oh fuck.

i love edison chen guan xi.

oh fuck.

ah well,
i can't believe i actually signed up for xanga when i don't intend to use it.
never mind. (:

friendster really features lotsa eye-candies.
damn it.
i hate myself for being so hideous.

and i actually saw someone that caught my eye.....
the side view.. wa.. lau....
too bad lah.. just too bad lah...
wasted.
ayah, maybe i should just stick to ____________. (:

and oh, been seeing this nyp guy living near me.
haha. not bad sia.
even amanda agree with me.
we tried to stalk him.
hahaha. not really stalk lah,
just followed closely, cause we were walking home and he was walking along with us.
woots.
haha.
but apparenlty, he took a longer route,
which looks as if he knows we are following him.
but WE ARE NOT.
now that i know he lives in blk 227, hahaha.

and hey, i am not desperate or something.
just some hormones trigging somewhere.
wheee.

life like this, should go on forever. (:

how i wish there's more to life.
i'm tired of mugging.
not that i have been doing it much.
but sighhhhhh.........................

anyway, congrats to mr yap who just got into OCS.
WA LAU. omg.
so shuaiii.
i mean OCS very shuai..

and i passed my manicure test.
HAHAH.
so proud of myself.

won the bball tournament too.
am a lousy player.
sigh.
gordon said that i ought to be playing rugby, not bball.
i think so too.

sigh.
time for dinner. (:

not supposed to be online.
fucking hell, jiamin.
you're supposed to study.
but there's really something i need to deal here lah.

plus, i am completing the tutorials i am supposed to finish off.

life's been good for me. (:
good friends, good food, good health, good internet connections, good computer, good everything.
okay, this is crap.
ayah, except of being deprived of sleep,
everything is superb.

it came to my realization that....
people don't realise what they got until they lose it.
yeah, it might be a cock and old saying,
but it happens all the time, doesn't it?
to me,
to you,
anytime anyhow.

so,
stupid cong de,
you will regret it when she really doesn't fancy you anymore.
cause no one will like you.
this is an exception.
hahaha.
get it?

don't let love pass you by.
they say it's best to be loved than to love someone. (:

ayah, talking about cong de.
i need to thank him alot.
hahaha.
see? i'm so NICE and GOOD to you again.

thank you for being my instant hand warmer.
thank you for bringing your jacket for me when i say i'm cold.
thank you for making me study integration.
thank you for your daily sms-es.
thank you for telling me that my husband will be rich.
thank you for taking the unnecessary mrt trips.
thank you for insulting me always.
thank you for all your lousy advices.
thank you for pissing me off easily.
thank you for boosting my morale.
thank you for folding my jacket over and over again.
thank you for putting up with my nonsense.
thank you for the apple pie.
thank you for the company.
thank you for being such a good friend.....

but you can never replace amanda!
she's even nicer than you.

so.......................
try harder.

see you for dinner tml anyway.

so drained,
though i did barely studied today.

it's always only one chapter per week.
i don't think i can finish my syllabus for all three subs for prelims again..
teo cong de lah.
always ask me don't study already.
or or.. want to eat or not?
or... you hungry or not?

hai me cannot reach my targets sia.
now i owe myself so many rounds of track.
haha.

see la.
waste my time.
time and tide waits for no man.
how are you going to compensate me sia.
hahah.

there's so many food out there awaiting for me to eat.
so many places i want to go.
but i need my personal chaffeur, mr teo, to get his stupid car license first.
so.. hurry up okay.
especially when it comes to going home from chalets or bbqs.
i don't like the idea of going home myself.
heh.

oh.
just had a small gathering with my primary school mates.
haha.
they've grown up quite a bit.
tall, hairy, manly voiced, filled with testostrone.
haha.
of course, the girls grew prettier and prettier lah.
hahaha.
but everyone looks the same, just older.
i think i'm the one who have changed the most.
i used to be a fierce girl who have a toot mushroom hair cut and big specs.
haha.
but then again, i still enjoy hitting people. (:

and i like the part where i made rui yang spit out his coke outta his mouth.
that guy... is as timid as me and leah.
hahaha.

we chatted about pri school times,
from the classmates to the teachers.
things like, i give you one flying kick and send you to london, or GU NIANG!

the things we did like throwing paper aeroplanes to the trees outside the classrooms to the whole class bullying roy.

we talked about other classmates' recent lives.
li wei being the infamous ah beng in the whole of pasir ris, sigh.
that guy used to be my best guy mate in primary school.
could still remember his previous home no, 62428782.
just to dial this number a lot. haha.

talked about what we're currently doing and what our ambition is.
our dreams.
our lives.

so weird.
i haven't meet them since 5 yrs aso after we have graduated from pri school.
yet we still got so much to talk about.
so much for fretting over what to do during the chalet.
i even brought my chem notes for emergency purpose.
haha.

reached home late to find that bring it on was aired on tv.
urgh.
only watched the back part.
but i realised cheerleading is so fucking cool.
damn.

that mickey song is getting me damn high.

you take me by the heart when you take me by the hand

everytime when i see someone depressed over their relationships,
i felt happy for myself..
no.
no because i am high on people breaking up,
nor because it's fun to see people cry over others.

but because,
i don't need to go through all that torment.
oh well,
maybe i've chose the right path all along.
and yesh, i am going to stick to it,
until.......................

my heart is ready for self-destruction.

but meanwhile,
i shall tend it to lovingly and carefully.

the human body can only take you so far,
afterwhich it;'s the human spirit that carries you on.

time to hit the books again.
nothing venture, nothing gain.

rest in peace, my brain cells.

ahh.
i'm drained.

let's talk about the recent drama i'm involved in.
hahaha.
very recent indeed.
happened only hours ago.
hahaha.
silly nice-tempered denise BLEW up!
hahahaha.
and i thought it was my fault cause she screamed at me.
poor me.
*sobs.
she screamed: SHUT UP LAH YOU.
for the very first time, she shut me up.
hahah.
relax lah, da lover. :P

what else?
this week had been a torture.
oh, talk about my achievement.
i finished that dan brown book, angels and demons, in 4 days.
yay.

stayed up till wee hours just to complete that book, every night.
that book really amazes me.
no wonder nua nua kept hogging that copy of his.
haha.

haven't been studying much.
dan brown lah. that si yao siew.
hahaha.

and oh,
we had our 1st bball match last wed.
wa. i didn't know bball was so much fun, until tt day.
won the juniors by a bit.
i scored the 1st goal. yay.
so super proud.

did vball too.
eeyer.
suffered bruises on the arms.
tsk.

went back to manjusri today.
the school's anniversary.
not many people that i know, went back.
but i saw the teachers.
i still fancy mdm ernie and mrs tan.
they rock a lot. (:

errr.....
i'm meeting cong tml and tml's tml.
hahah.
one day, we'll get sick of seeing each other.

meanwhile,
just smile and wave.

ps. sanjay, i'm so damn elated and proud of you.
and i think you know that already. haha.
just here to affirm it. :P

maybe only durians and some chocolates will perk me up a little.

actually, there're alternatives too.
maybe you, will make everything right again.

but that's only maybe.

sigh.
i am going beserk soon, i tell you.
i am so fucked up.
so very fucked.

anyway, today was the AC ceremony.
xiao ai, jia ying and madeline made the dance very successful. (:
don't worry, you people did well.
everything went smoothly.

and, haha,
we had nick shen weijun as our ambassor.
met him at the doorway.
he said hi to me.
HAHA. (:

how i wish i am somewhere else.
anywhere but home.
it's getting on my nerves seriously.

i think it's time to start everything over again.

and yes,
what's not mine, will never be mine.

it's not going to work out right.

i asked congde today.

the question which sam sam asked xin hui,
"we're such good friends...is it because we both need each other's company?"

he said no.
i didn't probe further.

i think that's more than enough. (:

short entry here:

jiaming bought me dou jiang you tiao yesterday.
haha.
i think he's being silly.
fancy being late to school for buying food.
blah.
and the metal container
which he proudly showed off by holding it and walking throughout the school premises to find me, is damn amusing.
but it's really really nice of him. (:
and i really really like dou jiang you tiao. (:

and sorry for not picking up your calls.
haha. kinda vibration resistant.
made you ransack the whole school. haha.

anyway, it brought about a lot of benefits.
mr lim had it.
jen jen had it.
amanda had it.
i had it.
so did the canteen auntie.
haha. (:

so, thank you, jiaming. (:
please don't do it again.
though it's NICE. but not worth. :P

i just fell in love...................

with this song. (:

it has sad meanings,
click: zhi dao bu zhi dao .

sad songs can be so beautiful...

sometimes i really don't understand.

sometimes i don't even bothered to.

sigh.

today is one of the happier days.

it's really taxing on the mind to see people studying in the airport.
while i was trying to do so.
failed.

sigh.
but still, it's nice to .......

have a good friend whom you don't really see frequently, with you.

but you never fail to make me drained, cong de.
i wonder why.

haha.

sigh.
today is a terrible day.

went home straight after school to take a nap.
intended to go Bk to mug after my an hour nap.
but............... i woke up hearing my grandma's screams.

apparently, she fell down.
and it was her second fall for today.
because she was partially (read: almost) deaf,
she couldn't really understand me and what i was trying to do to help her.
instead, she screamed for me to stop,
and even struggled against me.

brother and i....... were pretty helpless.
watching her grabbing the window as though it was her dear life.
i think her arms are pretty strong sia.
i can't even tahan holding on to the window grill for 5 mins, with my weight,
and she did it for more than 30 mins.
after failing to get her fingers off the grill,
i barely helped.
i am really lost.

then jie came back.
i was so fucking relieved can.
so relieved that i weep.
sorry for being a wuss,
but............ i felt so helpless then.

then jie and btoher kinda forced open her fingers,
afterwhich i carry her to the sofa and made her lay down.

anyway, my grandma is such an obstinate person.
freaking stubborn can?
within minutes, she was up and about again,
at her third footing, she collapsed again.
..............................

we made her sit....
but every one minute, she will want to walk again.
FREAK LA.
even making her sit down is such a chore.
so frustrating can.

and it took me from 2.45pm to now, which is 5pm,
to settle her down.
cause mum just reached home.
zzzz.

anyway, i think my grandma is sick.
she got the fever already.
and you know what?
brother haven't even recover from it yet.
.............

he is supposed to go to school today.
but........ something happened in the car.
haha.
he's still sick.

sigh.
everyone at home is falling sick.
so i musn't. (:

anyway, i got 35 for biology.
an O.
still a fail grade.
haha.
pathetic.

oh well, here's my pathetic summary of marks for common test...

GP - 32 marks (wa seh. my first time scoring so bloody low. expected though)
chem - 32 marks (F grade) got nothing to say at this. my chem suck.
bio - 35 marks (a just nice O grade) sigh. gotta work harder.
maths - 57 (a C grade.) i am so proud though i know i can do better. (:



haha. jie is so going to kp me if she know this.

oh well.
GP was another major joke.

go and die lah.
it's just a common test.

there's no way i am going to end up like this anymore.

i made my promises to some people
and i am so going to keep them.

so there.

i am so happy lately.
hahaha.

no,
not because i get a F for chemistry.
32% only leh..

haha.

this is a joke.

watched initial d for the second time. (:
with amanda this time.
at the same place.
haha.

indeed,
it was a nice show.
hahahahahaha.

i like it already.
esp the parts with edison chen.
woots!

shuang. (:

anyway,
brother got sick today.
he had fever.
haha.

i think jie brought home the virus sia.
at first she got fever,
then i got irritating symdromes like blocked nose, sore throat and headaches,
then brother got fever.

now i wonder who's next.

CHOY!

sighh.
my head aches. :(

and i have a slight sore throat.
haha.
with courtesy of mr teo cong de.

sian la.
it's evening le.
and my work is still undone.

i ought to choose to go swimming with letitia
if i know i am going to slack today.

this is crap.
totally.

anyway,
i realised that being single is DAMN DAMN fucking good.
you don't need to do everything twice.
so unlike the fact that i am going to watch initial D tml again with amanda.
luckily it's a pretty nice show. (:

hail to being single!

oh well.
today is a good day. (:

met up with cong de.
i was late. haha.
but i think it's okay la,
he have gotten used to it.
despite the frequency rate we are meeting up.

and i think this is the first one for the year.
not bad right. haha
went airport to mug lah.
in the end, i only did two questions.
good right?
=____________-

then was lunch.
we didn't know what to eat.
hahaha.
walked everywhere and landed up at the subway area.
and you know what?
it's the first time i ate subway.
and it's really nice leh!
hahahaha. i like. (:

then i went to queue up for dou hua!
and guess who i saw?
NICOLE!
hahaha.
such a coincedence.

after the meal, there's really nothing much to do,
so we went to bedok's princess (the movie theatre) to watch initial D,
cause he wanted to rewatch and i haven't see it yet.

princess isn't tt cocked what.
can sit, got air con.
pretty nice what.
LOW IN VALUE TOO! (:

edison chen is HOT HOT HOT HOT!
jay chou looks funny cause his acting skills are......... normal.
shawn yue is cute.
i like that cocked guy, jay chou's buddy. DAMN FUNNY SIA.
buay tahan. (:

the driving skills are cool lah.
but i don't understand why it is worth a second watch.

anwyay, after the show,
we went to find xin hui!
AHHH!
she've grown prettier! (:
missed her and the rest so much.

then cong accompanied me while we wait for the bus.

wah, i don't know why.
but the minute i reached home,
i fell asleep.

why sia!
i think cong must have bore me for hours just now.
HAHAHA.
kidding. (:

oh well,
i moved on.

crushes are ultimately ..................just crushes.

talking to sizhao now.
about crushes.

she said: crushes are the best.
no1 gets hurt.
not you. not the other party.
it's the sweet feelings.


oh well, i wonder it's true.

i musn't think too much. (:

haha.
i am a qualified nail painter/buffer.
hahahaha.
not really lah.
but i went back to school for interact yesterday,
to learn how to buffer and paint nails.
from a professional.
quite cool right?
but it got boring after an hour.

and it's 3 hours.
blah.
i was practically bored and stoned.

and donkey left school without meeting me.
he doesn't want to talk to me.
boo hoo. :(

afterwhich,
me and amanda chionged outta school,
and head to TM.
walked like mad, and ended up buying a very funny looking bag for her mother.

and we saw.....................
JENNIFER and her SISTER!
hahahaha.
wa! see her i very happy sia.
and we kept laughing and talking very loudly.
a bit.... bo xiang,
but never mind lah.
it's the fun. haha.

then after jen jen left,
amanda and i were stucked there.
not knowing what to do,
so we went to buy durians from shop-and-save store in CS.
hahaha.
and we went to the seats at the sides of the entrance of the tampines MRT station.
stationed there and eat eat eat.
hahaha. so funny. but yet fun. (:

went home and met a few siao people online.
i think NS is really bad for the mind.
people go mentally unsound on weekends.
haha.
i really worry for my brother.

and talked to donkey after so long of not talking to him.
oh well.

random talks.

i think this is so damn accurate. haha.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

am i like that?

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

i am attractive leh! haha

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

don't have any to start with la.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

sigh.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

MONEY! i like!

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

i don't like to work. :(

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

come on lah. just where is the one i love?

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

see lah. peer pressure but no leh. i still like to wear my FBT shorts and teva slippers roaming about.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I AM MATURE, REASONABLE, HONEST!
seee?
got anything must tell me, i will advice u! HAHA

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