love songs really LOUD lah.
but i think, bo bian la.
wedding leh.

and i can't study under these conditions.
damn.

i feel like going to bed again.

shit. dad just came to ask me to fold the bedsheets and stuff like that.
URGH.

and yes best friend,
i'm not desperate or love sick.
at least i hope so.

HAHAHA.
okay.
not funny. =_-

shurgs.

it mjst have been days since i last blogged.
i've been so very tired thesedays.
finally, this draggy week is OVER.

^_______________^
it's the march holidays!
yay. (:

sorry for being so act cute.
sometimes, i just can't help it, you know? (:

pardon me,
but the more i read about her,
the more i looked at her,
the more she disgusts me.

ahhh.
she talks as if she knows everything so well,
treats us like maids,
and is extra kiasu.

she's getting on my nerves la, seriously.
suan liao, i should continue pretending.

yeah, be mightly and continue to haolian lah.
you can't irritate me any further.

my endurance level has stretched further.
yay. (:

and i think it's me.
i don't know why but she irks me.
ahhh.
i must be mad.

but then they say,
there's no reason to loving someone.
which i believe, the opposite is also true.
no reasons are needed for hating a person.

ahhh.
she's driving me madddd.

anyway,
i realised something.
my english is deteriorating.
sheesh.
i can't even spell diagnose and practically.
i think i ought to do something to it.
heh.

what else?
benny went to selangor for some fencing competition this week,
so no more 6k for tomorrow.
yay. (:
but i still can't imagine him wearing that suit and doing all that dancing around.
fencing sounds high class, benny isn't.
oops.
hahah.

and amanda gave me a parker pen with my name engraved on it.
so sweet. (:
but i'm not going to use it anyway.
i still can't get use to ball point pens.
i don't know why he like to use it so much.

but aya, to accomodate...... i'm trying.
i really hate it when you first pick up the pen and write,
the ball point ink doesn't really flows out as fast as inky ones.
and sometimes, if not, most of the time, the ink like to get stuck inside (esp when it's unhappy)
after a while, it just work perfectly normal.
so unlike inky pens, the only bad thing is that when it dropped onto the floor,
then the ink flow goes haywire.
other than that, no problems!

urgh.
irritating, you know?
but yeah, ball points are more economical. (:
i'm gettin used to it,
halfway there already.

amanda, chun and i went to watch howl's moving castle on thursday.
it was cool, considering that it's my first time watching an anime in the theature.
and howl's handsome.
the dog is super adorable too. (:

and we stared at the shaui waiter working at Gelare in Tm for several times,
by walking to and fro.
of course, the ice cream was tempting too.
so amanda decided to treat us to hot brownie with ice cream topping.
and it was served by that shuai ge, whose name we came to know as Douglas.
after ordering what we want, we proceeded on to our seat.
then the space between one table to another was damn squeezy lah.
and my bag wasn't that small either.
so i pushed the chair of one table to cross lah.
the chair just won't budge,
so i exerted more force, and the table which chair was i pushing, toppled over.
and i came to know that, the chair was already pushed to its maximum liao.
ayah, so pai seh.
the manager there, was like, silently shaking his head at me.

and i think that douglas know that we're staring at him.
tee hee.
too obvious lah.
then he so pai seh also.
tsk.

and we ate the caramel popcorn and gave that pooh's Heffalump container to jen jen.
she was overjoyed.
hahaha.
that insane girl. :p

and amanda, chun and i went to take neo prints.
but i lost it all!
after scannin them.
can't remember where i placed them
shit!
been seraching for them hgih and low.
sucks lah.

and there's training today and yesterday.
sea training was so exhausting that as soon as i went 'thump' on the bed,
i was already asleep.
land training was better today. (:
and yeah,
i got db dinner at marina bay tonight.
another night of piggin out.

i feel so fat this week.
*shakes head*

and, hui xian!
happy birthday!

poor ying chun is still dancing now, i think. :P
see mei nu?
i got type your name oneee! (:

today is again, horrid.

this week sucks.

i feel so lousy. =(

though i passed my 1st math test.
(not that i is worth mentioning.)

but, what's wrong with me?

The past 2 years in this JC had been really a memorable one ... All thanks to my subject (CLA , GeoG , Econs , AO Maths and English) teachers as well as PE TEACHERS !!! hahaa so much ups and downs sia ... Well .. maybe i'm just a normal student compared to the TOP student haha .. I think it is quite a feat for me for myself to be able to achieve an "ok la" result considering since i had been fooling and playing all day long during the jc days ... And also .. OM Major Tham has been a fantastic guy talk to ah .. Very sociable and can "click" with students ... Somemore and along with most PE teachers (advising me to study and stop fooling ard) .. haha well ... really made a wonderful environment for me to study in ... As for subject teachers ... ALL GOT PUSH me ah ...thx a lot esp. Foo Lao Shi .. Well .. ok thats all ... I guess there won't be another FELLOW with yellow shoes , skip lessons , no tie , extra PEs and late for 730 liao .. and wait .. Library fineS .. haha Ch3eRs ..

haha.
what crap. =_-
i think he's super bored or something.
the sentence, ALL GOT PUSH ME AH!
is super funny.
heh.

other than that,
today was a horrid horrid day.
didn't even want to open my mouth and talk to anyone.
actually, i did opened my mouth whenever necessary.
other than that... no.
no way.

this sucks.

tuesdays aren;t supposed to be like this.
not until the first sentence went:

i don't want to sign your 'opt-out-of-chinese' form cause your results are lousy.
i think you should retake the exams.

and if you think that i am not upset over my results.
you're so so so so so wrong.
but nobody really cares.
nothing really matters.

so i just blew my top.
and starting bursting out that it was the best i could do, due to my PASS in oral.

oh fuck.
it's not even a merit.

and this left me preety sulky and pissed.
which lasted for a whole day.

it's not about the results.
it's the feeling of being not good enough for your dad.
it's the disappointment you feel when your results are not good enough for your parents.
it's the . whatever la.
i don't know how to describe it lah.

but he signed it anyway.
and to make it up to me, he sent me to school.

so i sulked all the way from 7am to 7pm.

went to update my bankbook. (:
went ntuc too,
and i saw the BEN and JERRY's ice cream sectionnnn.
i went like, woahhhh!

so i acted on impulse,
and bought a tub which costs 11.50 bucks.
ahhh!
not only i feel broke,
i feel fat now.

and yeah, it's cheesecake and strawberry flavour.
very very very edible.
it, no doubt, made me feel a lot better.
and a lot fattter.

it looks like,



alrightt.
oh, amanda's body cocked up during GP period yesterday.
she had hyperventilatio which left m and jen jen pretty guilty.
because she was complaining about she being __________.
she didn't state she is _______(what.)
she just went, na ge, na ge.
(cause she don't even know how she feels.)

so jen jen went, i can;t help you lah.
and i say,
jen jen canot help you, u dun even know how you feel,
what u want me to do?
then i turned to do my work.

then she started sleeping in class,
mr lim noticed it but asked me not to wake her up,
but there's something wrong about her sleeping.
she was wheezing,
breathing very very heavily and nosily.

then when i asked her when she's alright or not,
she started breathing nosily and at a very fast pace.
what's more?
she starting crying.

tried everything i can,
with jen jen and lu jun and the paperbag's help.
then her dad came and took her to the hospital or something.
then got training lah.
(like when i dun have training like that)

a small portion of my skin just came off.
christie applied iodine on it.
it hurts like !^#^!*&^*%$*&!~

and yeah.
ben and jerry's, rawk. (:

i want to escape from everything.
i'm seriously, mentally and physically shagged.
i want to go into a two day coma.
two days is enough. (:
really.

i am not asking for much what!

ahh.
i'm so in the blogging mood today. (:

did myself a service today.
met up with benny early in the morning.
and yeah, we almost pang seh-ed each other.
and we ran 15 rounds around the bedok stadium track.
15, okay?
wanted to stop at the 10th round.
he kept pestering me.
heh.
so we ran 6 km today! (:

the 6km, left me pretty exhausted then.
reached home, packed my cupboard and notes.
then i slept! (:
lalala. (:

woke up, had my branch at 3.
was indeed, terribly hungry.
then i restudied my integration and did what mdm lim told me to do.
i hope i didn't get the stuff wrong.
heh.

and i did my 42th week of 1000 and 100 words.
and seriously speaking, it's my first time attempting the book.
quite fun leh. (:

and i cut the whole honeydew.
hahaha.
of course, i didn't finish it all.

ayah, that's what i did today.
sounds little.

and yeah. moulin rouge was impressive.
so cock sia.

ayah, shall go and study liao.
i don't want to regret at the very end, you know?

and yeah,
i still don't get it.
why is he so handsome?
shit.

you can leave me, just don't deceive me.
and believe me when i say, i loveeee youuuuu...

i wished you can stay there forever...

so that i can stare at you forever too!

HAHAH.
what a joke. =_-

andrew!
haha. (:

cute right!! (:

hahahahaha.
goodness.
cheng wei's forum post tickled my laughing nerves.
so sillly.

he went:

chui leh ... y my tribute to teachers nv appear leh .... like a bit kana ban leh ... is it too vulgar or too long or eng-uish too po0r ? haha ... eh but then seriously ...impt ah ... mar chiam just like drinking minuman or air nid to tink abt the source ma .. so tribute IS IMPT sia !!.. eh or is it muz get all As then can tribute one lol (coz the top student dilip put there 1st) ... BRO .. dear Mr Lee the IT whiz plz allow my tribute to be there ah ... Thx & Ch3eRs .. =) .... Anyway ... For the '04 and 05 batch students ... Please , tolong pay all ur LIBRARY BKS & FineS b4 the release of A lvls Results nxt time !! Bo kong chio ... Serious... the CT dun gif u result slip u also "LL" sia .. Guess wat ... 30 bucks library fine .. tink highest record ah .. K once bitten , twice shy .. hope u all dun follow dis senoir .. k gtg bb ...

hahahahaha.
what a joke man.
i can't believe he posted that.
tsk.

alright.
shall elaborate on yesterday.
wasn't in a good mood though.
sigh.

and on my way to kallang for db,
i sat with hui xian on the bus,
the traffic light went red.
so naturally the vehicles stopped.

i looked outta the window,
the centrum advertisement on top of the taxi just caught my attention somehow.
so i looked into the passanger seat,
no passenger.

then the traffic light turned green,
the taxi moved.
and i looked at the driver seat,
but there's no driver!!
the steering wheel was just steering from left to right,
right to left.

i was &^!*^!*#^!)#* shocked,
so i told hui xian.
she looked at it, then at me,
her expression was like, freaked out,
so my eyes weren't playing a trick at me.
then she screamed.
so did i.
until christie pointed out that it was on toll.

what a bummer.
everyone laughed la. =_-

db training was tough on me.
didn't have the energy to do anything.
the boat was heavyy.
my heart was heavy too.
and i read the no signboard seafood as no signfood seaboard.
nice one.

wnated to go home very badly after training.
then i realised i got missed calls.
irritated, i sent the callers, and one word -"what." message.
i got absurd replies.
not in a good mood, i called them up.
chey, they were all waitin for me at kallang mac.
then we went airport, with my wet and stinky kallang water soaked shorts and tpjc jersey.
yay.

airport was bloody cold.
bbrrr.
went swenson's.
chiong the food, since it's amanda's treat.
i just like to eat, eat and eat when i'm unhappy.
then went home and nua liao.

woke up early today and met the mentees and mentors in tampines.
went ghim moh secondary.
played silly games and cheered sily cheers.
lost the captain ball game.
i bu shuang!
hahaha.
15 people VS 15 people.
so messy lah.
but i scored two goals.
hahaha (:

and we got the second for the whole thing so it snt tt bad lah.
went home, and slept.
banked in all my cheques already.
yay.

alright.
time to blog at true heart's connection blog.
ciao then. (:

still,
i'm still holding onto my ransom letter.
heh

alrighttt.

sum up today,
i'm too too exhuasted to type on and on.

i got b3 for chinese.
sucky but never mind.

and i saw him in the hall today.
drop dead gorgeous.
even liyan and xiao ai were going gaga over him.
heh. last time i'm seeing him anyway. =(
and i felt sad over everything.

hui xian and i thought we saw ghost in broad daylight!
hahaha.
so silly of us.
but it was freakkky.

training was bad today.
didn't have the mood nor energy to row the boat.

amanda, sam sam, xin hui n chun hui cheered me up though.
amanda's treat to swenson's.
yay.

check out furhter details soon.
lazy to type further.

i felt so so bad for him.
i can't help. =(

ciao then.

and you,
yeah,
you stole my heart and gave me a ransom letter.

belief is e greatest power of all.
believe and u will
suspect, n u will not.

these are the three sentences i am going to live with, for this year.
anyway, at least this is what eng kuan told me.
hahaha.

and yeah, i'm going to be one of the best forever! ;)
though, ...............


ahh.
never mind.
put sad things aside.
for now. ;)