oh wow,
common test is over.
i think chemistry and biology are goners.
80% failure.
90% potential Fs.

haha.
but never mind. (:
mistakes were meant to be learnt. (:
someone said: most importantly, don't lose heart.
though that heart of mine is lost ages ago,
i think it's been found by bits and pieces,
one piece by one piece, just like a zig-saw puzzle.

oh goodness, i'm crapping already.
haha.

maths wasn't a breeze anyway.
i did the statistics question first.
and i was in such a panic that i even forgot how to spell critical (for critical region).
so stupid. haha.
and i realised the first question is those ones i have done before,
BUT I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO IT.
oh well never mind.
lesson learnt: see lah! never put in an extra effort in mugging.
:P
blahs.

and yesterday, amanda came over to help me tidy up my cupboard.
so nice of her. (:
thanks ah! (: i think without her, i will be still tidying. haha.
she makes everything so organised,
so organised that my table doesn't look like it belongs to me. (:
and thanks for the waffle you bought for me, or else i don't think i'll be here now.
i am so glad to have amanda as my ______ (fill in the blanks yourself).
i just can't describe.

she's not just a friend.
not just a best friend.
there's more elements to the word, friend. (:
she made my life a better one.
like i said, without her, i really got no life.
hahaha.

THANK YOU AMANDA. (:

erm, what else?
oh, then i went out with mother.
haha.
it's been a long time since i ever spent any time with her.
so we started talking about relationships on the car.
haha. (:
so funny.

went NTUC. =_-
bought lotsa fruits though.
eggs and flour for baking.
yay. (:

then went for dinner with her.
and upon reaching home,
she asked me to bake brownies for tml's breakfast.
oh well, it's already or more less 12am in the morning already.

but i told her that it's HER day.
and whatever she sayd, i will do.
so i baked.
and it turned out delicious. woots. (:

oh well, sometimes i wonder why do i even bother to type out all these.
hahaha.
i think i'm self-entertaining myself.

oh, i watched the discovery channel today.
wa seh.
then i realised snow are made up of snowflakes.
and snowflakes are made up of water particles (i think),
which existed as the normal rectangle, rod-like shapes.
the shapes then condense together to form the very beautiful snowflakes.
and and.. i know why snowballs are be made.
snowfakes condense together and form a quite solid structure.
oh my god, it's so damn cool lah.
i think i like channel discovery already.
hahaha.

errr..
and i lost my paper.
stupid amanda. how u pack my stuff one?
hahaha.

oh well, i think it's time to do something more productive like........
gaming.

ciao then. (:

oh well,
been online for 2 hours already.
it doesn't sound like i am prepared for the chem ct tml.
haha.

but never mind.
i think i can manage a pass.
actually i am waitin for brother to come back and serve me lunch
so that i can study.

but he's been out for 2 hrs already.
.....

oh well, good luck to everyone tml.

and anyway,
yesterday was shu hui's birthday.
almost all the db girls were there,
kana chased out by the mp library and parkway's BK.
so we went shu hui's house.
and i got to eat durians! hahahahaa.
i likeeeeeeeee! (:
and her mum treated us to a $170++ steamboat.
so nice right
THANK YOU SHU HUI!

and today's wei siong's birthday.
hoho.
poor him, have to spend the day to mug econs and chem for tml.

and and.........
i really dread the thought of waking up at 6.20 am tml.
NOOOOOOO. :(

amanda's back yesterday.
hahaha.
we talked from 10pm all the way to 1am on the phone.
i missed her. :P
it's only 12 days.
although i got a lot to tell her, i don't know where to start from.

and my mouse just broke down on me.
wonderful. =(
i suppose it's really bad luck when u're all ready, geared up to mug,
and suddenly when you whip out your books,
out of the blue,
you get all drowsy and stuff.
i mean, how come ah.
it's always happen to me.
i haven't even read a single word in the book lah.
hell.

and past conversations i had with some people, just simply flood into my mind,
while i was happily soaking water in the bathroom.
hahaha.
imagine this is God wanting me to be motivated and to mug hard.
hoho.

been rummaging, browsing and clicking through people's blog randomly.
haha. it's somehow fun to understand people whom you always met somewhere but don't know.
their thoughts, what they did, whether they are happy or not.
blah blah.
oh well, i must be too bored.
haha.

and i decided that i'll try my very best to be mugger.
although i don't have the intelligence to be one.
i've been thinking and finally, i came to a very important decision.

i will not want to only stare at the questions for the whole 3 hours during the test.
i don't wanna see people in the room, happily attempting questions
and yet i don't know how to do any.
i suppose i will just sit down there and panic and regret a lot.
i think the feeling must be really horrid.
and i don't wanna experience this feeling.
it's tragic.

plus the feeling of knowing to do almost all the questions, must be superb.
hoho.
i can't wait to experience this though.
(although deep down inside, i know this is relatively impossible)

but then again,
if there's a will, there's always a way.
and it's effectively proven through the last dragonboat race the guys rowed.
they inspired me loads. (:
and i'm still very proud of them.

and yeah.
it's all in the mind.

in ah hee's words:
don't let stupid control you. YOU control stupid.

and in victor hugo's:
people do not lack strength, they lack will.

UPDATES

pink is for biology
green's maths
yellow's for chemistry! (:

cell structure integration mole concept
biological molecules application of integration volumetric analysis>
enzymes trapezium rule redox reaction
molecular genetics differential equations mass spectrometry
mitosis + meiosis numerical methods gases
autotrophic nutrition permutation + combination atomic structure
respiration discrete random variable chemical bonding
transport in mammals binomial distribution shapes of molecules
transport in plants poisson distribution intermolecular molecules
role of liver continuous random variables solids
role of kidney normal distribution thermochemistry
ecology sampling and estimator rate of reactions
evolutionhypothesis testing chemical equilibrium
endocrine system probability ionic equilibrium
nervous system nuclear magnetic reasonance
heredity and genetics chem periodicity
electrolysis
electro-cells
group II metals
group VII metals
transition metals
introdutory organic chem.
hydrocarbons
halogens derivatives
hydroxy compounds
carbonyl compounds
carboxylic acids
nitrogen compounds
polymerisation

anyways,
my revision is doing well.
except for the finger region where my pen have to rest on when i write.
it's red and hard and it's literally screaming in pain whenever i hold a pen.
i can't write much now.
it hurts too much.
thanks to mr brandon yap who teaches me to write summary for each chapter i have studied.
so that's what i have been doing.
too much for my finger to take man.
it broke down, leaving me to die at the cruelty of the upcoming, imminent common test.
oh well, but if i do pass my tests, then i think it's all worthwhile.
and if i do pass the tests, i will give the credits to mr yap.
or else, i am so going to kp him.

but seriously writing up to 6 summaries a day, can really murder my third finger man.

see how hardworking i can be?
i like updating that entry of chapters i have to mug.
it makes me feel placid.

and while mugging,
it scares me how much i didn't know about many many things until i actually sat down and mug on it.
and i like the jason mraz song: wordplay.
woots. (:

anyway, i took x-ray yesterday.
for braces and the extraction of that tiny weenie teeth which is growing at the wrong region.
and i got a x-ray of my skull.
wa lau.
i didn't know the inside of me, really resembles those i see on tv.
the skull shape, the bones, and stuff. like duh. how different can skulls variate?
but still, it's horrendous. very very ugly.
sigh.
i think i have to chiong 9 chaps of chem and bio today.
9 summaries then.
what a bummer.

and i saw these picture in tpjc.net,
so i thought it'll be nice to post it here.
cuz it's an x-ray! haha.
i am so into x-rays now.
totally.
bones can be so interesting.



this teach us to avoid wearing heels.
that message wrote: Wearing heeled shoes does nothing but deforming the feet, adding pain, harming the ankles, knees and spines. How would wearing heeled shoes be looking good when the shoes are clearly deforming the wearers' feet? Is it time to drop the heeled shoes and start wearing the healthy shoes?

and yeah. the configuration of the bones here looks pretty bad.
i bet the bones are actually screaming in pain, the same way as my finger when i have to write.

and oh.
i really think mugging is FATTENING.
i can't study without my milk tea.
lipton tea with LOTS of condensed milk.
the very thought of condensed milk makes one think of FATS already.
but still, i can't stop drinking it.
i need a lot of condensed milk to make the tea very very sweet so that it's nice to drink.
and and .... i can down more than 5 cups a day.
it's really really nice.

HOW SIA.
I DUN WANNA GROW FAT!
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

the first:

1. First best friend: sizhao
2. First car: a toy car
3. First real kiss: -
4. First break-up: -
5. First screen name: firefly (haha. can u believe it?)
6. First funeral: my uncle's
7. First pets: hamsters.
8. First piercing: ear lobes
9. First big trip: china


The lasts:

1. Last cigarette: - (ah ku is a well known anti-smoker.)
2. Last car ride: bus 38
3. Last kiss: -
4. Last good cry: when i felt unfairly judged by dad.
5. Last movie seen in theatres: madagascar. (i like to move it)
6. Last beverage drank: that yoghurt fruit juice.
7. Last food consumed: some noodles which made my stomach suffer quite bit..
8. Last crush: it haven't end (HAHA! YOU KNOW WHO!)
9. Last phone call: nobody really calls me lah.
10. Last time showered: two hours ago
11. Last shoes worn: my useless teva slippers.

Specifics:

1. Do you do drugs?: no. (no money to begin with.)
2. What kind of shampoo do you use?: currently it's pantene.
3. What are you most scared of?: the dark, supernatural stuffs
4. What are you listening to right now?: gigi leung's new album
6. How many buddies are online?: 24.
7. What would you change about yourself?: everything

Favorites:

1. Color: i like all colours
2. Food: seafood.
3. Animals: i love animals. all of them.
4. Sports: anything with a ball

Have you ever:

1. Given anyone a bath?: supposedly not.
2. Smoked?: hell no..
3. Bungee jumped?: in singapore, there's only buildings to jump from. no roped attached.
4. Made yourself throw up?: of course not. like how to?
5. Skinny-dipped?: not with my lousy figure.
6. Been in love?: no..
7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: prolly when i was younger
8. Seen your crush naked?: seriously, my crush on him will end if i see him naked.
9. Cried when someone died?: no.
10. Lied?: everything i say, is a lie.
11. Fallen for your best friend?: NEVER.
12. Been rejected?: no. never asked.
13. Rejected someone?: should be.
14. Used someone?: in a way or another.
15. Done something you regret?: like always.

Last person:

1. you touched? my stupid brother.
2. Hugged? my stupid brother
3. You instant messaged? cheng wei, i think.

Are you:

1. Understanding?: depends. most of the times, no.
2. Open-minded?: not really actually.
3. Interesting?: maybe.
4. Hungry?: nope. not full either
5. Smart?: definitely. but my brain is not being put to use.
6. Moody?: when PMS sets in. not really my fault.
7. Hardworking? no. struggling to be. i wished.
8. Organized? sometimes. (:
9. Healthy?: healthier than most of the people around me, i think
10. Shy?: depends. i think i am, but no one believes me.
11. Attractive?: no. i only repel people.
12. Bored easily?: duh. then why do you think i am doing this?
13. Responsible?: i like to be responsible (:
14. Hyper?: usually. (:
15. Trusting?: not really but i spill secrets to people who are not totally related to that secret. qed. (:
16. Talkative?: when i am not tired and i have loadsa to say. yeahh.
17. Legal?: no. i am still seventeen. =_-

Whom do you want to:

1. Look like? keira knightley, jennifer lopez, paris hilton
2. Talk to offline? amanda, jennifer, hui xian
3. Talk to online? daniel (he does make a lot of sense), cheng wei (he doesn't make any sense. haha)
4. Hang out with? aaron carter is cool. haha.


Which is better:

1. Coke or Pepsi: neither
2. Flowers or candy: candy.
3. Tall or short: tall.
4. Liquor or beer? neither. (see. i am healthy.)

Random:

1. What do you notice first: height..
2. Last person you danced with: with a bunch of hhk people 4 yrs ago. haha.
3. Who makes you laugh the most? brother.
4. Who makes you smile: kids.
5. Who do you have a crush on: ________ (YOU KNOW. =D)
6. Who has a crush on you: sadly, no one.

Do you ever:

1. Save conversations: yeah. those which are of utmost importance to me.
2. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: yeah. girls are too sensitive.
3. Wish you were younger: er. not now. i am happy with the way i am.
4. Cry because someone said something to you: when that someone happens to be dad.

Number:

1. Of guys I've kissed: -
2. Of continents I have lived in: 1
3. Of tight friends: i don't know.
4. Of CDs I own: i got no time to count.
5. Of scars on body: how would i know..

pink is for biology
green's maths
yellow's for chemistry! (:

cell structure integration mole concept
biological molecules application of integration volumetric analysis>
enzymes trapezium rule redox reaction
molecular genetics differential equations mass spectrometry
mitosis + meiosis numerical methods gases
autotrophic nutrition permutation + combination atomic structure
respiration discrete random variable chemical bonding
transport in mammals binomial distribution shapes of molecules
transport in plants poisson distribution intermolecular molecules
role of liver continuous random variables solids
role of kidney normal distribution thermochemistry
ecology sampling and estimator rate of reactions
evolution hypothesis testing chemical equilibrium>/strike>
endocrine system probability ionic equilibrium
nervous system nuclear magnetic reasonance
heredity and genetics chem periodicity
electrolysis
electro-cells
group II metals
group VII metals
transition metals
introdutory organic chem.
hydrocarbons
halogens derivatives
hydroxy compounds
carbonyl compounds
carboxylic acids
nitrogen compounds
polymerisation



oh well,
there's the list of chapters i have to finish mugging before the school reopens.
before my common test.
haha.
will strike it off, one after finish it.
one by one.
pain stakingly.
look at the rate i am completing each topic,
i think i will never be able to finish everything.

work it harder, make it better.
do it faster, makes us stronger
more than ever hour after hour,
work is never over.

sigh. how true.

i missed amanda. :(

oh well,
i guess i have to enforce some self-discipline on myself.
yeah, so that i will focus on mugging,
not coming online,
not minding other people's business,
not waiting for people to come online,
not waiting for some people to reply,
not blogging stupid/silly posts,
not thinking about thinking,
not procrastinating,
not day-dreaming,
not stuffing myself with food,
not walking around malls for hours.
struggling and fighting against the sleep god,
fighting off the boredom i had and still have for bio, chem, maths,
and finish all my ten year series.

so,
everything stupid i have done here, has come to an end.
at least for now.

i will be back though.
not that soon though (i hope.)

it isn't the end of everything.
it has just started. (:

P.S. i like king lemur and that very very cute little lemur in madagascar. (haha)

Last good cry	never had a good cry.
Last good laugh	when brother did his usual stupid thing
Last tv show watched	tong xin yuan
Last movie watched in the theatre	errr? watching madagascar later. haha.
Last kiss	brother kissed my cheek. that pervert
Last webpage visited	www.dancing-cows.blogspot.com (haha)
Last book read	five people you meet in heaven by mitch albom (my second attempt)
Last song heard	helena by my chemical romance (cheng wei said i got lousy taste.)
Last beverage drank	peel fresh's blackcurrant + cranberry + alo-vera bits.
Last food consumed	chicken mee from HOLA near my place.
Last phone call	from dad's hp, with mum speaking. =_-
Last sms	from benny. haha. i got free dinner and movie tic. (:
Last annoyance	brother. last night he sticked me practically everywhere around the house.
Last item bought	peel fresh's blackcurrent + cranberry + alovera bits lah. (haha.)
Last words spoken	very cute hor?
Last words written	aldehyde and ketone are formed from the oxidation of alcohol.
Last cuss word uttered	fuck. (was studying chem. heh. i hate chem)
Last disappointment	getting 3rd.
Last sleep	last night. hoho.

6:00:00 PM

okays.
my engine's heating.
everything's going well. (:
except that things are starting out relatively slow.

stalked blogs today.
and i realised that life isn't fair at all.
bloody.
but never mind,
i wanna work hard,
so that i know the hardships and happiness durin the process.
it doesn't matter how hard i struggled to get through,
as long as i get it.

for once, i want to love myself because i work for what i have. (:
i think i've grown up.
don't you reckon so?
hahah.

and my muggin marathon starts today.
no one, nothing is going to stop me.
absolutely nothing.
i think i'm focused now.
hoho.
i want to be ella's descendant.

There are people out there who can beat me, but they will have to bleed to do it.

come, challenge me.

haha.
shall talk about the current state i am now.
MY BUTT aches like mad.
both right and left side.
the left side, damn pain sia.
(now i do know how you feel, hui xian. haha)
so as my abs.
and my legs are wobbly. haha

okay. updates on the races yesterday.
our 12 men race heats, was crazy.
the water feels light at first.
but it was suicidal during the race sia.
and we all thought we got second.
damn. we were overjoyed la.
until the results were out.
nyjc was second, meaning that we have to row a EXTRA SET for the semifinals.
ASSSSHOLEEEEEEEE.
and you know what's the difference?
0.27s. it's not even 50% of a second lah.
cock. human reaction time oso included lah.
stupid people doesn't take science. URGH.
but i think we really got there first.
that nyjc swerve towards us and they were nearing to the judges.
they purposely block our boat one lah.
damn it.
damn their ah beng coxston.
but i think the girls there are nice leh.
one shook hands with me and told me to be careful of my finger. haha.
plus, they got one girl who was shuai (amanda and leah says so.)
then okay lohh. haha

upon hearing that, i really felt like giving up on rowing and just walk away.
i think my face betrayed me.
ms ho came and ask me wassup with the crest-fallen and ready-to-give-up face.
an extra 1km to row leh.
WHAT THE HELL.
rowing 500m back, was such a horror.

then it was our 24 men race.
we got third.
stupid brandon, prognotiscated rightly.
damn it.
we all wanted second.
i think it seriously wun happen if everyone attends training.
wassup with the dropping of pacing when it's alright with us.
darren was like saying that the back pack wasn't pulling water.
damn it lah.
and christie broke down right after the race.
i so wanted to cry. almost.
but i beared with it.
then shu hui cried.
then ying chun and xue ping.
so did hui sin.

sigh. i felt so bad.
i felt as if we let down coach.
sorry ah hee. :(

and darren have to come along,
so i think i kinda snapped at him.
hahaha. evilll.

after that, was the 12 men semifinals.
we got first. then was nyjc yr 2 boat.
so both of us got into the finals.

then was the guy's 24 men race.
they won. they won. they won!
i was so happy for them (:
and they went AH HEE all the way. goodness.
coach must be so proud. haha. (:

finals, was shuang.
we got nothing to lose.
we gave it our best shot. (:
it was us against the GNCs and nyjc.
GNC teams are the 2 Njc boats and ACJC boat lah.
at the rate they are consuming GNC products, how can NOT WIN?
so the race started, everytime went well.
very very well. (:
and we got fourth.
we were damn glad.
we beat both the 2 nyjc boats.
SEE? I TOLD YOU THE SEMIFINALS ARE UNNECESSARY!
and we better our own timing from the heats by 15 seconds.
HOW'S THAT? (:

anyway, we saw the cute sprayer from hwa chong there.
but he weren't that cute anymore.
and his hairy legs are still hairy.

later which, we all went to fiona's house to talk cock
and eat.
KFC and pizza.
i didn't eat much of the pizza lah.
only the crust. (:
fattening sia.
but after rowing 4k, it's worth some fast food. (:
then we went on to look at fotos.
we zoomed in and out and LAUGHED LIKE MAD.
hahaha. photos can be so funny.

yeah. then headed home.
and realised that the tv programme is more impt than me!
urgh.

it's okay.
i still got myself.
and i got the colours award. HAHA (:

hahaha.
yesterday was a good day.
morning was.
noon was.
night too! (:

and it all revolves around the same person lah!
(YOU KNOW WHO!)
wa lau.
so amusing lah.
hahahaha. (:
damn shuang.

yesterday was the last SEA training for the year twos.
LAST training too.
a bit sad eh? :P
took hell lot of photos in the place where fun, sweat, pain we shared throughout the 2 years.
i think i am so going to miss my girls after the race tomorrow.
boo hoo hooo.
*sobs*

tomorrow's the race.
let's DO IT. (:

wah lau.
chalet was a blast. (:
thanks to daijing, hui li, jen and amanda who kept food for me.
and lover for the stingray.
yummy yum yum.

but i think i didn't eat much.
must stay away from food.
nationals. focus on nationals.
(haha. i didn't know i was so serious about it.)

anyway, didn't realise that vodka was nice till yesterday.
but i didn't drink at all okay.
the good me, only SIPPED.
hahahaha. sipped a lot though.
blahs.

and i think i am the worst-dressed in the chalet.
hahaha. i looked as if i am going to row a boat.
(according to them.)
see? i am so loyal to db.
even the clothes i wore, is closely related to it.
hahahaha.
(shut up, jiamin. shut up)

and i have a LOT of frigging pimples.
what the hell.
stupid sun.
stupid kallang river.
i am so going to EXTINGUISH every SINGLE one of the pimples after saturday.
i will kill and dry it with HIGH concentation of tea tree oil and saliyic (duno how to spell lah) acid.
hell.
(haha. shit. i sound so vain.)

and we spent hours from 3am to i think 5 am at the bball court.
passing frisbe around.
i think my technique of passing and catchin the disk is getting worse.
urgh. :(
and it really reminds me of letitia!
i missed playing frisbe with her. :(

and the chalet reminded me of both benny and letitia.
the small chalet we had last year.
at the exact place.
doing almost the same stuff.
hahaha.
stupid benny.
to think i actually missed a hippotamus.

ayah.
i am shagged. totally.
deprived of sleep.
but i GOT NO TIME.
urgh.

but i really have to add that singing with weiliang for hours, is sooo amusing and hilarious.
yay.
singing awfully rocks. hahaha. (:

gotta run along now.
laters! (:

i think i am on the verge of breaking down.
on the verge.
not yet.
not yet.

can't believe i actually cried over something so minor.
so superficial.
but then i always cry after arguing with dad.
it beats me why.
why him.

i think i am stretched to my limits.
i can only handle so much.
so much for being jiamin.
i am lousy.
pathetic.

relationships with everyone,
studies,
a levels,
the upcoming db nationals,
expectations from everyone,
low self-confidence.

it's been a long time since i cried.
heh.

i hate myself. seriously.
i hate my life.

STUPID LIFE.

urgghhh.
i need to exercise more self-discipline.

anyhow,
i just went to read the kayakers forum.
there's somethings i wanna say in here, but can't.
haha.

but anyway,
i think we, the dragonboaters will ultimately go up on that stage,
and get the medals. (:
(because at the end of the day, this is our race afterall.)

come on girls,
we can dooo it.
we did it before. :D

we didn't have to control tired for nothing, you know. haha.
plus, we're strong.
strong as a team and strong individually.
it's our last race people.
i know crapping down here, makes no contribution at all.
( perhaps to myself only. trying to motivate myself. hoho)
but then, it's really the last few sessions that we are in a boat together,
rowing as one.

after this, no more.
everything is over.
no more dirty kallang water (hail to clean, unblemished skin! haha),
or warm-up(s), jumping jacks,
push up(s), attempted pull-up(s),
sharing of plastic bottles, no more hearing of that 'O--N---E' sound,
no more butt-ache, no more top arm aches,
no more anything.

and i frankly worry for the opposite gender team.
but then again, i wud rather focus on my race. OUR race.
i think there'll be a high chance for both 12 and 24 men boat.
24 men could be a sure win.
but i aim for the silver or the gold leh.

12 men?
duh. miracles don't happen.
WE MAKE THEM.

jia you jia you.
5 more days.

i think i'll miss rowing with you guys very much after 11th.

freak lah.
i HATE jeepers creepers.
it made me sweat.
wa lau.
I HATE IT LAH.
i am scaredddddddddd.
stupid show.

wanted to catch it at the cinemas with my people two years ago.
in bugis.
it was a NC-16 movie.
luckily we were still underage.
i'll kill myself if i spend 6.50 on a freak show.

watching 'meet joe black' now.
BRAD PITT is so pretty.
PRETTY. gorgeous.
such a pity that human ages.
he's old already.
but still, WAH! makes me so gaga.

watched waterboys just now too.
i like the main actor leh.
that guy. (yeah lah, that one)
damn it,
why does shuai ge(s) only appear on TV?

okay.
enough of being so superficial.
the dense me, shall continue KPKB about ewhat happened today.

(screw! the girl kissed brad pittt. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
and dad have to switch the tv off. @&(#!)(&#(!!!!! )

i am just tired.
very friggin tired.
my body is weak.
i need more rest.
more sleep.
MORE TIME lah.

and i wan the colours award.

heh.

had a frigging constant headache.
now tummyache.
urgh.
training later. 6 more days onlyyy.

read huili's blog.
she wrote on the multi-tasking of teens, in reference of y'dae's strait times paper.
so i went to read the papers too.
how true.

ironically i am pretty against mulit-tasking.
like the quote wrote: to do two things at the same thing is to do neither.
but the thing is, i found myself immersing comfortably in doing many things at the same time.
heh.

like now,
my radio is on,
i got my bio txt on my com desk,
and i am happily blogging away.
how's that?

little wonder why i got such short attention span.
and it totally sucks.

but somehow,
it's comforting to know that short attention spans are raging among many many people.
ahh.
so i am not the only person who is troubled by it.
yay.

hahaha.
i am such an asshole.

okay.
after this, i better practise doing-one-thing-at-a-time.
shall off my com, off my radio, keep my book and bathe.
then go out and eat.
(haha. eating is my ultimate choiceeee.)

and i better calm my mind and body down.
i think i'm so stressed up,
the frequent occurrences of YOU KNOW WHAT (3 times per month leh.)
the persistence headache,
the bad appetite.

ahh.
all a lvl's fault.

haha. what crap.

today's training was insane.
the strong me also cannot take it.
(hoho. who am i kidding?)
hahaa.

anyway, we saw a dead bloated cat in the water today.
it was so inflated with air that it looked like a little piglet, instead of a cat lah.
and when i told dad about it,
he actually reminded me about our indonesia ferry trip back singapore a few years ago.
we actually spotted a dead caucasian cause we were like the starboard side of the ferry,
enjoying the breeze.
i can vividly remembered that i was playing with the electronic game (some fighting one) whcih i borrowed from my cousin.
and right after i saw the bloated corpse,
i didn't dare to touch that device anymore.
it used to freak me out so much.
ha, to think that i forgot about it.

and dad have to comment to me that the dead man's eyeballs are prolly eaten by the fishes already.
he reasoned with the fact that eyeballs are the softest part of the body.
he added that if you were to poke a hole into the body, the body will sink.

yeah. this is my dad.

anyway,
i am so shagged now that i am goin to bathe right after this,
and then go to sleep.

sorry for not being able to watch the movies with the girls today.
jiamin is totally broke.
(while some people refused to let me earn some quick money thru easy coxing. YOU KNOW WHO)

oh well,
the end. (:

my com is repaired. (:
yay. (:

but i must keep quite a distance away from it.
must focus. focus. focus.
concentrate on mugging.
cannot let my thoughts and concentration falter.
bear with it, jiamin.

anyway, been slacking my days away.
not after this blog anymore.
will head back to studying. (:

and i have been thinking a lot.
acquaintances, friends, good friends, best friends, and what is love actually.

acquaintances,
whom are relatively fine with me, will never know the real me.
whom i don't really like, are the ones who i somehow pretended to be friendly and nice to.

friends are those from secondary school.
those whom i was close to, in the past.
those whom i dearly missed, up to now.

good friends are people from jc. (:
people like the dragonboat girls.
(xue ping, shu hui, christie, ying chun, leah, hui sin, hui xian.)
see? i even bothered to type their names out one by one.
and liyan, jie yin, maybe a lot more. madeline, hui li, denise..

best friends, are just like amanda and me.
sam, chun, xin, jen.
but more of amanda and me.
the increaed frequencies of seeing each other, made us rather sick of each other.
but now that the holidays has come, and i don't get to meet her (due to our schdueles)
i must say, i rather missed her.
there's so much i want to tell and hear from her.
and jennifer.
i kinda missed her stupid laughter.
yeah, jen, your laughter is stupid.
hahaha.
so are you.
(HAHA. i know jen jen doesn't like to be labelled as stupid.)

and talking about love.
was thinking day and night leh.
while i was hanging clothes.
heh.

now i disagree with what i have said.
i don't think that i will get sick of my husband near the future.
if i love him. (duh. i will, right? haha)

to me,
love is,

more than a feeling.
like, you don't mind doing chores for each other.
washing their clothes, hanging their clothes (note, even their undergarments).


you don't mind driving your loved ones in wee hours out for supper,
even though you're damn tired.
just like how my dad drove me and brother for supper at 1am, when we complained that we're hungry.
and while we eat, he slept on the table. haha.

you missed seeing them when u don't see them for a day.
just like how everyone at home, missed my brohter when he went for his sec 2 adventure camp.
i think it'll worsen when he heads to NS.heh.

you actually think that they're still good-looking after looking at them for years.
just like how i think my family members are good looking.
especially my dad and brother.
woots. (:

you won't get mad at them for long.
hahaha. or is it that they just have a way to make me happy after pissing me off.

ayah,
i don't know lah.

and i still don't understand why people just cannot stand the way i walk.
not even my family.
heh.
and here's the funny part.
while walking to the mrt last training with the girls,
i actually got a LAO UNCLE to cycle past me twice and whistled.
HAHAHA.

and i got my own trainers to train me to walk properly.
i don't understand why people have to walk until so rigid and make themselves so uncomfortable.

urgh.